I want my life back.

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Hi.
My name is Natalie, I'm 22 years old, married since 4 years, mom to a 2-year old precious daughter and about to graduate from university with a Bachelors of Arts in Translating English, German, French and Spanish.
Since I'm not a Native speaker, I apologize for mistakes. I hope it's fine though (university must have been good for something :p )

Long story short: My busy lifestyle and weakness for perfection made me forget about myself, my health and body. I have never been the skinniest person in class and being pregnant with my daughter back in the day made me gain that extra that made me go from "a little muffintop" to "fat". Now with all that extra stress added (I'm writing my finals this month), I eat ridiculously much, especially what I shouldn't (like chocolates and chips), and sports is a word that seems to happen on another planet.

I'm sick of breathing heavy just to get on the 3rd floor of our house. I'm sick of sitting lazy on a bench at the playground. I'm sick of WANTING to be lazy. I don't wanna be lazy. And I don't wanna lay around. Just something in me does. I'm sick of that me. I don't like how I look, I don't like my low self-esteem, I don't like that I don't wanna go out, I don't like that I don't wanna go shopping anymore, I hate the automatic comparisons that happen in my head when I see a pretty girl. I hate that instead of making friends with girls I have crap like that in my mind. I hate being this way.

That's why I wanna lose weight. For me, and only me. I need some serious motivation, and I'm trying to look in every corner and suck out anything I can to become happy again. And social. Heck, I'm 22. And I feel like I'm living the life of a 60-year old. This is not it. It can't be. And I don't wanna look back and say "In my younger years.. Yeah. I was fat. So I didn't go out and enjoy life." No no no. This is not gonna happen.

I want my life back. Now.

Oh. Maybe I should post my weight. I'm 160cm (I think thats about 5'2) and I weigh 75 kgs (165 lbs). I hate my boobs and I hate my tummy and hip area. My legs are way out of range too, I just killed a pair of pants yesterday.

Maybe there's someone out there who's hearing me. I'm eager to meet you if your going through the same pains I do and don't wanna live with it but get the fight on.

Cheers.
 
TAKE IT! It is yours to take! You have the right to live healthy and happy.
Do it for yourself and your daughter.
You've take a right step, but don't give up!
Look at this website, read up on what you need to know, and let us know how you're doing. We're here to help.
 
Natalie,

All I am reading is "I don't want this, I don't want that". I hate this, I hate that". What do you want? Why be so down about the body you were born with? I was going to post an article I wrote about an major achievement in my life, which you may have found inspriational, but I don't want to post the link just in case I get told off.

Until you are in the right frame of mind, you might find yourself getting stuck. What you need to do is concentrate on what you want because not wanting something will only bring more of what you don't want. I hope this makes sense. You are putting a lot of energy into things you hate/ dislike so what about transferring this energy into postive thoughts? What about a doing a vision board? Create the life and body you want and then get cracking on the things you need to do to make it happen.
 
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Oh, you wouldn't be told off less you break the rules. If your link was connected to your site where you are trying to sell people stuff, then yes, it would be removed.
 
I'm new here, and I know what you mean. I'm a prisoner of my own body and I'm sick and tired of it. I'm 42 with a 9 year old daughter and 2 year old son. At 306#, I have to do something now or my kids will grow up without a Dad. I want to have the energy to get out and play with my kids, do yard work, and be the person I used to be. 9 years ago, I was as fit as could be. A high stress job and high stress personal life lead to chronic insomnia and killed my exercise routine. Everything fell apart from there and I ended up weighing more than ever. For me, the time is now. A couple of friends my age just died from being in the shape I am now...I don't want that for me or my family. We can do this and we can do it now. I have a long way to go...2 #s per week and I'm there in a year. 1# per week and I'm there in 2. Consistently chipping away and not giving up is the key. Each day is a new day, yesterday is gone.
 
hey,
I'm 21 with a lot of responsibilities too, I look after my sister and mom...its hard not to feel like an old head on young shoulders, when even when I do get a chance to relax and act my age and have some time off, my social anxiety and bad body image gets in the way! I think we just have to focus on ourselves a bit more here, and do what we need to get healthy+ enjoy our lives! Are there any fitness classes near you or at your university you could try. Maybe kickboxing, or yoga, or zumba, or anything!
all the best!
 
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