I guess this is the place to post this. I am new here. I lost 55 pounds at one point and got down to 135. Took me four years total to lose the weight, so it wasn't some fad diet. I got back up to 140-145 and that seemed right, although I still thought I was fat and dreamed of weighing less. In the last 7 months I've gained 30 pounds. Medicine I'm taking for depression has wiped out my energy, so some days I hardly get out of bed before I go to work (where I sit all night). I think the medicine also has some weight-gain potential itself. And I'm so unmotivated/depressed I don't eat right. All a way of saying I'm fat and hate myself for it. A cycle. I want to lose. I want to be able to eat correctly. I want to get some sleep. I "treat" myself to sweets because I feel there is nothing else in my life, so why not. But I do it all the time. I am again growing out of the clothes I grew out of last time I put on so much weight. I kept all the "fat clothes." Good thing, to, or I'd be out buying them again. I don't know. My dream weight is 125 (or less). I'm 5'4". In reality I could probably get to 135 and maintain at 140-145. I know how to do it. Get up and start moving. Ditch the sweets, eat regularly. I work nights so my sleep/eat schedule is out of whack with normal. I have so many excuses and no motivation.
