Hello! I am Lost and stuck and don't know what to do. I am 29 and have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I have been skinny and I am now probably at my biggest. I do not know what size I am to be honest cause I wear stretchy clothes. I have had two men leave me because of my weight, even though I have never been over a size 12/14 now I am probably a 14/16.
I have an auto immune disease that is effecting my heart at the moment and have been told by my specialist to not do any exercise that raises my heart rate. Even while walking I have to be able to hold a normal conversation. I used to go to the gym and really enjoyed it, but due to my inability to exercise properly I have given up all together. It is as if I am trying to get as fat as possible.
Also (and quite humorously) my fiance is a personal trainer and body builder, who is fully aware of his fat percentage at all times. He is over seas at the moment but is coming back in early December. He knows I have put on weight, we skype every day, he could probably tell you exactly how many kilos I have put on and it be spot on, but he puts absolutely no pressure on me at allllll. He tells me every day that I am beautiful and amazing and rah rah rah. But the fact is I used to feel embarrassed walking next to such a fit and handsome man before, I couldn't imagine waddling next to him now. I just need something to make me stop consuming so much. I also need to get out there and walk. I just need to do it.
No one seems to understand, I talk to them about my weight, but they don't seem to understand how lost I am. They just tell me it is the steroids I am on, and while it is true, I can feel the water retention, I have also put on fat.
I live in a really hot part of aus, and am terrified of summer too. I have enough time to budge the weight, maybe like 15 kilos, I just need the motivation to do it.
I have an auto immune disease that is effecting my heart at the moment and have been told by my specialist to not do any exercise that raises my heart rate. Even while walking I have to be able to hold a normal conversation. I used to go to the gym and really enjoyed it, but due to my inability to exercise properly I have given up all together. It is as if I am trying to get as fat as possible.
Also (and quite humorously) my fiance is a personal trainer and body builder, who is fully aware of his fat percentage at all times. He is over seas at the moment but is coming back in early December. He knows I have put on weight, we skype every day, he could probably tell you exactly how many kilos I have put on and it be spot on, but he puts absolutely no pressure on me at allllll. He tells me every day that I am beautiful and amazing and rah rah rah. But the fact is I used to feel embarrassed walking next to such a fit and handsome man before, I couldn't imagine waddling next to him now. I just need something to make me stop consuming so much. I also need to get out there and walk. I just need to do it.
No one seems to understand, I talk to them about my weight, but they don't seem to understand how lost I am. They just tell me it is the steroids I am on, and while it is true, I can feel the water retention, I have also put on fat.
I live in a really hot part of aus, and am terrified of summer too. I have enough time to budge the weight, maybe like 15 kilos, I just need the motivation to do it.
