Hey there lovelies.
I've only joined this forum for a week or two now, but it has been an inspiring experience reading all kinds of motivational words from the lot of you. I've managed to collect heaps of tips on how to lose weight the right way, and most of the info are completely new to me.
A bit of intro, my name is Aini
and I am 24 years old, from Malaysia. Have always been a bit on the heavy side. It's kinda tough being chubby especially when I'm around my stick thin mum and older sister. They eat A LOT, mind you, constantly snacking unhealthily but they don't gain weight at all. So anyway, I also have (had?) bad eating habits, munching anything available from the fridge all the time. But I've stopped that almost completely for about 5 weeks now. A feat I never thought possible before joining this forum.
I've always been heavier than my peers due to the fact that I'm taller than most of them (Malaysians are generally tiny) and it used to drive me insane. Even when I managed to go down to a reasonable weight, I would still see myself as a fat ugly girl.
So yeah, now I'm determined to lose the fat through proper exercise and good eating habit. Have been religiously counting my calories intake for 5 weeks, and have been going to the gym 5 days a week, working on cardio and a bit of weight lifting. I have to say, I do see improvements. Not much, but still, something is better than nothing. I see muscles forming on my arms, my curves are more noticeable, i can sprint faster on the treadmill (though not longer!).
However, I have to say, today at the gym, I was feeling absolutely horrid. With every step, my finger itched to tap on the treadmill's 'stop' button and just quit. My feelings toward exercising today totally contradict yesterday's feelings. Yesterday I was so energetic and loved the treadmill. Today I wanted to pour gasoline on the damn thing and set it on fire. The mind boggles.
I guess i'm just having a 'bad' day. Blegh. I still feel awful, pretty discouraged. Especially since I just compared my current bikini pictures to 2 weeks ago bikini pictures, and seeing absolutely no difference. Perhaps my expectation is too high, idk. Maybe its the fact that I've only lost 1kg (2.2lbs) after 5 weeks. I know I should be more patient, but *shrugs*, today I've been thinking about it and it really bothers me.
So anyway, i'm hoping tomorrow will be a brand new day and I'd be able to work my ass off without any urge to throw in the towel. There's still a loooong way to go, and if I quit now, I know I'll never get to my goal weight, ever.
'I have the power to change!' <--- my new mantra
Can't wait to update after tomorrow's session. Let's hope it'll go well *cross fingers*
I've only joined this forum for a week or two now, but it has been an inspiring experience reading all kinds of motivational words from the lot of you. I've managed to collect heaps of tips on how to lose weight the right way, and most of the info are completely new to me.
A bit of intro, my name is Aini
and I am 24 years old, from Malaysia. Have always been a bit on the heavy side. It's kinda tough being chubby especially when I'm around my stick thin mum and older sister. They eat A LOT, mind you, constantly snacking unhealthily but they don't gain weight at all. So anyway, I also have (had?) bad eating habits, munching anything available from the fridge all the time. But I've stopped that almost completely for about 5 weeks now. A feat I never thought possible before joining this forum. I've always been heavier than my peers due to the fact that I'm taller than most of them (Malaysians are generally tiny) and it used to drive me insane. Even when I managed to go down to a reasonable weight, I would still see myself as a fat ugly girl.
So yeah, now I'm determined to lose the fat through proper exercise and good eating habit. Have been religiously counting my calories intake for 5 weeks, and have been going to the gym 5 days a week, working on cardio and a bit of weight lifting. I have to say, I do see improvements. Not much, but still, something is better than nothing. I see muscles forming on my arms, my curves are more noticeable, i can sprint faster on the treadmill (though not longer!).
However, I have to say, today at the gym, I was feeling absolutely horrid. With every step, my finger itched to tap on the treadmill's 'stop' button and just quit. My feelings toward exercising today totally contradict yesterday's feelings. Yesterday I was so energetic and loved the treadmill. Today I wanted to pour gasoline on the damn thing and set it on fire. The mind boggles.
I guess i'm just having a 'bad' day. Blegh. I still feel awful, pretty discouraged. Especially since I just compared my current bikini pictures to 2 weeks ago bikini pictures, and seeing absolutely no difference. Perhaps my expectation is too high, idk. Maybe its the fact that I've only lost 1kg (2.2lbs) after 5 weeks. I know I should be more patient, but *shrugs*, today I've been thinking about it and it really bothers me.
So anyway, i'm hoping tomorrow will be a brand new day and I'd be able to work my ass off without any urge to throw in the towel. There's still a loooong way to go, and if I quit now, I know I'll never get to my goal weight, ever.
'I have the power to change!' <--- my new mantra
Can't wait to update after tomorrow's session. Let's hope it'll go well *cross fingers*
Mind you it's still pretty tight around the hips but I'm sure it'll fit like a dream in 2-3 weeks time *prays*
wanna look hot underneath that giant robe!