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Zechs Merquise

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I was eating my third Double Whopper today and I was getting that greasy stuff all over my hands. I didn't even really think about it but instead of using a napkin, I felt compelled to lick it all off of myself. Right then I had a revelation. I looked down at myself and realized what a fat slob I have become. In high school I was a star quarterback and now my wife won't even touch me intimately anymore. I can't see my feet or my genitals. I started to alternate between laughing hystarically and crying right there in front of a bunch of people in Burger King.

They have those narrow seats there and when I tried to get up and leave really fast because I was emberassed, I got stuck for a minute. That made the teenagers next to me start laughing at me. I was really crying then and I heard a little girl ask her mommy "what was wrong with that fat man." I lost it today and threw the rest of my milkshake at them. I went home and now I don't want to leave the house. I've eaten every Little Debbie snack in the whole house and I've been crying for hours.

Nobody loves me and everyone thinks I'm a freak. I tried to talk to my wife and she left to stay at her mother's for a while with the kids. I really need some friends.
 
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i will be your friend. I had tears in my eyes reading your story and i feel it for you. You feel like you let yourslef down and it hurts inside; i know what you feel llike. there are manhy other nice people here who can help you out. I really hope you can try to feel better about yourself because no matter who you are, someone out there loves you no matter what. Please dont hate yourself because of you outward appearance; this fukced up society is what makes you feel so bad because we only care about looking good; i know that you are a good person just by reading your post. If you are here looking for friends; you found one. Please update this post when you read it and describe to me what you feel like and what you plan to do.

we care
 
Ditto. This forum is LOADED with kind, helpful people who will see you through!
 
I'll be your friend also. I have been here only a few days but have realised how great these people are. I know that you will feel warmly welcomed here and hopefully you will stick around. If you ever need to talk, just PM me and I'll write you back as soon as I read it.
 
Zechs, listen you had a horrible experience today. This pain and shame must have been festering inside for a long time and just could not be held in anymore. Now is the critical time. You can use this pain. But you have to make a choice. Forget what happened today and try to live with the body you hate, or take a stand and change your life and start getting in shape. The members of this forum are good people and we will help you whenever you need it. There is so much knowledge here. We are here to support you. I'm eager to see you change your life.
 
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Zechs Merquise said:
I was eating my third Double Whopper today and I was getting that greasy stuff all over my hands. I didn't even really think about it but instead of using a napkin, I felt compelled to lick it all off of myself. Right then I had a revelation. I looked down at myself and realized what a fat slob I have become. In high school I was a star quarterback and now my wife won't even touch me intimately anymore. I can't see my feet or my genitals. I started to alternate between laughing hystarically and crying right there in front of a bunch of people in Burger King.

They have those narrow seats there and when I tried to get up and leave really fast because I was emberassed, I got stuck for a minute. That made the teenagers next to me start laughing at me. I was really crying then and I heard a little girl ask her mommy "what was wrong with that fat man." I lost it today and threw the rest of my milkshake at them. I went home and now I dont want to leave the house. I've eaten every Little Debbie snack in the whole house and I've been crying for hours.

Nobody loves me and everyone thinks I'm a freak. I tried to talk to my wife and she left to stay at her mother's for a while with the kids. I really need some friends.
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HERE IS ADVICE TO START YOU OFF.


1) SELF
2 SCIENCE
3) SWEAT

NUMBER ONE - UNDERSTANDING UR EMOTIONL REASON BE HIND YOUR WEIGHT AND GET TO THE BOTTOM OF IT.

NUMBER TWO - UNDERSTND THE PROPER NUTRETION AND EATING THE RIGHT FOOD FOR YOU.

NUMBER THREE- YOU GOT TO SWEAT IN ORDER TO LOSE WEIGHT.

YOU DONT SWEAT YOU DONT WORK OUT YOULL NEVER LOSE WEIGHT.

NOW STICK THE SOB STORY UP UR BUTT AND GET UR BUTTT TO WORK.

I EXPECT U TO REPLY TO ME AND SEND ME A MESSEG TO SEE UR WEIGHT LOSS ACHEVMENT.

IF YOU EVER NEED ANYHING PLEASE EMAIL ME
IRISZIRIS@YAHOO.COM

I AM YOUR FRIEND. I WILL BE YOUR FRIEND AND I CAN HEL YOU WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS.

I AM ALWAYS HERE. I KNOW I SOUND HARSH . BUT I AM TELLING YOU EED TO LET GO OF THAT EMOTIONL BAGGAGE AND TURN YOUR SELF AROUND.
 
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Zechs, listen you had a horrible experience today. This pain and shame must have been festering inside for a long time and just could not be held in anymore. Now is the critical time. You can use this pain. But you have to make a choice. Forget what happened today and try to live with the body you hate, or take a stand and change your life and start getting in shape. The members of this forum are good people and we will help you whenever you need it. There is so much knowledge here. We are here to support you. I'm eager to see you change your life.
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HEY I AGREE WITH YOU.

HE HAS TO MAKE A CHOICE NOW AND STICK WITHT HE WEIGHT LOSS PLAN.

I GAV EHIM A WHOLE LOT OF ADVICE. I JUST HOPE HE USES IT.

NUMBER ONE- SELF - UNDERSTAND YOUR EMOTIONL REASON BEHIND YOUR WEIGHT.

NUMBER 2-SCIENCE- UNDERSTANDING THE PROPER NUTRITION AND UNDERSTANDING THE RIGHT FOOD.

NUMBER 3- SWEAT- GOTTA SWEAT TO LOSEE WEIGHT. DONT EXCERSIES NEVER LOSE IT.
 
You've got a friend here too man.
I'm still a newb to the healthy living regime, regardless, if you need someone to talk to, to complain to, to yell at-you've come to the right place.
Your experience really was touching(even after a very hard breakup today) I still managed to feel your pain.
Anytime, any place.
 
I'm in highschool and I'm absolutely certain my weight was affecting my "love" life. Last September I was 210 pounds. I'm now 160. I'm 5'11". I used to cry too. It's good to cry sometimes. The main thing is that if you decide you want to lose the fat, then you stick to working out and you must KNOW you'll lose it. It takes time though. Good luck.
 
Sorry I haven't been on in a couple of days. This new job of mine hasn't left me with a whole lot of time to do anything aside from working and sleeping, unfortunately.
 
I'll also be your friend!

Let's start together, we'll give you the support you'll need. Like mentioned above, there are tons of people who are very knowledgable (sp).

Let's take it one step at a time.

Step 1: Stop eating fast food (you'll be glad you did):)
 
You have already taken your first step.

Many people here understand what it is like to be overweight, and know what you are going through. I am currently close to 50 pounds over my ideal body weight. To some people, that sounds like a lot, to others, it's nothing. I am also a certified personal trainer. Having gained the weight by having 2 children in 2 1/2 years doesn't justify it to me, and makes it no less embarassing.

None of that matters now, what does matter is that I have made the decision to get back on track and lose the weight. The same goes with you, you have made a decision to change your life, and sites like this one can help.
 
Hey man i feel your pain. The hardest part is getting started, but once you do you'll be on the road to a better life, emotionally and physically.
I reecntly lost my job of over 20 years and was really down, beat myself up a lot then I realized I was the only one who could change it. I'm not saying it isn't hard but you can do it. If you need a friend I'm here fr you contact me anytime. There are a lot of great people here that will help and support as you can see from the previous post. So let's get started today!
Good luck and best wishes.
 
I was 158 when I graduated HS... then I ballooned up to 264... 106 lbs... of Pizza & beer... and Burgers & fries...

I had a similiar moment... My kid was sitting on my stomach and two hands on her sippy cup... and my hand was just resting on her back to make sure she didn't fall off... and ... I was sitting up! not lying on my back... I was disgusted with myself...

The key is you want to change... that is hard... 1st please listen to this... it was the hardest thing for me... and I still struggle with it. It isn't anything you don't already know... but I think you need to hear it and remind yourself this all the time...

You health is YOUR heath... do this for YOU not for what others think of you... who cares what others think... do this because you want to look and feel beter for YOURSELF... because YOU deserve it!


FOOD is simply fuel for your body! You need to put so much in to keep the engine going... BUT on top of that... you need to do maintenance... and repair... and fix that which is damaged... So for x amount of Fuel (calories) you need to get nutrients (vitamins/minerals/antioxidants/fiber)...

When I started looking at that way my desire to eat cake, ice cream, candy... diminished... because they are wasted calories...

Also associating eating with comfort and pleasure... or using it to calm anxiety is a tough cycle to break... but you have to not curl up on the couch with a bowl full of food...

If you were like me... overeating was an addiction... I loved the relaxed feeling of a FULL stomach... a good food coma! the first few months of eating normal were tough... there is so much I want to tell you but for now I will just tell you...

It gets easier... it does...

It is like an addiction... relly... the first few days of quiting are hard... you think you have it licked then it gets really hard... BUT once you get over that first big suprise bump... every hurdle after that gets smaller and smaller...

HERE IS A BIG ONE>>> You will fail! Many times... this journey to health will be littered with failures... bad days... lapses in judgments... falling off the proverbial wagon... you will only truly fail if you don't get back up... dust yourself off... climb back on the proverbial horse.. and ride!

You can do it... I am here if you need support from somebody who has been there...

As sad as your story was... I was happy for you... that you stopped ignoring your size... that you are taking it head on... cry... get it out... feel.. really feel the pain so that you can use it as motivation to do something... don't go in your shell fight back...

Here was one mantra that really helped me... It was hard work for me to gain all that weight... HEY it's not easy to gain 100 pounds... and it isn't easy to take it off... it took me about 9 years to gain 100 pounds so I can't expect to take it off in quickly...

I'm here for you! Make a plan... and post it... we will be your reality check! We tell you if you are too optimistic... or not agresive enough...
 
The hardest part is getting started, when you see the numbers dropping and have to go to buy new clothes cos the old ones are just too big - thats when itll feel good and you'll feel like the man at the nudist beach with the 12" c*ck :)
 
I remember the day I got out my dress shorts for summer (box in attic) and found all were too big... in fact one pair I put on was soo big that I could fit me and by 2 year old in them...

You can do it!
 
i am not trying to pick a fight but, stop being an ass, nhb. we are trying to help him and you insult him...all he wants is encouragement and he is depressed. people like you are the reason why they never get in shape. get a heart.
 
EDIT mreik ** Easy with the name calling, regardless of circumstances.
 
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