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mami to two

mami to two

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Hey everyone, going to start my diary now i guess. I always put things off.. but that is one reason why i am in this situation with my weight. I am 23, 5'3 194lbs. Two kids 3y/o and 14 months. On medication that makes me gain weight, boo..

So here i am at 2:01 am.. cant sleep.. i feel completely sick to my stomach from the big mac, southern style chicken, and large fries i ate around 10pm.

Yesterday i went out to drop something off at a friends house around 6pm and realized "wow its really nice out.. i could walk in this weather".. i very seldom leave the house unless its for a drs appointment for me or the kids and when its 12 noon hot as hell! So now i have the urge to walk.. just dont.. i stay on the couch..

Once my son was born i started a diet of counting calories.. and weighing food. i would buy steak.. really good expensive steak lol and cut it up in 3oz portions.. but cook it in butter.. LOL.. i would eat steamed mixed vegtables with it though.. i was going to the gym 5 times a week. Didnt lose one pound but saw a very slight loss in size. no more gym cause of funds.

I dont know when to stop eating when i get my hands on food. im exhausted all day.. right now its even tough to go food shopping because of money. i was recieving food stamps but because of a mix up in paper work i didnt recieve them this month. i know once i get it back i can try and do whats right with buying food.. but what is right? i need to feed myself and my daughter (3y/o) who is sooo picky! (baby eats jar food n sometimes munches on what i have) i need to get everything back on schedule.. which is something im trying to right now.

So, should i go back to counting calories? Should i weigh out my portions? what should i be buying? I wont be going to the gym, but to the park with my kids and or walking around the block..im even thinking about looking for a bike on freecycle. Anyone who can point me into the right direction.. i would be so grateful.. right now im just so discourage i dont even want to do anything. How much could i lose by january? I want to start LPN classes then.

My goals are

short term - get back on a good sleeping, eating and exercising schedule

long term i guess? - go from 194 to 135.. how long would you think this could take? just an estimation would be nice. i wont take it as a fact

Ill hopefully post tomorrow.. and see what i eat tomrrow too.
 
I saw this "survey" in another diary and figured it would answer questions i didnt answer in my long entry above.. lol

What is your current height and weight? 5'3 / 194 pounds

If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 130 lbs

At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? 130 lbs lol

Why do you want to lose weight? i literally have nothing to wear but pj's.. i wear black workout pants daily from when after the baby was born

What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? money, motivation, laziness, cravings

Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? i cant see my neck as much as i could before. lol im becoming unreconizable..

What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? everything. i need to get off the couch, get up.. and eat better

Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? Yes.. i was obsessed when i was 16 17.. i used to run for 2 hrs on the treadmill while listening to trance and eat whatever i wanted.. i could do that back then..

Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? i lost/ maintained my weight when i was younger but once i met my finacee all we did was eat.. now i have 2 kids.. and depression with bipolar meds that incress appetite.. not helping!

What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? i never really tried to lose weight up till my babie was born.. so 14 months ago i tired.. and now im trying before i was semi happy at 175 when i got pregnant with #2

Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? i can try.. i have a horrible memory tho, maybe i just want to block out the bad? lol im going to try hard.

Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook? i love to cook, but being in someone elses house right now.. im just not comfortable.. so i make sandwhiches if i have the supplies..

What are your three favorite foods? subs from publix, mcdonalds.. and uh i dunno i guess taco bell

What are your three favorite restaurants? el patio(peruvian) bonefish grill and thats it

If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? everything. i wouldnt have the back fat.. my stomach is just horrible i still feel pregnant my boobs wouldnt be so.. yea.. down there.. my butt would be rounded out more again.. i think all this sitting flattened it out to much!

Do you eat when you are not hungry? when am i not hungry!?!?! i wish i wasnt hungry

Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? every day everytime i eat

Do you hide your food or eat in secret? sometimes.. ill be driving my somwhere.. look for change in the cupholder see how much i have and what i can get.. and when i come home.. i have this look on my face like i did something wrong.. and am always asked about it

Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? i am always sad nervous and depressed.. so thats why i eat and they make me eat... i know the problem! i just need to fix it

Do you eat as a reward? again.. if its a reason to eat.. i eat

Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? Yes all the time

What do you normally eat for a meal? sandwhich.. today my friend bought me ox tail and rice from the cuban resturant..

What type of snacks do you eat? snacks? i eat 2 -3 course meals it seems like lol

In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? nothing.. geting up.. taking care of the kids.. sitting on the couch.. playing with the kids.. inside.. and thats it.

Where do you go for exercise?.. i wish somewhere

What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? i loved the treadmill.. the bike.. hated hated hated the eliptical god i felt awkward on it.. i loved the one you squeeze with your thighs lol

What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? to go clothes shopping and buy something in the size 11 - 13 range (jrs sizes lol) i never bought anything out of jrs.

What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food? i want to try my hardest to eat healthy..

from answering alot of those i can see i have alot of issues with food! wow..
 
Hey Mami, welcome to the forum :)! Sounds like you will drop a bunch of pounds when you switch from fast food to home cooked meals, fruit instead of processed snacks etc. Its really impossible without having good food in the house, cuz ya need to substitute for something and not be sitting there starving. When you can go shopping, just try to keep everything on your shopping list as natural as possible, including no diet soda etc. That will probably help a bunch. And suck up that heat (your in FL?) and get out there and do some walking. Its easy and free. TTYL
 
Yes, in FL.. SouthWest, FL.. i would go.. sweating helps lose weight right? lol isnt that what slenderlife does with the garbage bags? lmao

Anyways i would but remember i have my two kids.. and i dont want to subject them to that. i would have to wait.

But thank you so much for a response.. and i hope i can get everything working in my favor within a day or so!
 
What is it that you dont want to subject your kids to, natural unprocessed snacks and healthy home cooked meals? LOL I must be reading that wrong..
 
lmao that too .. but the heat! lol today i got upset n pissed off and since i dont have a car. i took my kids and started walking.. in the hott.. hott hott sun.. i got not to far.. and had to call my brother to come get me.. my daughter was asking for her auqa.. water.. lol shes bilingual unlike me.. but yea. its to hot to walk during the day. around 6pm is the right time. and i havent started yet which sucks.. i finally got an approval for my food stamps.. the paper work went through so instead of a friend being very very nice and feeding us for the past couple days.. i can finally go food shopping...

so what should i be looking for in the store?

chicken? grains? fish? vegs? im so bad at this! this is why i always go out and just get subs and just cook for the kids. my daughter is so used to chicken nuggets.. my poor baby.. thats all she wants.. she wont even touch a carrot or anything green... this is going to be tough.. to work on me.. and my kids! god please! lol
 
LOL yeah we are so mean to our kids to make them eat healthy LMAO. My sister lives in FL so I know even at 6pm it can be brutal. I was walking an hour a day when I visited her last May, but the scenery was so pretty I was enjoying it too.

As far as what you buy to eat, try going easy on the rice and bread for yourself (not your kids hehe). A nice portion of any meat, and a big ole plate of steamed broccolli with cheddar cheese? Or with avocado or maybe some beans? I pretty much cannot stand veggies, but after being on a plateau for 2 years now I am trying to cut out the starches and see if that will work. So I am forced to substitute for veggies and fruits. So since I hate veggies, I end up eating more fruits which can't be a bad thing.

A good recipe: saute some onions in olive oil (expensive but much healthier than other oils), throw in some chicken breasts and just brown each side for a few seconds, then dump in a can of stewed tomatoes, add some salt and other seasonings and cook for around 15 minutes or so. Or you can throw some chicken breasts into a deep baking dish and cover with cream of mushroom soup, bake on 350 degrees for about 20 minutes and viola, very tasty. Make some rice on the side for the kids and you eat a bunch of green beans or brocolli (mine has to have some cheddar or I can't get it down lol) or saute some zucchini and baby squash in some olive oil.

FRUIT FRUIT FRUIT Watermelon killed my binge last night! I was about to say F it last night and go look in the cupboards (H had polished off all the junk anyway) when I figured lemme eat a piece of the baby watermelon first. Well that was so juicy and sweet I was just fine and satisfied after eating it and didn't desire anything else! Miracle!

Also remember that no one can eat the junk if its not in the house. Good luck with shopping mami :).
 
So i went shopping today.. finally got the funds to. thank god we were getting down to litterally nothing.. so i made a shopping list and only bought for 2 weeks.. here is the list..

PROTIEN

W - chicken breast
P - turkey breast
P - salmon
P - talipia
W - eggs
W - egg beaters
P - turkey bacon
W - turkey sausage
W - beans - black beans, white beans, kidney beans

DAIRY

W - cottage cheese
W - milk
W - danimals
P - greek yogurt
W - cheese - low fat american, chedder, mozzarella part skim
W - string cheese

FRUITS

W - grapes
W - bananas
W - apples
W - pears
VEGGIES

W - bell peppers, red, green, yellow
W - zucchni
W - yellow squash
W - mushrooms
W - red onions
W - spinich
W - head of lettuce
W - bag of salad

W = Walmart P = Publix.. lol

so ill figure out meals from there but i think ill be ok... for the first 2 weeks i am going to stay away from grains and what not.. and then bring them in little by little..

anyone else have anymore suggestions?
 
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