Hi everyone ! A little about me .

Asylum

Asylum

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Hello hello people of weight loss forum !

First thing , let me just start by pointing out that english isn't my native language, i'm from the ''french canada'' a.k.a Quebec so don't mind my grammar too much ;)

Allright where to start, i'm a 23 years old and been overweight for the most part of my life, and it's caused me alot of sadness and stoped me from showing and being who i really am for pretty much as long as i can remember. I am a pretty big guy in every sense of the word, i am 6 foot 5 with a pretty large silhouette, i haven't weighted myself in a long time(buying a scale this week) but i probably weight around 275-300 pounds . Anyway, i had some intimidation, bullying and violence problem at the begining of my highschools years and my life pretty much went downfall from there . I started to smoke cigarette and cannabis smoking at age 13 and trying to make myself happy by eating bad stuff, im sure you get the picture . I won't go too much in detail but i know few of you went thru problem like these and maybe found recomfort in food or drugs . All my life i attempted many ''diet'' and/or tried to stop smoking and get healthy but it never lasted long, i was lacking willpower after a few days and forgeting my motive or i don't know but i didn't stick to my plans and always went back to my bad habits, getting bigger and less healthier and less happier . Oh yeah, i forgot to mention i was highly addicted to internet multiplayer games since the year 2000, basicaly the last 7-8 years of my life we're dedicated to my video game addiction , i was very very addicted . In the last 5 years i played World of Warcraft for 8-10 hours a day to 16 hours a day when i was unemployed , and that litteraly for 5 years straight, 365 days a year. I spent my last 5 christmas and birthdays sitting at my computer alone all day, you get the idea it was pretty bad .

Anyway, in the last 10-15 years i consider myself pretty lucky that i never had any health issue, i never ate good, i smoke several grams of cannabis a day and smoke 25 cigarette everyday and beside being overweight and depressive i never had other issue. Six months ago i started to have stomach pain but i kept enduring it for four months and two months ago i had enough with the pain and i went to see the doctor and was getting really worried and opened my eyes and faced the reality of my health. I was diagnosticed a tumor in my stomach and had to do some tests, one of wich was a biopsy and the posibility of the tumor being cancerous . The week following when i was waiting for my results let me just tell you it was probably the worst week of my life and really opened my eyes and made me realised all what i done to myself and all the time i wasted and put myself in questions and spent alot of time thinking . I got my results a month ago and the tumor was in fact benigm meaning it's not cancerous, i still have to have it removed but thats pretty minor versus having a cancer having the stomach removed and going through chemo and having lower chance of survival and all that, let me just say i'm really, really thankful to be fine . This whole event really shaked me for good and i KNOW im on the good track from now on .

So yeah on to the positives . I Haven't touched a cigarette or drug for 4 weeks now, it wasn't easy but it's getting easier every passing day and it definetly feels great to breath and not to smell the cigarette and my wallet is much happier too hehe . I haven't ate any of the fatty or sugary food i used to eat everyday, none at all ! I've replaced chips/burgers/chocolate/sodas with water, fruits, lean meats, veggies, rice cakes, cereals , yogurt and much more healthy food and don't even find it hard . I started to walk to the job instead of taking the car 6 days a week for about 60 minutes everyday and try to make small changes here and there and keep focus with my final goal, finaly be happy and confident with my life ! It's only the begining .

Sorry if this is a lengthy rant with too much details but i just wanted to share a little bit of my background, maybe some of you will recognize themself in my story. I been lurking this forum for a while now and figured i'd register and participate a little bit, get some inspiration out of it and maybe one day inspire someone at my turn .

Thanks for reading, see you around ! :)
 
Congratulations on turning your life around completely. :D You seem to be on the right track to good health. Have you also managed to give up the WOW? My daughter has friends that are wasting their lives with no job and not even finished their studies as they are sat at their computers playing WOW and like you smoking dope all day. It such a shame to see as they are intelligent, interesting boys and they hardly leave their houses now. It's great to hear that there is still hope for them to turn their lives around.
The bullying issues should fade from your mind once you lose weight and gain confidence in yourself and there's nothing like hard exercise to clear your brain.
Start a diary in the diary section to keep you accountable and to get support.
Good luck and looking forward to hearing about your success. :)
 
magnifique! congratulations on beating your addictions. things can only get better from here and I hope all the best for you. I quit smoking myself recently after smoking heavily for a few years and it feels so wonderful to be healthier. We are the same age and we are still young - it's never too late to turn our lives around and do things right.
 
Hi eyckmans, thanks for the good words ;)

As for the WoW yes i've stop completely, haven't touched it for almost two months now and i don't regret or miss it at all. Online games are a real drug, just like cigarette , cafeine or anything you buy off a drug dealer . They control your life, they help you forget your problem and are made to make you wan't to perform and compare/beat the other players and they are anonimous so no one will judge you on what you you ''look'' in real life, only what you look like in the game. And they all have the same thing in common, performance=time spent . Having an extremist personality i literaly devoted my entire life to that game achievming the hardest and rarest feats in the game, but in the end i'm not geting anything out of it but extra pounds accumulated over the years doing nothing and lots of wasted time . But what is done is done, the only thing thats in my hand is my future, not my past.

Anyway i'm glad im done with that, i'd much rather focus my time on working on my future and how to get better/be happy than to just waste my life and watch it pass by.

Right not i don't want to do too much , like saying i'll exercise X amount of time each day or count calories and what-not, stoping the cigarette was pretty tough as i was a really heavy smoker and really felt it was comforting and relaxing, but i can only benefit from stoping, both for my health and my wealth . I'm going to buy a scale today and start to monitor my weight once a week, and focus day by day on eating good food . Will probably write a diary eventually to keep up with progress and share with others and to read back in the future as memories .

/rant off >.< have a good day everyone
 
Glad to hear that you have managed to quit the WOW addiction as well as the smoking. What a huge lifestyle change all at once. Huge congrats on that.
You should lose some weight just for the fact that you will be more active now that you aren't spending half your life sat at the computer.
You're going about it the right way by not obsessing and taking it slowly. If you slip up one day then just put it down to experience and forget about it and carry on with your healthy lifestyle rather than beating yourself up about it and using it as an excuse to binge.
good luck
 
Okay ;)


It's almost been a year since i wrote this thread and started my journey onto my new life. I don't know why but i'm pretty emotional writing this. All my life i was overweight, i always been in the tallest at school but i was always chubby, not fit and not healthy. I am 24 year old and i never had a girlfriend, i never had self confidence in my life i fell in love several time, but i never had the confidence of telling a girl what i was feeling, and with the years it became a habit to just keep everything inside. So yeah, throughout the last year my life has changed so much, and for the best. I went from having my life around online video games to waste my time, to having my life about the future and working toward building a nice one for me. At the worst 2-3 years ago, i wouldn't even go out during daytime, in fear people would see me fat, and if i would go out in the summer, i would wear a hoody even if its 100 degree outside, i would only go to the store/restaurant when the sun was down , etc... You get the picture i was pretty miserable.


Of course i had lots of ups and down, i lost about 30pound in the first 3months maybe only by doing minimal excersise (semi fast walking home from work 45min everyday) and cuting all the junk, starting to eat fruits and veggie on a regular basis, something i never did for the past 5-6 year prior to that point. But around last christmas last year i lost my focus, and i started to get back into old habits, it's crazy how ONE cheat can turn into sort of an addiction coming back. Anyway, couple months passed, and last may i decided i wanted to get back into thing more seriously, i didnt weight myself from xmas to may and to my surprise i was still 35 pound lighter than when i started last september. So in may at 250pound i started to go to the gym, it was pretty scarry at first, to show my fat self , but after my first or second workout, when i was in the shower and all my muscle were hurt and it felt like i really had worked out, it felt SO GOOD. Self gratification is pretty hard to explain i guess, but it's one of the best feeling i ever felt, when you're truly proud of yourself. So with that said so with that said, we are now september 01 2011, and i weight myself this morning at 214 pound and i can't explain how good it feel, i went from wearing XXL tshirt (because they were baggy and you could ''less'' see my curves) to Large ! this is amazing for me. I was wearng size 40-42 pants and now im slack in my 36-38 ! It feel so good trust me, it's hard to describe, but it was worth all the sweat and craving i resisted.


Anyway i'm not gonna rent forever, but when i joined this forum i was watching the before/after thread and that's what really motivated me, i saw some amazing result some members had achieved, and told myself if they can do it , so can i. All it take really is patience, that's the key to everything in my opinion. So if this little piece of my life can help someone go throught what i went throught this last year i will be extremely happy and proud.


Remember that NOTHING is impossible, and the only thing standing between you and your dream is YOU !I


Feel free to ask anything if you have any questions. And to finish i would just like to thank everyone who participate on these forum, you have no idea all the good you can make !


Cheers to life everyone ! (oh and im very close to having a girlfriend right now !)
 
AWell bloody done asylum! I am so pleased that you've completely turned your life around! I mean, COMPLETELY!!!! I am so glad you had the cancer scare, and it made you determined to do it. They say that everything happens for a reason don't they :)

:party:

Have you got any before and after pics?
 
You are so awesome Asylum! I just love that you are so open to share all that you have. You have so much to be proud of and I am glad you are feeling good about yourself now. I am sure there's a lot of stuff to still work through since it's been a lifetime of issues. And that's great too because it's all part of the journey. And you are so young so it's even more awesome! Some people don't get there until my age, or EVER!


oh, and I am on the other side of Canada but recently I've been wanting to finally see Montreal so maybe I will see you over that side one day! : ) Z
 
@overtherainbow Thank you there, glad to know i made someone smile ;) I do have some before pictures, random stuff, but i want to wait untill i think that my transformation is completed ;) Still have 15-20 pound to loose in my opinion, then i'll share some pictures. After that will come the toning part of the journey, i can't wait to put on weight, muscle weight ;)


@downsizingme Thanks alot for your comment, really means alot ! I really don't mind sharing all my details, i really growed this last year in terms of other peoples judgement. I really care less about what others think now, i'm starting to realize what's really important in life, and think transparency and honnesty is what matters, ... if that made sense lol .


Cheers all !
 
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