Bluebear
New member
Hi all. I don't really know where to begin, but I'll try.
I'm currently 28 yrs old. For the past 3 months (since mid-April), I've been trying to lose weight. I've been fat for a long time. My overall goal is to lose 100 pounds by next year (mid-April), I don't know if I'll reach that goal, but I will do my best to get there.
I was never fat as a kid. I eventually got where I am mostly because of bullying, social isolation, having no friends, and using food (and video games) for comfort. As a result of my shitty childhood, I've had to deal with social anxiety, depression, withdrawal, loneliness, and just hating everything about myself. I figured that if this was going to be my life, it would always be this way, and I would never stop being so full of hate towards myself and towards those who caused me so much pain.
Honestly, I don't care about them, but I see no reason why I should continue living a miserable existence with myself. I wasn't born being disgusted with myself. It was a learned behavior, one that came over a period of years, and I want to unlearn it. So I decided to start making a few changes in my life, the biggest one being starting and keeping a weight loss goal. The second biggest being to go back to college and finally complete my degree.
When I started, I weighed in at 260 lbs. I'm currently down to 219, though for the past month or so I've hit a plateau, and am currently looking for ways to shake up my routine. I do cardio at least 4-5 times a week for an hour each time; if I can't squeeze in an hour, I'll at least do 30 minutes, but that rarely happens.
I haven't been counting calories, mostly because I don't know how I've started trying to learn, but it seems really complicated. I also relapsed recently, over the weekend. I feel so bad about that, but I'm doing everything I can to pull myself out of it. I recently got a food diary. I want to keep track of everything I'm eating, and today my sister are going out to look for an exercise bike, as an alternative to the treadmill I'm currently using, and consequently getting bored with.
Also, I want to learn how to cook. I am a terrible cook, but at this point I think it is blatantly obvious that I won't be getting anywhere near my goal until I learn how.
...So, that's all about me. I don't have much real life support outside of my sister who is also trying to lose some pregnancy pounds, so I'm really glad I joined here.
I'm currently 28 yrs old. For the past 3 months (since mid-April), I've been trying to lose weight. I've been fat for a long time. My overall goal is to lose 100 pounds by next year (mid-April), I don't know if I'll reach that goal, but I will do my best to get there.
I was never fat as a kid. I eventually got where I am mostly because of bullying, social isolation, having no friends, and using food (and video games) for comfort. As a result of my shitty childhood, I've had to deal with social anxiety, depression, withdrawal, loneliness, and just hating everything about myself. I figured that if this was going to be my life, it would always be this way, and I would never stop being so full of hate towards myself and towards those who caused me so much pain.
Honestly, I don't care about them, but I see no reason why I should continue living a miserable existence with myself. I wasn't born being disgusted with myself. It was a learned behavior, one that came over a period of years, and I want to unlearn it. So I decided to start making a few changes in my life, the biggest one being starting and keeping a weight loss goal. The second biggest being to go back to college and finally complete my degree.
When I started, I weighed in at 260 lbs. I'm currently down to 219, though for the past month or so I've hit a plateau, and am currently looking for ways to shake up my routine. I do cardio at least 4-5 times a week for an hour each time; if I can't squeeze in an hour, I'll at least do 30 minutes, but that rarely happens.
I haven't been counting calories, mostly because I don't know how I've started trying to learn, but it seems really complicated. I also relapsed recently, over the weekend. I feel so bad about that, but I'm doing everything I can to pull myself out of it. I recently got a food diary. I want to keep track of everything I'm eating, and today my sister are going out to look for an exercise bike, as an alternative to the treadmill I'm currently using, and consequently getting bored with.
Also, I want to learn how to cook. I am a terrible cook, but at this point I think it is blatantly obvious that I won't be getting anywhere near my goal until I learn how.
...So, that's all about me. I don't have much real life support outside of my sister who is also trying to lose some pregnancy pounds, so I'm really glad I joined here.
