Help with eating disorder!

[RyanD]

Alright, here's the deal. Somewhere around last May, I decided to go on a diet to shed some pounds. I was weighing about 200lbs (I'm 6 foot) and my ideal weight was to go down to about 150 (what I'm at now). I had no plan, except to cut the fats. I stopped drinking coke, I stopped eating fried foods and fast foods in general. That all worked well and I'm happy to say that I've stuck by that diet.

Anyway, here's where the problem comes in. I got so obsessed with losing weight, that I started cutting down my portions and really just not eating much at all to the point that I got myself into kind of a rut. A rut where now I hardly eat anything now. I'm worried that I'll get sick, even my mother is worried that I'll end up in the hospital. Sure, the solution sounds easy enough.. EAT.. but I really don't even get appetites so much anymore. I eat once a day, and a small portion at that. I was very happy with myself before that I was able to cut all the weight with this "miraculous diet" that I had thought up.

It gets worse. I've become obsessive with looking in the mirror everyday, making sure my stomach is flat, etc. I realized that I'm so worried about gaining weight, that if I was to gain the weight back, I'd start purging.

This is where the main problem is.. OK, so I obviously need to start eating more.. but I'm worried I've totally messed up my metabolism, that if I go back to eating 3 times a day, I'll just start gaining weight. Then start purging because I'm so unsatisfied with myself.

I really don't know what to do at this point. I CAN force myself to eat, but like I said, I'm so darn worried about gaining the weight again. Oh, and I should add that I lost all that weight without doing any cardio. I can't add cardio to my diet because I am way too lazy for that.

Any help would be appreciated

-Ryan

 

[deschain]

OK, get yourself to a therapist/doctor who specializes in eating disorders. Now.


The very fact that you have the desire to be healthy and stop what you are doing to yourself is a huge first step, and will help you tremendously. They would have the expertise to help you ease back into a healthy lifestyle without just pigging out on everything. In fact, I would imagine that they could give you a specific eating plan for just that.

There is definitely a psychological aspect coming into play here that really needs to be adressed as well, and no one on an internet forum can help you with that. The mental aspect of what is going on is more important than what you should or shouldn't be eating.

Be proud of yourself for taking the first step, now, go and take the rest of them as well.