notsohotmomma
New member
Hey everyone.
I'm brand new. I need some support and I was wondering if I could get it here.
I'm miserable. I used to be 36-25-36 but now who knows...at the height of my physical hotness which was not long ago, I looked good....breast implants...bebe clothing. However, I decided to put my priorities in order and be a good mother instead...because I could weigh 100 pounds and it wouldn't be enough for my narcissistic husband...you can't run around trying to look like a celebrity for your sexually addicted/judgmental husband and raise happy normal kids at the same time unless you have hired help...etc, etc. etc.
Needless to say, I have gotten extremely depressed, because I don't work outside the home anymore, I have lupus, most of the time I'm in pain, and the house is a mess. I absolutely can't stand my husband and we never get close any more....I have turned to food for the only sensual experience in my life and in doing so have gained 20 pounds and would like to get some help through support before I gain any more. I also just had a steroid shot which also puts a damper on the weight thing. Oh yeah, and I feel as though my life is completely out of control.
Yes, I know this is a case for a psychiatrist and not a support group, I'm going to one next month, but in the mean time, is there any way I could join in so that when I'm feeling weak, AT NIGHT, daytime is no problem, then maybe I could come and talk to you folks instead.
Thank you in advance....
J
P.S. I love exercise, I just don't do enough of it...I eat, eat, eat, at night...and pray I don't feel bigger in the morning....that never works.
Need some tricks, because if you go to bed hungry or without gorging, you always feel better in the morning...it's just getting passed those evening hours.
I'm brand new. I need some support and I was wondering if I could get it here.
I'm miserable. I used to be 36-25-36 but now who knows...at the height of my physical hotness which was not long ago, I looked good....breast implants...bebe clothing. However, I decided to put my priorities in order and be a good mother instead...because I could weigh 100 pounds and it wouldn't be enough for my narcissistic husband...you can't run around trying to look like a celebrity for your sexually addicted/judgmental husband and raise happy normal kids at the same time unless you have hired help...etc, etc. etc.
Needless to say, I have gotten extremely depressed, because I don't work outside the home anymore, I have lupus, most of the time I'm in pain, and the house is a mess. I absolutely can't stand my husband and we never get close any more....I have turned to food for the only sensual experience in my life and in doing so have gained 20 pounds and would like to get some help through support before I gain any more. I also just had a steroid shot which also puts a damper on the weight thing. Oh yeah, and I feel as though my life is completely out of control.
Yes, I know this is a case for a psychiatrist and not a support group, I'm going to one next month, but in the mean time, is there any way I could join in so that when I'm feeling weak, AT NIGHT, daytime is no problem, then maybe I could come and talk to you folks instead.
Thank you in advance....
J
P.S. I love exercise, I just don't do enough of it...I eat, eat, eat, at night...and pray I don't feel bigger in the morning....that never works.
Need some tricks, because if you go to bed hungry or without gorging, you always feel better in the morning...it's just getting passed those evening hours.
Forget about him and be selfish for a while. Do it for you and you alone. I wish you all the luck in the world. I know how hard it is when you don't have the support of the one person you need it from most. I try to find strength thru prayer and exercise. I play a lot of tennis and it's totally theraputic for me. Find something that is theraputic for you whether it be exercise or reading books or whatever. Reading is an escape for me.