Hello there,all!
I had joined this site some months ago but wasn't brave enough to post.. Now I am realising that I need support on the big adventure I am about to take part in and I look forward to hearing others experiences.
My name is Ithfifi, but you may call me Ithi, most people do. I am 23 and live in England. I've always been petite and have an incredibly slim, perhaps too slim of a sister. I've only really gained weight over the past 2/3 years. Consistancy is the hardest thing for me as I am in a long term ~ long distance relationship. My weight only started to pile on after a really bad bout of illness, I've suffered from depression from the age of 11, and while I was going through that at that age I felt no urge to eat at all. At 16 I weighed around 84 lbs which was hard, while being depressed mental health workers tried to treat me for anorexia by force feeding me; Theres no denial but I can confidently say I didn't have an eating disorder; I was just unhappy and never felt like eating.
I am happy to say I am so much happier in myself now although the weight I have gained over the past couple of years is getting me down. I don't feel healthy, I don't feel fit. When I think about it I think to myself.."I should do something about this now rather than spending the next 10-15 years avoiding doing anything about it and ending up in vicious cycles" I know I HAVE the power to do this, so why leave it?
One of the main things I'd really like help with is the fact I am always travelling. Where I have grown up in a really small town I've been lucky enough to eat healthily without the temptations of take away and junk food as this town just doesn't have it; My parents always made us girls eat healthily. Now I am often up to a city to see my boyfriend who is quite over weight, his brother more so; and while I don't judge them, I love them the way they are I am worried my own weight may increase while I stay with them and eat what they do. I do my best to buy vegetables and lean meat to feed myself while I am there but the exercise intake is appaling. While I am at home I do alot of dog walking. Take aways happen there many days out of the week. Its very accessable and easy to get hold of.
I'd say I'm about 5"1, if that and now weighing about 133 lb. I just want to feel confident again and stop worrying about what I can or can't wear with my current size. I don't want to be super skinny but I miss having the curves I had and don't want to be concious of how my tummy fits in jeans or what t-shirts would hid it!
I hope I've not said too much but wanted to get the initial scary story over with. I'm looking forward to meeting you guys and trying to be more involved. I hope I've done ok with this? :S
I had joined this site some months ago but wasn't brave enough to post.. Now I am realising that I need support on the big adventure I am about to take part in and I look forward to hearing others experiences.
My name is Ithfifi, but you may call me Ithi, most people do. I am 23 and live in England. I've always been petite and have an incredibly slim, perhaps too slim of a sister. I've only really gained weight over the past 2/3 years. Consistancy is the hardest thing for me as I am in a long term ~ long distance relationship. My weight only started to pile on after a really bad bout of illness, I've suffered from depression from the age of 11, and while I was going through that at that age I felt no urge to eat at all. At 16 I weighed around 84 lbs which was hard, while being depressed mental health workers tried to treat me for anorexia by force feeding me; Theres no denial but I can confidently say I didn't have an eating disorder; I was just unhappy and never felt like eating.
I am happy to say I am so much happier in myself now although the weight I have gained over the past couple of years is getting me down. I don't feel healthy, I don't feel fit. When I think about it I think to myself.."I should do something about this now rather than spending the next 10-15 years avoiding doing anything about it and ending up in vicious cycles" I know I HAVE the power to do this, so why leave it?
One of the main things I'd really like help with is the fact I am always travelling. Where I have grown up in a really small town I've been lucky enough to eat healthily without the temptations of take away and junk food as this town just doesn't have it; My parents always made us girls eat healthily. Now I am often up to a city to see my boyfriend who is quite over weight, his brother more so; and while I don't judge them, I love them the way they are I am worried my own weight may increase while I stay with them and eat what they do. I do my best to buy vegetables and lean meat to feed myself while I am there but the exercise intake is appaling. While I am at home I do alot of dog walking. Take aways happen there many days out of the week. Its very accessable and easy to get hold of.
I'd say I'm about 5"1, if that and now weighing about 133 lb. I just want to feel confident again and stop worrying about what I can or can't wear with my current size. I don't want to be super skinny but I miss having the curves I had and don't want to be concious of how my tummy fits in jeans or what t-shirts would hid it!
I hope I've not said too much but wanted to get the initial scary story over with. I'm looking forward to meeting you guys and trying to be more involved. I hope I've done ok with this? :S
