Hi Everyone!
I wanted to start off on the right foot and introduce myself
I've always been a little bit on the chunkier side. In high school, I was about 15lbs overweight, which doesn't sound like a whole lot, but I didn't ever feel one hundred percent comfortable in my own skin.
Come college, I put on another 15lbs pounds (grrr to those freshman fifteen) and now I was 30lbs over what I wanted to weigh during those four years. Though it was "only" 30lbs - I didn't date once all through those four years. I didn't like me with that extra baggage. I felt like why would anyone even consider taking an interest in me when I felt like I was so disgusted with myself.
Post college, I moved back home and spent the summer on the internet and lost 20lbs. Being on the internet distracted me from eating all the time (and the lack of drinking helped too). I felt great. I was 135lbs and 5lbs thinner than what I had been in high school. I kept getting so many compliments about great I looked. Then I met my biggest mistake: Danny. We had great conversations and quite frankly I didn't find him very attractive, but we had a decent time together. The issue? I couldn't figure out why he wasn't making a move on me? When I was out at the bars guys ten thousand times cuter were approaching me, but Danny didn't seem interested in me in that way. I decided I had to make it my mission for him to find me attractive. Big mistake. We ended up in this mess where we were kind of seeing each other, but he was only "with" me until something better came along. Something better meaning someone that had the body of Keira Knightley. A "thin" girl. I remember us sitting in a bar talking to one another. He feasted his eyes upon this youthful looking, petite girl with big eyes - a beauty and said to me half jokingly how he would leave me for her. I was living on salad leaves for months - the weight said stagnant at 133lbs. I eventually mustered up the strength to end it a few months later. I had let him crush my self esteem and now I was picking up the pieces with food, putting on 12lbs.
Just as the jeans were getting snug and I was in full misery, I was asked to show my mother's friend's nephew around the city. I didn't think any of it, after all I was pretty miserable. As we began emailing and IMing prior to meeting, I started to remember what it felt like to flirt with someone who took an interest in you. I met up with him and he was beautiful. I could tell as we were wandering the streets that he was nervous meeting me and thought I was equally beautiful. Our meeting blossomed into a relationship and a year down the line I moved to a different city to be with him, weighing in at 147lbs. I was happy and slowly managed to get myself to 138.8lbs. I was starting to LIKE my body. I did however want to lose a little bit more weight. Losing a few more pounds would take some of the puffiness from my cheeks and my stomach would flatten out nicely. Having been an avid dieter during my high school years: I tried South Beach, Atkins, Rice Diet, Body for life, 1200 calorie plans and more, there was always one problem. I hated having someone tell me how much I could eat. I always felt like someone was controlling me. I needed a diet where I could decide (based on listening to my body) how much I could eat and that didn't mess with my digestive system (only having protein can be pretty dire in that department), as well as would allow me to enjoy something sweet. I found the perfect diet FOR ME: The Montignac Method. I had to eat until I was satisfied, I could have a glass of red wine on occasion, 70% pure chocolate (so 70% of the chocolate are cocoa solids) and could have oatmeal for breakfast. I think the diet is a lot like Sugar Busters! for those of you that have tried it. I started it about 2 weeks ago and I'm down to 135.2lbs when I weighed myself this morning - yay! My digestive system is happy, I feel satisfied and not deprived. I've got another 10.2lbs to go and am restricting myself to weekly weigh-ins (I used to get really obsessed with the scale number).
Looking forward to meeting all of you
Becca
I wanted to start off on the right foot and introduce myself
I've always been a little bit on the chunkier side. In high school, I was about 15lbs overweight, which doesn't sound like a whole lot, but I didn't ever feel one hundred percent comfortable in my own skin.
Come college, I put on another 15lbs pounds (grrr to those freshman fifteen) and now I was 30lbs over what I wanted to weigh during those four years. Though it was "only" 30lbs - I didn't date once all through those four years. I didn't like me with that extra baggage. I felt like why would anyone even consider taking an interest in me when I felt like I was so disgusted with myself.
Post college, I moved back home and spent the summer on the internet and lost 20lbs. Being on the internet distracted me from eating all the time (and the lack of drinking helped too). I felt great. I was 135lbs and 5lbs thinner than what I had been in high school. I kept getting so many compliments about great I looked. Then I met my biggest mistake: Danny. We had great conversations and quite frankly I didn't find him very attractive, but we had a decent time together. The issue? I couldn't figure out why he wasn't making a move on me? When I was out at the bars guys ten thousand times cuter were approaching me, but Danny didn't seem interested in me in that way. I decided I had to make it my mission for him to find me attractive. Big mistake. We ended up in this mess where we were kind of seeing each other, but he was only "with" me until something better came along. Something better meaning someone that had the body of Keira Knightley. A "thin" girl. I remember us sitting in a bar talking to one another. He feasted his eyes upon this youthful looking, petite girl with big eyes - a beauty and said to me half jokingly how he would leave me for her. I was living on salad leaves for months - the weight said stagnant at 133lbs. I eventually mustered up the strength to end it a few months later. I had let him crush my self esteem and now I was picking up the pieces with food, putting on 12lbs.
Just as the jeans were getting snug and I was in full misery, I was asked to show my mother's friend's nephew around the city. I didn't think any of it, after all I was pretty miserable. As we began emailing and IMing prior to meeting, I started to remember what it felt like to flirt with someone who took an interest in you. I met up with him and he was beautiful. I could tell as we were wandering the streets that he was nervous meeting me and thought I was equally beautiful. Our meeting blossomed into a relationship and a year down the line I moved to a different city to be with him, weighing in at 147lbs. I was happy and slowly managed to get myself to 138.8lbs. I was starting to LIKE my body. I did however want to lose a little bit more weight. Losing a few more pounds would take some of the puffiness from my cheeks and my stomach would flatten out nicely. Having been an avid dieter during my high school years: I tried South Beach, Atkins, Rice Diet, Body for life, 1200 calorie plans and more, there was always one problem. I hated having someone tell me how much I could eat. I always felt like someone was controlling me. I needed a diet where I could decide (based on listening to my body) how much I could eat and that didn't mess with my digestive system (only having protein can be pretty dire in that department), as well as would allow me to enjoy something sweet. I found the perfect diet FOR ME: The Montignac Method. I had to eat until I was satisfied, I could have a glass of red wine on occasion, 70% pure chocolate (so 70% of the chocolate are cocoa solids) and could have oatmeal for breakfast. I think the diet is a lot like Sugar Busters! for those of you that have tried it. I started it about 2 weeks ago and I'm down to 135.2lbs when I weighed myself this morning - yay! My digestive system is happy, I feel satisfied and not deprived. I've got another 10.2lbs to go and am restricting myself to weekly weigh-ins (I used to get really obsessed with the scale number).
Looking forward to meeting all of you
Becca
