brzliangirl
New member
hi guys.
I'm a brazilian woman currently living in Germany. I've been around the world a bit, as my work takes me places, and I've always struggled against the scale. Lately I've been better settled into not a very high weight, but it's still not my best weight and I can't seem to shed what's left. I've never tried online Forum support before, so I thought it should be a good thing to give it a try, perhaps with encouragement from people going through the same things I may feel less alone in this constant struggle.
A bit of history: I've fought my weight since I was 12 (I'm now 33), that's when I tried my first diet with medication, even though it didn't work and it turned me green. During my teens I had a lot of angst, as all teenagers have, but I imploded instead of pointing my rebellion outwards, and I had an enormous need to please my parents, which increased my anxiety. By the time I was 18 I was 20lbs heavier than my good weight. I went to live in Paris at that time and stayed there for 3 months. I came back from Paris another 20lbs heavier. My mother was horrified and took me to the Weight Watchers. Since she controlled my food intake (and not me!), I lost those extra 40lbs and was a happy healthy young woman again. I met my husband and got married at 24. The marriage was not good and after 5 years I had regained 60lbs (the 40lbs I had lost pluse an aditional 20lbs). After I finally got the motivation to end my marriage, I started losing weight as if it was water, and in 6 months I had lost those 60lbs just because I didn't need to eat in order to compensate for whatever was lacking in my life anymore. I ate only when I was hungry and never more than necessary, and not because I was aware of doing it, because I wasn't. My body had all of a sudden turned very aware of what it needed or not, and I just couldn't force feed myself chocolate anymore as I used to do, otherwise I felt sick.
After that I've managed to keep my weight relatively down, even though I have put back on 20lbs over some changes that happened to me after the break of my marriage - I got a scholarship in England and moved there and after many job interviews (and anxiety), I was offered a job in Germany and moved here - so over these changes I put some weight back on. I would like to lose those 20lbs again and perhaps a couple of pounds more and perhaps here I could find the necessary support.
I'm new to this Forum thing, I don't really know how it works, but I'm sure I'll make some good friends here and find the right advice
and companionship. 
I'm looking forward to hearing from all here and plan to be very active in this Forum.
Love,
BrzlianGirl
I'm a brazilian woman currently living in Germany. I've been around the world a bit, as my work takes me places, and I've always struggled against the scale. Lately I've been better settled into not a very high weight, but it's still not my best weight and I can't seem to shed what's left. I've never tried online Forum support before, so I thought it should be a good thing to give it a try, perhaps with encouragement from people going through the same things I may feel less alone in this constant struggle.
A bit of history: I've fought my weight since I was 12 (I'm now 33), that's when I tried my first diet with medication, even though it didn't work and it turned me green. During my teens I had a lot of angst, as all teenagers have, but I imploded instead of pointing my rebellion outwards, and I had an enormous need to please my parents, which increased my anxiety. By the time I was 18 I was 20lbs heavier than my good weight. I went to live in Paris at that time and stayed there for 3 months. I came back from Paris another 20lbs heavier. My mother was horrified and took me to the Weight Watchers. Since she controlled my food intake (and not me!), I lost those extra 40lbs and was a happy healthy young woman again. I met my husband and got married at 24. The marriage was not good and after 5 years I had regained 60lbs (the 40lbs I had lost pluse an aditional 20lbs). After I finally got the motivation to end my marriage, I started losing weight as if it was water, and in 6 months I had lost those 60lbs just because I didn't need to eat in order to compensate for whatever was lacking in my life anymore. I ate only when I was hungry and never more than necessary, and not because I was aware of doing it, because I wasn't. My body had all of a sudden turned very aware of what it needed or not, and I just couldn't force feed myself chocolate anymore as I used to do, otherwise I felt sick.
After that I've managed to keep my weight relatively down, even though I have put back on 20lbs over some changes that happened to me after the break of my marriage - I got a scholarship in England and moved there and after many job interviews (and anxiety), I was offered a job in Germany and moved here - so over these changes I put some weight back on. I would like to lose those 20lbs again and perhaps a couple of pounds more and perhaps here I could find the necessary support.
I'm new to this Forum thing, I don't really know how it works, but I'm sure I'll make some good friends here and find the right advice
and companionship. I'm looking forward to hearing from all here and plan to be very active in this Forum.
Love,
BrzlianGirl
