thegrove45
New member
5/4/09:
It is not fun fighting with the weightloss devil. I have the good guy on one shoulder telling me that I can do it, while the bad guy is on my other should telling me to give into temptation. Yesterday I took pictures of myself in the mirror and found them unflattering. I have grown from 185 lbs. at age 19 to 254 lbs. at age 25. The idea that I have gained 10 lbs. per year, for 7 years is quite gross to me. I know that is not as bad as some individuals, but it still is embarassing. I am not so happy with my protruding gut, flabby arms and thighs. In high school I did weigh between 150-170 between freshman and senior years, but always still felt like the fat girl on the soccer team.
It kills me that I lose my breath walking up the stairs to my apartment or the stairs at my office building. I necessarily do not want to be a stick, but I would like to have more energy and be able to walk into a store and not always have to go to the back of the rack in search for size 16 pants or the bottom of the pile for XL shirts. Wearing a size medium/large would be just fine with me. I would like to be at least a size 8 in jeans and not have my gut hanging out of my pants. It does suck when you have to wear pants either all the way up or below your gut, then your butt-crack hangs out. I have encountered a few occasions when my boyfriend has mentioned that to me in a store…real self-esteem downer right there. Yet I keep refraining from doing anything about it. I seem to be putting weightloss off…like procrastinating on a paper that is due the next morning. I tend to gravitate towards meals that are easy to prepare (t.v. dinners) or eat the same boring salad and insist that I am eating healthy. I feel like if I don’t eat enough food, then I will have to eat more later just to be satisfied.
I am going back to the gym tonight (since I have been paying for it for 3 months now and only gone once!). I am going to start cardio, weights, and swimming and do that at least 5-6 times a week. It would be nice to go on vacation in August 50-55 lbs. lighter. I could actually be happy to go and not be worried about what should I wear, feel hot and gross all the time, or that other people are looking at me. If I can get down to 199 lbs. that would be the best feeling!
Current: 254 lbs.
Goal: 199 lbs.
It is not fun fighting with the weightloss devil. I have the good guy on one shoulder telling me that I can do it, while the bad guy is on my other should telling me to give into temptation. Yesterday I took pictures of myself in the mirror and found them unflattering. I have grown from 185 lbs. at age 19 to 254 lbs. at age 25. The idea that I have gained 10 lbs. per year, for 7 years is quite gross to me. I know that is not as bad as some individuals, but it still is embarassing. I am not so happy with my protruding gut, flabby arms and thighs. In high school I did weigh between 150-170 between freshman and senior years, but always still felt like the fat girl on the soccer team.
It kills me that I lose my breath walking up the stairs to my apartment or the stairs at my office building. I necessarily do not want to be a stick, but I would like to have more energy and be able to walk into a store and not always have to go to the back of the rack in search for size 16 pants or the bottom of the pile for XL shirts. Wearing a size medium/large would be just fine with me. I would like to be at least a size 8 in jeans and not have my gut hanging out of my pants. It does suck when you have to wear pants either all the way up or below your gut, then your butt-crack hangs out. I have encountered a few occasions when my boyfriend has mentioned that to me in a store…real self-esteem downer right there. Yet I keep refraining from doing anything about it. I seem to be putting weightloss off…like procrastinating on a paper that is due the next morning. I tend to gravitate towards meals that are easy to prepare (t.v. dinners) or eat the same boring salad and insist that I am eating healthy. I feel like if I don’t eat enough food, then I will have to eat more later just to be satisfied.
I am going back to the gym tonight (since I have been paying for it for 3 months now and only gone once!). I am going to start cardio, weights, and swimming and do that at least 5-6 times a week. It would be nice to go on vacation in August 50-55 lbs. lighter. I could actually be happy to go and not be worried about what should I wear, feel hot and gross all the time, or that other people are looking at me. If I can get down to 199 lbs. that would be the best feeling!
Current: 254 lbs.
Goal: 199 lbs.
