Getting back on track

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Jimmy2

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I have never been on a healthy weight. My parents used to just let me eat whatever i wanted, i think this resulted in me being a binge eater. I want to be completely honest on this forum, everything i binge on i will mention. For a very long time i have been frustrated and angry with myself, i still am. Why is it so hard to just eat normally and be healthy, i hate the way i look but sometimes i just cannot seem to help myself. At the moment i think i am depressed, my physique limits me in so much. I never go swimming with friends, i dont like sex with my gf because i cannot stand my own body. Uptill now i have been lying to myself and other, i hope by telling you all the truth that i will be confronted by my own habits. Just writing this makes me feel more determend to be the man i can be, i know there are people who say that when you have been fat all your life you can never bee muscular. I want to disprove that, but i need your help. I am a binge eater, yesterday after work i bought a 400gram back of m&m and a can of energy drink and i finished both of them within 30 min. Today i binged on bread with Nutella.

Please if there are any other binge eaters out there i need help and advice, i which i could go to a professional but i don't have the money. I will make an obligation to post my habits here every day, i will be completely honest with what i eat and i need to be judged.

, Day 1
112 kilo

PS: i will post a picture of me here every 2 weeks, in 6 months time i want to be 95 kilo.
 
Hi, welcome and congrats for taking the first and very important step towards a healthier life! :) Binge eating is definitely something I can relate to. Although I don't do it all the time, I've had my bad periods of binge eating every now and then. For me, it's not triggered by any particular emotions, apart from maybe boredom. I also found myself day-dreaming while making food, causing me to eat without noticing! This is something I've had to be extremely careful with since I decided to lose weight.

So my best advice when it comes to binge-eating is probably: try to focus on the food, don't daydream, but try to actually take your time and chew the food properly. Hopefully your brain will notice when your stomach is full and signal you to stop eating :) good luck!
 
Thanks for the tip, i will def try that! The day is going well so far, i am researching some diets and i will try the 5:2 diet. My fasting days will be the monday and wednesday. I will let you know how that works and tonight i will post my pics.
 
The last week was a huge improvement on my normal diet. There were two moments i regret do, one late night mcdonalds trip with friends and a back of chips three days ago. 2 weeks ago i weighted in at 112 kilo's. Today it was 110,6 so def some improvement there. I feel better, healthier but there still is a lot to improve. The promised pics will be up asap, got some problems uploading them. I think/hope that exposing myself like that will be a huge motivator. I started excercising, using a shedule to work towards the 5km in a responsible way. Next week my gym license will kick in so my plan will be to start with 3days a week. Best tips i found so far: water, water and more water. Cut back on bread and excersicing gives you more energy.
 
There is a minimum number of postings and minimum length of being a member before you can edit signature (as an option under the "settings" tab) and put a ticker there.

I think that it is something like 10 postings and maybe a week of being a member...
Make some postings and look on that tab every day and it will suddenly be an option down the left hand side of the page...
 
Saw your thread and wanted to post. I am also a binge eater...there's no other way I could gain 80lb in a year. I stopped watching what I was doing, and stopped exercising, and ate whatever I wanted. I've lost all interest in intimacy with my boyfriend because I can't look at my body, I've closed myself off from friends and family.

Growing up, we had all kinds of foods in our house, and then sometimes we didn't. Looking back it feels like maybe we were living paycheck to paycheck because we'd have junk food and go out to buffet's, and then we'd have very little to get by, so I have developed a sick sense of control when it comes to food. I eat when I'm happy, when I'm sad, when I'm bored or I "need to have that bag of chips when watching so-and-so on tv". I get very (to the point of having a tantrum, and I'm 26!) upset if I don't get what I want (if I go to McDonalds I HAVE to have the exact same meal, every time, I can't just get a burger, I have to get fries). I don't share my food, either.

Just last week I got some very small bad news, so I decided to buy a small BAG of turtles chocolates and eat the WHOLE thing in 20min. It was disgusting.

If we grow up one way, it's hard to change it up and make a healthy living, but it's not impossible. I was also the sort to say "I can't afford to get help" but there are ways around it. I found a low-income program in my city that provided me with a therapist, I was in a very low point of my life and feared that I would do more than harm myself. I was given a meeting within the week and my sessions are now free because my therapist had me start meeting him in a Food Bank (even before that it was only $15 an hour).

I joined TOPS (Taking Off Pounds Sensibly) which is 20-30 dollars a year and provides support to people who are emotionally attached to food. It's been a wonderful experience and I encourage people to seek out a location nearby. I needed a group of like-minded people to relate to because binge eating is an addiction just like any other.

You have made the important step of realizing that you have an addiction and you can change. You have to do it for yourself, and once you set yourself on a goal, you make that goal the most important thing in your life. Start with small steps, because even a small step is a step in the right direction.

For me, counting calories works. I allow myself what I want, but in moderation. It teaches me that I can have what I want in smaller portions, rather than NEEDING the food in large portions. I find that fasting can lead to binging and that leads into a vicious cycle best avoided. If you find that the fasting is causing you to binge, I'd highly recommend that you merely restrict your diet according to your BMR and then work your way down towards being able to fast. Doing too much at once can have the opposite effect of what you want.

Anyway, long story short, take your time and remember that this is a marathon and not a race. You'll hit your goal if you make reasonable choices and keep accountable. Even if things seem tough, and you slip up, always come here to talk about it because we're all in the same boat.

Good luck!
 
It turned out you were right Loch. The binging increased after my fasting days. I took your advise and went to a dietitian to ask for a kcal lim diet. Starting tomorrow, i will be limited to a certain kcal a day. I really like her way of dieting thoughg, instead of counting kcal she put together a list of "allowed portions" each day. For instance two portions of fruit per day (with a banana being two portions).

In the past days i have joined a couple of my friends in their sports, committing myself to them makes me feel obligated to actually go out there. If i do sports on my own it is to easy to say, i will do tmrw instead of today.

Eating has been shit, like i said the urge to binge increased a lot while trying to fast. I just cannot understand that in a binge moment i cannot think rationally. I reallly think i need help but haven't been able to find it yet.
 
The exchange program is really good, it's recommended for diabetics and for people who are not inclined to count calories to the last number. You can eat sensibly and without too much thought.

I'm sorry to hear about your struggle. Hang in there, and remember that you can come here for support too. We're all going through it, even after we lose weight, it's a battle we'll have to face for the rest of our lives.

Each day is a new day to be the best that you can be.
 
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