General hysterical diet-related rambling: From Flab to fab; Part two.

overtherainbow

overtherainbow

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Ooops-a-daisy, I seem to have found myself fat again. And not just any old fat, the fattest I have ever been in my life. 16 stone/224 pounds/102 kilos. And a 38 inch waist. My-oh-my.

This really can't go on. I am going to huff and puff, and shrink myself down. The two times I’ve succeeded on diets before, have been when I have not much going on... And I have just finished uni for 4 months, so NOW is the time. I seem to throw myself into things completely, it’s like my mind can only concentrate on one thing at a time. For months it’s been uni work, now it is going to be GETTING SEXY!

My main problem is sugar. I can't get enough of it. An inch of it in the bottom of each cup of a never ending conveyor belt of tea into my mouth equals a staggering 1300 calories per day of tea sugars, and that is not even counting all the sugars that the unrefined carbs I am guzzling also contains. I am an actual addict. I started my diet today, and tried to go cold turkey, but sugar withdrawals caused a vice like headache, and a very vile mood. So I have had three cups.

Actually, it really hasn't been the best first day of a diet ever. I am clucking right now for cereal, or bread, or cheese, or biscuits or SOMETHING. I actually have to inspect the cupboards right now, off I go... Two bbq ribs, salvaged and stripped.

The amount of weight that I have to lose is quite off-putting. It is going to take forever. 56 weeks of losing an average 1.5 pounds per week. But then, in the past year I've been slowly and happily gaining. At least slowly losing is better than the alternative.

I am sick of my double chin. I need it gone. I have to do this!!!! But it’s not going to be an easy journey. I want to reach the magical kingdom of skinniness so badly tho, that I think that I really am prepared to eat healthily to do it :)
 
Hey Ruth :) Welcome back my lovely, so glad you're posting again xx

We both have a long way to go but we've done it before (well, nearly ;)) and we'll do it again xx
 
Yes, we will!

I have spent the last hour looking at internet pages relating to men who don't fancy their wives any more because they have got fat. I then started asking my fella some very awkward questions. And now I feel like crying. Hopefully THIS IS WHAT I NEED to give me the push I know I will need for this first month.

I have had the hungries all day long. Did have another three cups of tea, it is just SO HARD for me to give it up. I pigged out on two buttered rolls. And I am longing for more.

Did a video showing my measurements, sorry about the awful background noise. I did actually do it wrong, I should have subtracted half an inch from the final measurement as the tape measure wasn't long enough, not added it :/


I think it will be nice to have a before video rather than just photos. Excuse the decor of my dining room, about to decorate :)



Todays food-
Huge fruit salad
Chichen Rogan Josh with Basmati rice
2 buttered rolls and some tuscan chicken and orzo soup
3 teas.
 
Awh Ruth, your voice is adorable :D Videos are a great idea, I used to do them on here but stopped because no one would do them with me :p How's today going?
 
I hate my voice... No-one can understand me if I talk fast :) Thanks tho :D

I just completely forgot I was on a diet and ate 7 big marshmallows. Came downstairs to wash the sticky from my hands and I was like-SHIT I am on a diet :) My head is buzzing with sugar.

Its quite hard to eat healthily at the moment. Nicks got a mate over and I have banned the usual pizza but it what I want to eat more than anything. Trying to remember that the more I say NO the easier it'll become.

Really hating myself for not starting this diet sooner! Hope I lose a lot this month as its the first month. 2-3 inches would be fabulous. I am thinking about getting Alli or Xenical slimming pills to help me... They are the ones that stop your body from absorbing fat. The thing is, that they also can stop you absorbing vitimans properly, and I love the way my skin looks when its filled with vitiman-y goodness. Also, I don't really eat much fat when I'm on a diet... But maybe it would save me about 200 butter/olive oil calories a day, which would add up to 2 pounds extra a month. Hmmmm. I could eat lamb!!! I do love a bit of lamb.... Going to go to the doctors to get prescribed free gym membership, may ask about it then.

May as well write my food and planned food for the day now, as I'm here already....

Slice of mulltigrain toast with buuter and honey, with a banana,
5 marshmallows
Kievs, basmati rice and roasted med veg
Mahoosive fruit salad

Last night I did end up having a big and sugary bowl of shreddies :x

35 minutes walking.
 
A good day today, right up to the quadruuuuuupal maybe even a pentruqual vodka.

Actually, I shall just call it a good day. Its a good day. But I did need a vodka and orange to take the edge off a bit, as my boyo is driving me round the bend. He has autism, and his repetiveness can be stressful. He is extra-bad when his dad is gone. Anyhoos....

Bought a hypnosis app last night, it seems really good. i will reserve full judgement till a weeks time tho... Theres a different thing to listen to every night. I don't want to jinx it, but the hungries havn't been snapping at my heels today.

2 bananas
3 teas
Vegetable fresh soup
Large chilliburger with huge salad
Pentruqual vodka, with a huge cup of pure orange juice.
 
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I'm sure we've talked about this before but I work in an Autism Unit at a SEN Primary School-- I've watched certain parts of Mr Tumble over 200 times!! The repetitiveness is hardddd work--You're super strong xx I know all kids are special but I've always thought children with autism are extra special. The way they see things is so different.

Food looks good lady! How did you do today?
 
Charlie loves Junstin Fletcher because of Mr Tumble. When he was about two we all jumped up and did crazy dancing around the room to the gigglebiz theme tune. He will play it on the computer constantly all day if left to his own devices. My ears are now immune to it :)

Today involved weeing (A lot of wee) on the floor in H&m, me having a screaming match with a woman for calling him a little prick because he grabbed her daughters hair, his pants being pulled down in a busy shopping centre about 50 times, Took off his top he spilt drink down, and made a topless bolt, dancing and spinning around away from me, everything being pulled off the shelves, him rolling around on the floor, attacking a man in a teddy bear outfit, attacking his sister, threatening to throw a large stapler at a woman in a shop, eating a mouth full of rubbers in a stationary store... Lots more but I am too exhausted to even write it. I had no sleep last night because he was up at 3.

I did have a kfc and a tiny bit of cake and a cappuchino. Think I was so devoid of energy after no sleep... I didn't even want it that much. Its just that lily wanted chicken and chips, and I didn't want to queue up in two different places in the food court.

The mood today is STRESSED! I love my charlie boyo, and he can be so lovely and sweet, and I wouldn't change him for anything, but he really has been a nightmare.

So, food....

3 shredded wheats
3 bits of chicken and small fries, and half a strawberry milkshake
Cappuchino and small amout of victoria sponge,
Chicken piri-piri fresh soup (Lover-ly)
Lots and lots of pure orange juice, rubicon, and sugary fanta. I was in an orangey mood.

6 hours walking

today doesn't worry me, I know in my heart I will do this.
 
Oh gosh, that sounds like quite a day. i don't think anyone will blame you on needing some KFC! A child with special needs is hard enough without idiotic people who don't get it and get upset about everything. I minded a boy with Asperger's for a while during uni, and had a screaming match in soft play with a mum who just would not get that he was not "being difficult" and flattering near her child on purpose.

I hope the week starts better than the weekend ended. You can do it!
 
I know a few mums who have T-Shirts for their kids that say "I'm not naughty, I'm autistic" but then part of me thinks it's no ones bloody business and you shouldn't have to justify it. I don't know. Hope today is better, lovely lady.
 
Ruth!!!!I just love that finally i got a voice to match your pretty face and you sound so sweet!I knew you spoke like that with your English accent!Love it!Girl how on earth did we put all this weight on?and i keep thinking WHY didn't anyone tell us in the process that we are getting fat?but i do feel more positive now that i know you are back on it cause i remember how amazing you did last time////we have to figure out a way to NOT put the weight back on.
i myself am nearly 96 kg again...im here to support you and to shout at you dear!!!!Get fit and sexy!!You can do it again!!!
 
JESSICA!!!! YOUR BACK!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! HOPE YOUR GOING TO BE DOING A DIARY!!!! Sorry for being happy that you want to lose weight again, but I am! Yes, I agree, other people are so vocal about you losing weight, but they don't say a word when you gain it again. Apparantly everyone is so skinny in France, because everyone does tell you if your gaining weight, and will refuse to give you that second croissant :) They are very anti-fat in general over there.

The weight creeps on so slowly doesn't it.... I guess thats why people say that you should think of it as a lifestyle change rather than just a diet... Because you need to change your lifestyle to keep it off. I shall support you and shout at you too! I think the shouting part is especially important.

Have watched that video back again and I seem so miserable, hopefully the next one will be happier!

Hello JoeySchmoey, I can just picture that woman now with her smug "My child is better than your child" attitude! Good on you for minding a kid with aspergers :) nthanks for cheerleading me :D Will check out your diary...

Hahaha Sunflower, the funny thing is, that I actually considered getting one of those tees for a minute. It would explain everything... But it would also attract attention, with people pointing out the t-shirt. And yes, I do also think that other people should go and screw theirselves, I hate that I feel like I need to explain.

The good news is, that my charlie boyo has been good today. He keeps on coming up to me and saying "Mummys sleeping" which is making me laugh. I have a meeting at his school tomorrow.

I forgot to do my hypnosis app last night, and I am blaming that for me craving sponge fingers all day. I've had a really good day, although I have drunk a lot of tea.

When I decided to get healthy again, I thought I would do my shopping online in three week blocks... As I usually eat well while the fridge is stocked with healthy food, but then the diet goes to pot after. So this time, I thought I would arrange for the shopping to be delivered the day after the food runs out.

I have more time on my hands now, so I'm mainly going to be cooking from scratch. Will take a photo of my shopping, I do love gloating to myself as I'm arranging it on the worktops.

Peach and a plum
Chicken stir-fry with lots of veggies
A massively huge huge huge fruit salad
7 teas. In small cups.
Edit------ Also had 2 slices of marmalade on toast.
 
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I think it does get easier as they get older (All three of my boys are ASD)

looking good with the food so far :)
 
Have a good day, lovely. It is much easier when you have healthy stuff in the fridge! I also get so excited about my diet when I do my food shop at the start of the month! xx
 
Enjoyed the video. :D

I think it's an excellent idea to make sure you have the food available to you to make the sort of meals you need to eat to lose weight. I know that whenever things get in my way in terms of making my own meals, that's when I'm in the most danger of going over my calorie allotment. In some ways it's as much about organization as it is overeating due to hunger.
 
i understand to be happy that i am trying to loose it again and am back!!!!
i have started a diary "get it off keep it off" its new and i seem so miserable aswell in my writing
i took my tape out to measure because of your video and i will keep on doing so...my measurments are AWFUL..such a shame....would love to be french!!!all skinny and chic!!!

your food looks good.would like the photos of the grocery!

keep going and fight those sugar cravings!!!!
 
RUTH!!!!! Loved that video you put up:) your lovely voice matched your darling personality:)

Hope today was a good day for you, my addiction is CHOCOLATE. I am IN LURRVEEEEEE with the beauty of it all.

WE HAVE TO BE THIN:) WE HAVE TO BE THIN:)xxxxxxxxxxx
 
Helloooo, the only reason I didn't post yesterday, is that something was wrong with the forum on my computer, it would only let me see the top tw posts, and I couldn't scroll down any further :/ But its alright today :) I did write my diary on word.

PRINCESS! Hello my lovely :) I used to be a chocolate addict, but somehow, chocolate doesn't taste as chocolateley as it used to... The only thing chocolately that I ever long for is a dark chocolate fudge cake. And the icing for that is half pure butter, and half chocolate with some muscavado sugar and golden syrup thrown in lol. WE do!!!!! WE HAVE TO BE THIN!!!!! WE CAN BE THIN!!!! WE WILL BE THIN!!!!!

Trusylver- I am glad to hear it’s got easier for you ? What are their ages now? I think you deserve an actual medal, or an award of some kind for coping with three ASD kiddies! Personally, I think I would drop down dead with exhaustion!

Sunflower- It is a great feeling
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MrVee- You have hit the nail on the head. My problem is that I am one of the most disorganised people I have met. I do go through bursts of productivity every now and then… Need to make the most of them! Otherwise nothing would get done, ever! Getting takeaways 5 times a week was, in the end, a matter of disorganisation. I had no food in the fridge, so I ordered it in. The amount of money I must have spent on takeaways is staggering.

Jasper- It is shit. It really, really is. But there is no point at all for gating ourselves for gaining again. All that matters is the here and now… We can’t change the past, but we can change the future. And I really really hope that we have both learned our lessons from last time. We can be sauntering around in bikinis this time next year, looking great. Last year I wasn’t fussed about getting a super-hot body in the same way that you were. But this year, I think, if I am going to do it, I may as well do it properly. So lets both get a body to die for!

Yesterday
This morning I woke up and went to a meeting straight away, before breakfast. Then I decided to walk the 1.5 miles back, which left me feeling quite virtuous (Have blisters tho!). I had a slice of marmalade on toast, with a huge fruit salad for breakfast. An unspecified amount of crusty bread. And plaice with garlic, ginger and pak choi and rice for dinner. Have just eaten another huge bowl of fruit salad. So other than the unspecified amount of bread, it was quite good.

And….. THE TICKER WORKS THE TICKER WORKS OMG THE TICKER WORKS!!!!!! ARRRRRGGGHHHH SO HAPPY!!!! Ticker, I have longed for you! I will be so pleased when its half way there, at the moment it just seems so far to go. I was so proud of myself for losing 45 pounds before, the thought of 73 is just WOAH!

To make it seem like less of a journey, I told myself that I am 20 healthy food shops away from being a weight that is less hippo-ish. On the second one now, so at least that’s one down.

today
Tiny bowl of fruit and fibre
Avocado and prawn pasta salad
Probably some butternut squash soup
Massive tropical fruit salad.
Lots of tea. I aim to cut down over the next month, and I will DEFINITELY have given up tea in three weeks time.

In the middle of decorating now, and I have no dining room light, so I have to get it done before its too dark, so I will look at everyones threads later.

I would have taken a photo of the shopping, but Nick put it away, and I'm not getting it out of the cupboards and fridge again :) I hate him putting it away. I never know where anything is.
 
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