Galen wants to flip off the scale.

galen

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Hello all, I'm Galen. I'm 23 years old, 5'6" and currently 144 pounds. My highest weight when I was a teenager was 163 and I gained it fairly quickly when I was 13. My starting weight then was 107, at this height. I know I was a kid then, so I don't expect nor want to get down to that weight again. But I haven't been happy with my body at all for the past 10 years and I've decided that needs to change right now.

At my wedding I was 137 pounds. After my divorce (yup, that sucks) I gained 10 pounds due to being miserable and stressed. I've never been one for exercise or eating healthy. Sweets, pizza, fried foods... They've tended to be my comfort. I was part of a pre-professional, competetive dance company as a teenager, but my diet was horrible, so my weight stayed consistant.

Well, now I'm dating a wonderful guy, who happens to be a personal trainer. He's the sweetest thing and adores my body the way it is and is not shy about expressing that. Awesome! But he understands my desire to become comfortable with my body for once and is amazingly supportive. And it's lovely to go out to eat and get a salad and not feel deprived -- because he's eating a salad, too!

He helped me get over my gym intimidation and I've now been going for over a month. I've lost 6 pounds (hence, my current weight of 144) and my body has responded so well to the exercise. Like it's saying, "Thank you! Thank you!" My arms have gotten so toned and even the abs under my stomach chub are stronger. My legs have always been really muscular, so I'm hoping that they slim out during this process. To my surprise, I actually love going to the gym. I've been taking a lot of classes (Ashtanga yoga, Pilates mat and hip hop) and trying to get in 30 minutes of cardio on the elliptical when I can.

I'm restricting calories to 1,200 per day, at his recommendation. I eat one real meal per day (with veggies, lean meat and usually a salad with oil and vinegar, though I'm not always perfect with it) and the rest of the calories are filled up with balanced meal replacement bars. This feels not so balanced in the long run, but they're so incredibly easy and portable. I eat one every three hours.

I've dieted before without exercising and the weight just flew off. Now, combining a quite restricted diet with a lot of exercise, I'd expect it to be even faster. This is so not the case. But, I have gone from a 30 waist to a 28.5 waist. I need to train myself to look at my measurements and how my clothes fit (I bought two pairs of jeans recently, size 10, and now they're much too big). So, I'm definitely seeing a difference, but not on the scale so much. I don't know, I just want the weight to go away NOW! Haha.

My goal weight is the weight my mom got married at. We are the same height with the exact same body type. She was 118 when she got married. However, she never exercised. She looked beautiful and was naturally thin. Not too thin at all, but thin. I want to go from the top of my healthy weight range to the bottom, while still staying within it. But, since I'm exercising so much, I think I'll look like a toned version of my mom before I ever get down to that weight, so we'll see. That weight is just a target, the ultimate is how I look and feel.

Okay, I just took pictures of myself to compare along this journey. Hrm. I don't think I look any different than I did at 150. I don't see the muscle tone that I feel. This is so frustrating. My torso is thick, I think that's just how I'm built. My chest is a bit flattened by my sports bra, but by the time I'm as thin as I'd like to be, I'm pretty sure I won't have much of a chest. It's already smaller than it was. My thighs feel toned, but they don't look it at all.

This is going to be tough.
 
Hello and welcome!! You dont look bad in your pics...but like you said its how you feel about your self!! Congrats on your loss already and your plan looks great!! Keep up the good work....glad to see that you met a wonderful guy who supports you!! Good luck:waving:
 
Hi Amber! Thanks! I think there are all these little events that have combined to make me feel bad about my weight and my body. As a teenager my dad told me I was fat and needed to lose weight, but I never could and it just made me feel terrible. Like a failure. I've also been asked if I was pregnant at least 5 times in my life. And I've never been pregnant. Humiliating, to say the least. So, I guess we all have past experiences and whatnot driving us to become healthier and more fit.

Thanks for the reply and congrats on your progress so far! :hurray:
 
hey welcome!

i'm the same height as you but weigh a bit more....a bit i say...a lot more (158) lol. anyway i have lost in the last 2 months about 6lbs at the most but lost 3inches atleast.

you look a lot better than me. take some measurements and track those. weight fluctuates a lot and anyway who cares what we weigh as long as we look good.

good luck with your journey

;-)

x
 
Thanks, Angel! It's so difficult to get the idea into my head that the measure of my success isn't the number on the scale. I just took my measurements:

Bust: 37 inches
Waist: 29 inches
Hips: 37 inches

So, I must've pulled the tape a little too tight when I measured 28.5 for my waist a while ago. Oh, well. For my waist to be under 30 is amazing for me. :)

Three inches?! That's great! Keep up the good work!
 
Okay, I'll edit this post throughout the day, as I'm not done eating yet, but here's what I've had so far:

11:45am (I slept in, hehe) -- 1 Zone Perfect bar (200 cal)
2:45 -- SUBWAY: 6" turkey & ham on wheat, no cheese, no mayo, all veggies (290 + non-standard veggies);
Baked Lays BBQ (140)
20-oz. Diet Coke (0)
6:00 -- 1 Balance Bare bar (200)
1 Slim Fast Optima bar (200)
9:00 -- 1 Zone Perfect bar (200)
12:30am -- 1 bowl of oatmeal with more brown sugar than I'd like to think of.

TOTAL: Too much. 1500ish.


I could've gotten a wrap instead of a sandwich, I realized after the fact. Oh, wow! I just checked the Subway nutrition info and one turkey & ham wrap is 400 calories! 110 more calories than the 6" sandwich. Goes to show that what seems to be the healthiest option isn't always. It even has 11 more carbs, which seems completely counter intuitive. Weird. Anyway, as of 3:30pm, I have 570 calories left for the day. Probably shouldn't have gotten the chips, but I haven't had chips in a long time, and they sounded good. So, since I'm really just counting calories, I'm just going to figure that in and not worry about it.

I'm not going to the gym today at all. I'm still sore from Friday and Saturday's Ashtanga yoga classes and I think I've worked out every single day for the last week, which feels great (aside from the soreness, of course, haha). But since I have yoga again tomorrow, I'm going to take it easy today.

I will be cleaning my apartment today, though. It's an absolute mess, as you might be able to tell from the pictures, haha. It's so hard to find the motivation sometimes, especially with the Internet calling my name!
 
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I don't really want to flip off the scale anymore. Well, I do, but I'm feeling so much more positive today! :waving: Anyone know how to change the title of the original thread post?

Last night I stayed up too late and after multiple attempts not to give in to the desire to just chomp on something, I made myself a bowl of oatmeal. Fine in itself (aside from the fact that it went over my calorie limit for the day) but I didn't have anything to put on it except for brown sugar, and boy did I load it on! I felt so bad about doing it that I threw the whole bag of brown sugar away. :blush5:

I'm feeling the need to only weigh myself once a week. My weight has steadily gone down in the month since I started exercising and watching what I eat. That's not going to change. I'm not crash dieting -- I'm not going to see the pounds melt away from one hour to the next. And I don't think it's healthy for me or my weight loss endeavors to worry about it constantly. So... buh-bye scale, see you again next week!

Instead I'm going to focus on challenging myself physically (it's pretty cool to see what my body can do) and staying within my eating plan. And I need to drink more water! So, I'm going to record that here, too.

Today's exericse plan is as follows (hehe):

Ab class at the gym (30 minutes) and
Ashtanga yoga (90 minutes)

I would also like to get on the elliptical machine for a bit. Half an hour, maybe. My boyfriend suffered a non-gym related injury a few weeks ago and hasn't been able to accompany me, but when he's ready I'm going to see if I can get another free weights tutorial, as I seem to have forgotten most of what we covered last time.

Okay, here's something else. My new boyfriend is hot. I've never, ever dated anyone super hot before, mostly because I didn't think anyone incredibly physically attractive would like me. And quite frankly, I stereotyped them all as jerks. "Oh they're hot, they must be full of themselves." Then I got married. Then I got divorced. And I was really depressed, but slowing gaining the confidence I didn't have while married. And then all of a sudden this hot, sweet, intelligent, talented, successful guy comes along. You know, the kind of guy I never thought I could get. Well, I got 'im. :) However, he is like the male equivalent of a Victoria's Secret model. And all my girlfriends are saying the equivalent of, "Dude! I can't believe you're dating her!" Thanks guys, thanks. So, while he adores my body the way it is and makes sure that I know it, I would like to be his equal, physically, ya know? Our senses of humor match, our intellect matches, our careers are in different branches of the same industry (entertainment, something I'll perhaps get to in another post... because it does play a role in my self-image and my reasons for losing weight)... why not our level of fitness, too?

Anyway... Here's my eating for today so far:

7:30am -- Balance Bare bar (200)



Oh, and here's my answer to the cookie jar: :D
 
hey good job with the cookie jar hehe!

how you doing? not heard for a while.hope you are doing great.

;-)

x

p.s. ure measures are great! can't wait till i get under 30!
 
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