Hi all. I have been lurking for a long time and have finally decided to post.
At the end of 2005 I weighed 115kg (sorry, aussie here so i have no idea about pounds). By May of 2006 i got down to 86kg. I stayed between 86 and 88 between May 06 and May 07, gaining and losing the same 2kgs.
Since May of this year I have managed to get back up to 96kg. I got rid of ALL my fat clothes and am currently squeezing into my looser outfits. I feel devastated. It felt like I just woke up one morning and without realising had gained 10 kgs. So much has happened in the past year, but I thought that I'd be at goal by now.
How does one get back into 'the' frame of mind again? Logically I know that it is never too late and that i can get back into it and lose it again, like i have done before. I am just so sick of this!
I have been overweight my entire life (i remember being 9 and the family doctor telling me that i was too fat and that i should lose weight). I hate the way I feel and look. I hate the way being fat impacts on everything in my life. I graduate from Law School next April and I still have not found any placement only because I have nothing that fits which is appropriate for interviews and I refuse to purchase sixe 18 clothing again (although God knows how I need to!!!) It is so stupid but true.
I have caught that awful voice in my head telling me that i am destined to be this way and that i will never change. What surprises me is that that voice is me! I would never allow another person to speak that way to me yet here I am giving myself permission to put myself down at any given chance.
I am able to use everything and anything as an excuse for why I cannot use the treadmill that cost $1400, why I cannot stick to my allocated points (weight watchers). Oh, and the all time excuse that its too cold to drink water. I have had one glass of water ALL WEEK PEOPLE.
I felt so good at 86kg. I think I got too comfortable. I am 5'4" and my goal weight is 58kg. That is possible right?
I want to be 58kg and feeling better about myself. I want to look better too.
SO, I would love to hear stories of people who lost weight, gained lots back, but picked themselves off and kept on going.
What helped to get you motivated when this happened?
How did you start over?
How did you mentally manage that?
At the end of 2005 I weighed 115kg (sorry, aussie here so i have no idea about pounds). By May of 2006 i got down to 86kg. I stayed between 86 and 88 between May 06 and May 07, gaining and losing the same 2kgs.
Since May of this year I have managed to get back up to 96kg. I got rid of ALL my fat clothes and am currently squeezing into my looser outfits. I feel devastated. It felt like I just woke up one morning and without realising had gained 10 kgs. So much has happened in the past year, but I thought that I'd be at goal by now.
How does one get back into 'the' frame of mind again? Logically I know that it is never too late and that i can get back into it and lose it again, like i have done before. I am just so sick of this!
I have been overweight my entire life (i remember being 9 and the family doctor telling me that i was too fat and that i should lose weight). I hate the way I feel and look. I hate the way being fat impacts on everything in my life. I graduate from Law School next April and I still have not found any placement only because I have nothing that fits which is appropriate for interviews and I refuse to purchase sixe 18 clothing again (although God knows how I need to!!!) It is so stupid but true.
I have caught that awful voice in my head telling me that i am destined to be this way and that i will never change. What surprises me is that that voice is me! I would never allow another person to speak that way to me yet here I am giving myself permission to put myself down at any given chance.
I am able to use everything and anything as an excuse for why I cannot use the treadmill that cost $1400, why I cannot stick to my allocated points (weight watchers). Oh, and the all time excuse that its too cold to drink water. I have had one glass of water ALL WEEK PEOPLE.
I felt so good at 86kg. I think I got too comfortable. I am 5'4" and my goal weight is 58kg. That is possible right?
I want to be 58kg and feeling better about myself. I want to look better too.
SO, I would love to hear stories of people who lost weight, gained lots back, but picked themselves off and kept on going.
What helped to get you motivated when this happened?
How did you start over?
How did you mentally manage that?
