From darkness into the l1ght.

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Male, early thirties, 5' 9" about 250 lbs.
I love baggy clothes. I can't even stand the thought of taking a pair of jeans out of my wardrobe only to then find that most of them don't fit around my thighs and maybe one or two barely fit me though if I walked around in them my inner thighs would get cut to shreds from the chafing which would just lead to the most miserable and uncomfortable of days....jeez I can't stand that.
It is actually ridiculous how often I go to sleep at night telling myself today this is the last day I give in to food addictions and that tomorrow it's gonna change before waking up and repeating the whole cycle over and over again.
I'm getting wise to my issues though. The core issue is not food at all, I'm somewhat depressed I guess, slightly psychologically weak and I depend on an unhealthy emotional attachment to junk food.......Yep, I am an addict.
I'm quite fortunate though that from an early age I was always very active so even though things have been a little tough lately the past few years I've still put in a lot of exercise in between periods of overeating and drinking excessively. This year is the most inactive I have been for a while but it's time to get in shape.
My diet starts Monday and I will document my progress here. I'm guessing I weigh about 250 lbs though will give exact weight once I get started. I used to be a bit of an athlete so hopefully the weight will drop off fast. I'm guessing 160-180 will be a good weight for me but time will tell.
Onwards and upwards we march!
 
Onwards and upwards is right, you can do this! Recognizing what your issues are is an important step. Don't think about having a 'last day' of giving in to food addictions. Add in better habits slowly, and know that you'll probably continue giving in but if you're successful you'll give in less often, and will be able to recover from those episodes quicker and quicker. Welcome to the forum, I'm looking forward to updates from you!!
 
This weeks been like every other week in my life for god knows how long.....giving in to one vice or another. I actually bought a bag of weed and plenty of alcohol on Tuesday and got through it in a couple of days. I saw an opportunity to get wasted and snatched it with both hands. As usual my food intake during this period was excessive and nothing but poor nutrition, "heart attack on a plate" type food but I survived. Yesterday I got up went for a run and unbelievably still hit my targets despite everything. Diet was good, salad, fish, fruit and veg over the course of the day.....oh and lots of coffee. Tomorrows a new day though....my mind tries to convince me to quit every other second, not sure how I'll feel about that when I wake up.
 
Well done on still going for a run light--hopefully today will feel brighter. I smoke quite often and it doesn't do my diet any favours at all..usually end up eating cheese out of the fridge at 3am. But it's so goooood.
 
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