Fresh Start w/ NO More Excuses

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nls80

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Hello guys!

My name is Nat, I'm 27 and live in Iowa. I have been working in healthcare for the last 7 years. I am finally starting nursing school in January. I have a boyfriend of 4 years and two cats. My favorite color is pink. So thats my bio in a nut shell.

Weight. Where do I begin? There is so much to say and I'm at a loss to try to even begin trying to write about it. I am very angry with myself. I've managed to gain 45 lbs since April. I braved the scale this morning. Depressing sight. I've been trying to stay positive...one day at a time, one lb at a time...yadda, yadda. Why am I so upset about 45 lbs, its not that bad really..? Four years ago I went on a health and exercise kick. I was in the best shape of my life. I went from 230lbs to 114. Amazing. I was so proud of myself. After about 6 mos I was up to 120-128 range for a year. No big deal. Nice healthy weight for me (I'm 5'7.5). The next year and half I maintained 135-140. Still not that big of a deal. Fast forward to this morning 178lbs...64lbs I've gained back grand total. All that time, all my hardwork and I've completly fallen back into every horrible eating habbit I had before. So much for a lifestyle change.

I have been trying to stay positive, but its so hard when I feel like the biggest turd. I'm down to a single pair of jeans, some sweatshirts, tshirts and scrubs that fit. I have 2 closets of clothes that I can't wear. I can't allow myself to make the, "I'll start tomorrow excuse." If I don't get my act together I am going to be 230 again. I feel like I ran a 20k race and then ran backwards 15k. What was the point? No more excuses. Today is today and tomorrow will be better. I figured I would find something constructive to do and find a support forum. I lurked around in here for a little while today and I think this place is great! I was a member of a weightloss forum before when I was losing weight and it helped me out tremendously! Thanks for listening to my pissing and moaning. Its nice to get it out. I wish you all the best and look forward to getting to know you guys.

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Nat
 
One thing that can help you with your positive mindset which your struggling with currently is to remind yourself that you stopped your gaining today, this moment.

Most people who lose a lot of weight and then don't keep track of themselves making what got them to their goal weight a full on lifestyle change typically gain all their weight back plus 20 pounds. Ouch!

You have stopped yourself cold in your tracks from doing this.

At the crossroads of your life you have said no more and are taking action to combat your downward or rather upward spiral lol and you need to congratulate yourself for that.

Though yes having a lot to lose seems overwhelming you are not and have not added even more to that number so always remember this whenever you start to feel down or feel that the challenge is to daunting.

Finding this forum in my own bad time very literally stopped me from gaining an extra 50 or 100 pounds because I was in a very dark place when I found this forum emotionally.

I've been losing weight at a steady rate, not as great as my past attempts because I am still battling demons but I am losing weight and its because of this place and the decision I've made to fight my demons.

You have done the same and you will prevail.

Once I get a full 16lb loss I am going to update my journal here about it.

You can start a journal too if you need extra support.

Lots of helpful motivational people here for sure.
 
I agree wholeheartedly with Crunk's post. More important than diet and exercise is mindset and mood. If you dont have those, all the diet and exercise and hard work will be for naught and the weight will creep back on.

I am a "recovering" yo-yo'er" myself. I have been struggling with my weight for almost all of my adult life. This time, with this forum, its different. It's only been a few months, and the weight is coming off much slower than it had in the past . . but it feels different. I don't feel like I have a "realtionship" with food. It's all about whats in my head- and that really has an effect on what goes in my mouth.

The journaling has helped more than I could have guessed, and the support and challenges here in the boards are inspiring.

Start with a journal. Have a sensible eating and exercise plan and success can be yours! Good Luck!
 
Thank you guys so, so much! Your words totally gave me perspective. I can't look at the glass as half empty. It could always be worse. I just started my diary today to. I'm going to use the diary at least once a day, just to keep that fire under my arse burning fiery hot. I really can't tell you how much better I feel just after reading your replies.

Thanks for making me smile :)
 
I am so glad I have found you all

I am a yo-yo dieter for many years and after reading your post it has made me realise that I must start NOW no more faffing about I am fed up of having lovely clothes that I have left in the wardrobes(closet for you in the USA) that I cannot get in
I am starting NOW
thank you
 
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