Forgiving my Mother.

yummimummi

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I only started my weight loss this week but for a few weeks now I have had compliments on having shed a few pounds. Imagine my suprise when I jumped on the scales and saw that I had lost over 14lbs! One weeks on and another 7lbs down I have been wondering how this became less of a battle.

Years ago my Mother commented on a compliment I had recieved. An old family friend had said they thought I was quick witted and really quite funny. My Mother replied that of course I needed to be funny because I wasn't pretty.

What she meant was because I was fat. I wasn't though. I was 15 and maybe one of the heavier kids but very active and very healthy.

I decided to punish my Mother. I ate. Not a little, a lot. I gave up all of the things I enjoyed. My horses, my swimming, my athletics and I did get fat. I am very fat, and, now as a Mother, I realise that I have spent 15 years punishing my Mother and enough is enough because now I am punishing my kids too. I am unfit, unhealthy and big. Thats not their fault. I am going to change.

I hope that this forum will help save me. I have a big life change ahead of me and I am already on the right path. I just might need picking up out of the ditch from time to time.

The children of course don't understand the walking. 60 mins a day at a good pace makes me feel good but its not too exciting for them, stuck in the stroller. Unfortunately for them, this is for their benefit too. iPod is my saviour, I just pump up the volume and keep moving. People drive past in their cars and stare at the bad mother. I just want to scream after them. Better a bad Mother now than a dead one when they need me the most!
 
Hi,

Just popping by to say hello and welcome :) Have a look around the site and you'll get a lot of info. I know I've learned a lot from just looking around. I noticed on the weight loss table you're cutting your calories to 1000 or less? Might be a good idea to rethink that. It's not recommended to go under 1200 a day for women. Also, take a look at the info on here about BMR. It might be a good idea to calculate yours and then adjust eating and exercise accordingly.

I'm sorry if I'm stepping over the line. I don't mean too >.<

Good luck with the August challenge, I'm in there too and I'll see you at the end. Hopefully the both of us will be slimmer :D

You're not a bad mother. At least you're taking them for a stroll! Who cares what people in their cars think. They are probably feeling guilty because they are driving not walking. You should show your mum that you can be pretty and funny. I don't know why it has to be one or the other for some people.

Anyway, best wishes for your weight loss! :grouphug:
 
Thanks so much for your message and motivation. I put the option of 1000 cals or less because I didn't see another one that included diet pills. For my weight and activity level I should have around 1800 cals a day. The hard part will be making them good ones and not bad ones!!! I presuming that 5 bars of chocolate is not the way to go.

I am feeling really good. I love my walks and the kids are getting used to it now. Its supposed to rain tomorrow but I plan on walking anyway. Its my only way to exercise for now. Both my kids are under 30 months so its hard to do videos or swimming. I take them swimming anyway but it wouldn't be classed as a work out.

I am so excited about the August challenge. A great kick start for me.
 
I wish you the very best of luck and encourage you to never give up! Don't give a crap about other people that look at you. I know how you feel, I used to be so sensitive to people looking at me - but now I don't care!

When your kids grow up a little and start running around - they will indeed be an exercise/chore.
 
Today was a 1st! I walked in the rain. Not only am I exercising but I am doing it (and enjoying it) when I would usually have stayed hope and slowly eaten my way through the house!
I think I am noticing a change in my body but it might just be a reacion to feeling better. I have lost 9 lbs so far and hoping to get to a 10lb loss this August (thats another 8 lbs on what I have already lost this month) 8lbs in 4 weeks. Of course I can do it, I just need to focus on my goals!
I am a bit confused about my calories though. I have been sticking to rice as my carb because someone once told me that it is low fat but ok in the carbs. I have been eating it with tuna, sweetcorn and tomato (small portions served cold), I had poached salmon and pasta and peas yesterday, it felt naughty but I watched my portions and didn't add any dressings or sauces.
As I am I diet newbie I am tracking the things I nolonger rely on in my diet. I have completely cut out diet coke from ym diet, I actually feel great about that. Now I just have water and one glass of multivitamin fruit juice each day.
I have been eating one to two portions of fruit a day. Ideally I would like to swap these for veggies but one step at a time!
Still eating chocolate. 2-3 squares a day (it stops me yelling at the kids!)
So far so........ok? Who knows, but I feel ok, I feel more confident already, so its got to be doing me some good!
NEW GOALS:
Drink more water
Learn more about what to put in my body to get the best out of it.
Find a diet buddy. I can't do this alone.
 
Another beautiful day in the mountains and another lovely walk with the girls. Today I actually felt like jogging. If I wasn't so self concious I would have jogged right there and then. I can't wait until I feel ready to jog. I was even thinking of doing some night jogging so noone sees me but I am going to research that, Not sure how jogging before bed will effect how I sleep.
I am thrilled with how I feel and although I am not there yet I feel excited about tomorrow because it is one day closer to my goal, and the day after and the day after. I am so excited to get to March and feel good. I know there is still a long journey for me after March and maybe for life but I have March in mind.
I am babysitting for a friend tonight and she has the Wii fit. I am going to give it a try when the boys go to sleep. I have my joggers packed! I need something like that to instruct my at home fitness because I have no idea where to start. If its really good I might treat myself at my 1st goal which is to lose my youngest daughter in weight. 10kg, around 22lbs I think. I have always treated myself with food until now. I am very excited about treating myself to new clothes at Christmas! It will be the first time I have bought something from a 'real size' store and hopefully won't look like curtains or sofa fabric like my current wardrobe :)
 
HOORAY!!!!! 10lbs LOST!!! YIPPEE!
Weighed in this morning and I have lost my 1st 10lbs. Here's to the next 10, and the 10 after that. I am finally on my way to acheiving the new me!
 
I have had a rubbish week. Got some mixed advice on something I posted. Decided to take the advice and change my plan. Gained 3lbs in a week. Not happy. Planning to go back on with what I was originally doing. Well at least I carried on with the fitness side. I even walked in the rain yesterday, and ran a little too for the first time in many years. Ached yesterday but in a good way. I was exhauseted though and grumpy with the kids for the rest of the day :( bad mumma
 
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