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spyderbabies

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Hello everybody,
I have never done this so if this is in wrong catagory I'm sorry. I was 332 pounds 17 days ago. I am currently 315 this morning. WOOT! :drool5:
Seventeen days ago when I started I was a emotional mess I wanted to die. I had thought about how I would do it, when and where and with what. I was in the process of obtaining means. My childhood sucked I was abused physically by both parents and then my stepfather. I couldn't stop having flashbacks of things that happened to me. I used to cut as a teen when that stopped working I dove into alcohol that didn't help anymore after a short while. I found I am an angry drunk. After feeling this way for almost all my life my BFF told me to either go to the doctor or she was going to help my husband commit me. Mental hospitals are not fun, I was there as a teen for cutting way to deep in the wrong place. I am waiting for the doctor that morning and I just start crying, I couldn't stop. I talked to her and she suggested some meds. for me. Best thing that ever could have happened. I feel wonderful I went on a diet b/c my A1C was at 9 and I can't stand the thought of being diabetic and having to take shots. I know I can lay myself open with a razor but can't stand a needle stupid I know. I have been on the diet for 17 days now and doing it the hard way no diet aids its hard but I keep thinking about life I am happier than I have been in forever. I know I have a long road to recovery and these meds won't fix it forever but for now its working. I weighed this morning after getting out of bed and was really happy about my weight loss, checked my sugar and it was 115 that was after breakfast. Blood pressure is good as well, I can't wait to go back to the doc to show her I am capable of something other than a balling mess.
 
wow, well hey, good job on the loss!!! You are stronger than you know! you didn't mention, are you seeing a phyciatrist of some sort?
 
Just make sure that you get help with your underlying problems. Keep doing what you are doing with the weight loss...it's working!

Make sure that you get your problem fixed because that will help you out more in the long run with your weight loss.
 
Spyderbabies congrats on your weight loss so far! ^_^

I hope you seek help for the issue you mentioned in the first few sentences. "Your present circumstances don't determine where you can go; they merely determine where you start." ~Nido Qubein"

Spring comes after winter. Do you know what I mean by that?
 
Hey spyder, you are doing great after such a difficult road you've been on.

Sounds like you've got a good gp there for support. Visit her regularly i'd say. Would she be into that say a monthly visit?

I think you'd benefit from some sort of regular support.

i don't want to be a downer but this progress you are seeing now is just the beginning. FOr most people the ride to a healthy weight and happiness is not smooth. When a hiccup comes, don't let it upset you so much that you can't pick yourself up again and continue on the same road. It is really important to be able to stick to your goal. Also sometimes people get bored with the weight loss journey. Again, hold fast to your goal. Never lose sight of your goal. But there's never any need to punish yourself if you make a mistake. Forgive and move on.

I've got depression and take meds too. They help me heaps. I am on their for life. Some people need them forever, so don't be in a hurry to go off them just when things are starting to go well. Many people make this mistake. It took me about 9 years to realise i had to stay on them forever. It may not be the case with you but as i say, don't be in a rush to go off them.

Start a diary here and stay in touch with us. We will do our best to provide support.
 
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