kezzypear
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The title of my blog comes from two things. I want to lose some weight and keep it off for good. I also want to focus on the positive reasons for this and not the negative. Ie I am not disgusting as I am, but wouldn't it be great to be able to cycle faster, feel more confident and wear a smaller size?!
I am Kez, female, 28, a scientist living in Cambridge, UK. I am 5'5'' and 154 lbs. Highest ever weight was 168 lbs. Lowest (as adult) was 133 lbs.
My ideal goal is 125 lbs but given that I only managed to maintain 133 lbs for a few months, I am forcing myself to be realistic and only aim for 140 lbs (which is good enough for me!) then concentrate on lifelong maintenance. My goal is to reach 140 lbs by the beginning of June. I am going to a conference in Paris in June, and also to a white tie ball, and to my first music festival in July, so it would be good to look my best for all of those events.
Things that I know work (if only I keep doing them!): counting calories (the only way to stop my lying to myself about how much I eat); this forum (I am a returner); doing exercise I genuinely enjoy (cycling, yoga); having an event to aim for. I am also planning to fast once or twice a week, and have the weekends 'off' (maintenance calories).
I am lucky enough to have a wonderful life. I love my job, my husband, my social life, my hobbies. The fact that I am (only very slightly) overweight, is the only thing I am not happy with. I am not saying this to brag. Just to try to force myself to keep some perspective. I have been trying to lose weight and keep it off for most of my adult life. This is so depressing that it almost makes me not want to try again. I got down to 133 lbs for my wedding in 2010 and am very angry with myself for not maintaining it. I refuse to spend my whole life feeling depressed about this little thing. Also, nothing fundamental has changed that means I am more likely to succeed now (or at any time in the future) than I was in the past. I am therefore setting myself an ultimatum. If I do not succeed this year, I will officially give up. In that case I will concentrate on not putting on any more weight, and learning to love myself as I am. This is my last attempt.
I am Kez, female, 28, a scientist living in Cambridge, UK. I am 5'5'' and 154 lbs. Highest ever weight was 168 lbs. Lowest (as adult) was 133 lbs.
My ideal goal is 125 lbs but given that I only managed to maintain 133 lbs for a few months, I am forcing myself to be realistic and only aim for 140 lbs (which is good enough for me!) then concentrate on lifelong maintenance. My goal is to reach 140 lbs by the beginning of June. I am going to a conference in Paris in June, and also to a white tie ball, and to my first music festival in July, so it would be good to look my best for all of those events.
Things that I know work (if only I keep doing them!): counting calories (the only way to stop my lying to myself about how much I eat); this forum (I am a returner); doing exercise I genuinely enjoy (cycling, yoga); having an event to aim for. I am also planning to fast once or twice a week, and have the weekends 'off' (maintenance calories).
I am lucky enough to have a wonderful life. I love my job, my husband, my social life, my hobbies. The fact that I am (only very slightly) overweight, is the only thing I am not happy with. I am not saying this to brag. Just to try to force myself to keep some perspective. I have been trying to lose weight and keep it off for most of my adult life. This is so depressing that it almost makes me not want to try again. I got down to 133 lbs for my wedding in 2010 and am very angry with myself for not maintaining it. I refuse to spend my whole life feeling depressed about this little thing. Also, nothing fundamental has changed that means I am more likely to succeed now (or at any time in the future) than I was in the past. I am therefore setting myself an ultimatum. If I do not succeed this year, I will officially give up. In that case I will concentrate on not putting on any more weight, and learning to love myself as I am. This is my last attempt.