Finding Cerella

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cinderelly

cinderelly

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Ok so yes - i am startign a new diary - sorry - I feel like I am abusing my new diary priviledges. In teh new year I started fresh with a new diary and new name after takin a break...now I want to start with a fresh new diary after beign plateaued and stuck and acfter accomplishing something major in my life...

For the last 4 years I have been pretty miserable and fighting with my x whom I have a child with over everyhtign you can imagine...custody, maintaince, name change rights, visitation and so the list goes on...

So after 3 long years he has finally done the first decent thing and signed her name change papers...I feel I have won and I am ready to finally move on with my life without him beign a part of it - now however without him to fight with I need to refind and regain my existance -I think this will be my toughest challenege yet...this and struggling to try to take care of me...

I need to find the happy fun loving Cerella and so I named my diary finding Cerella as I thought it was suiting...

i am looking forward to rediscovering me and dating eventually and overcoming my obsticals one day at a time...here's to a new less stressed me !!!
 
Hhhmmm - my rep dropped from 11 - to 10 someone out there doesnt like me ??? LOL...Maybe someone is mad that I made yet another new diary...I am hoping with a new diary I can get new motivation and leave all the stress and negativity in teh old one...
 
I am sure you'll do well. You have come through a lot. I hope you get all that you freamed of.!:)



By the way your new name could be a movie name!!:p
 
Hi Cerella,
You're able to see who repped you, both positive or negative - just look under your user CP - however your rep power has to do with how much you've posted and if you deleted your old diary, that's what caused your count to go down. It's the green bars that tell are the sum total of the amount of rep people have given you.

Hope that makes sense :)

And I'm glad the name change is over! That must have been really stressful!
 
Here's to your new diary cerella and for starting on a new path...for being strong. you have the determination and don't ever doubt yourself and what you can do. you have just won an exhausting battle.
you are an amazing woman. and i'm happy to call you a friend.

Lena
 
A new start with a new diary is a good thing, but there were some good things in your old one. One day you may have wanted to look back to see how far you've come.

Congratulations on getting him to sign the papers; that's a major step. :)
 
M2M said:
Hi Cerella,
You're able to see who repped you, both positive or negative - just look under your user CP - however your rep power has to do with how much you've posted and if you deleted your old diary, that's what caused your count to go down. It's the green bars that tell are the sum total of the amount of rep people have given you.

Hope that makes sense :)

And I'm glad the name change is over! That must have been really stressful!
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Really - your rep power comes from how much you post ? I didnt know that...and the name change isnt over yet but the papers are signed tha tis major!!!

lena410 said:
Here's to your new diary cerella and for starting on a new path...for being strong. you have the determination and don't ever doubt yourself and what you can do. you have just won an exhausting battle.
you are an amazing woman. and i'm happy to call you a friend.

Lena
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AAAWWW - that was touching Lena - Thank you:) :D :)

dariqueen said:
A new start with a new diary is a good thing, but there were some good things in your old one. One day you may have wanted to look back to see how far you've come.

Congratulations on getting him to sign the papers; that's a major step. :)
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Thanx dari but I know how far I've come and what Ive accomplished...frustrationa nd all Im not giving up - I still ahve this fight in me and I can only just imagine how I am gonna feel when I reach my goal...
 
Girl you can do this! Dont get discouraged by the plateau it will break just stay focused! I am glad you are feeling better and time heals so trying to let go of the anger will help you so much believe me I know but I wont get into it right now! Have a great day!
 
Hi Cinderelly. Good for you on the new diary.

I came here over two years ago, and had a diary. Left for a while and when I came back I wanted to start fresh. I didn't want to look at what I'd written before. Whatever the reason....

You are a cheerleader and an inspiration to others on this forum. You are taking steps forward. I'm impressed that you mentioned "dating eventually" - that's a step too!

Good luck and thanks for all your encouragement!!!
 
Hi Cerella. I found your new diary! I can see why you feel this is a time to be aware of another positive change. It's been good to know that you are feeling happier and more relaxed. I hope you are still keeping up with that challenge you accepted in your old diary to keep going with that too!! :D

BTW My understanding is that the little green boxes come solely from the rep people give you, but your rep power - the number above the boxes - is partly due to the rep people give you and partly due to your post count.
 
Patty said:
You are a cheerleader and an inspiration to others on this forum. You are taking steps forward. I'm impressed that you mentioned "dating eventually" - that's a step too!

Good luck and thanks for all your encouragement!!!
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AAAWWW thanx Patty - I hope me babbling helps - I can relate to what you are going through - I wasnt married but it too me forever to straighten things out in my life and to just get anywhere - it has all been such a struggle - but you are great and I really do care abt you and what you are going through and if I can help in anyway I am so there!!!

redneckwoman66 said:
Girl you can do this! Dont get discouraged by the plateau it will break just stay focused! I am glad you are feeling better and time heals so trying to let go of the anger will help you so much believe me I know but I wont get into it right now! Have a great day!
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Im not really angry anymore - now tha tthe name change papers are signed and he is still paying me maintance I am fine with everythign - i have accepted that this is hwo things are and that we will enver be a family agian...he will never changed I loved him but dont love him anymore...and tha tis ok - he is missing out on us...

felici said:
Hi Cerella. I found your new diary! I can see why you feel this is a time to be aware of another positive change. It's been good to know that you are feeling happier and more relaxed. I hope you are still keeping up with that challenge you accepted in your old diary to keep going with that too!! :D

BTW My understanding is that the little green boxes come solely from the rep people give you, but your rep power - the number above the boxes - is partly due to the rep people give you and partly due to your post count.
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Im working on it my stress has dropped alot without having him to worry abt - I am so doen with hima nd tha tand it is a great feeling - as far as rep - hhhmmm - I thought I posted a fair amount - LOL...I only have 2 bars - oh well - not really a biggy...:):):) I dont post for rep - i am just me and I like to stay caught up with my friends...
 
Ok so I spent a good portion of yesturday/yesturday evening cleaning and organizing...I also spent most of my morning and afternoon and my place is gettin together and boy do I feel good abt it!!! My first thing on teh agenda was to get my place cleaned up adn dejunked - it is so true how they say your house reflects your mood and such...

I got the treadmill into the livign room and reorganized the living room...my bedroom is also almost clen and dejunked so I can start doin my vids/dvds again...

So now th eyoungest and I are gonna grab somethign to eat - have a shower and then head out for a nice long walk and I promised a friend I woudl go back to the doc abt my tat but I might not find time today I might need to go tomorrow to a clinic...
 
No big walk for us it started raining - oh well - i will use the Elliptical later and maybe the treadmill - dunno abt htat one yet but I will use the Elliptical or go for a walk if it stops raining...
 
Well done on reorganizing your place to fit in more exercise!! That will pay off heaps I reckon.

I hope you get things sorted out with your tattoo soonest!!

Have a good week. :)
 
I'm a bit of a slob so I'm paying a nice woman $40 a week to clean. Best money I ever spent. An organized place is a godsend.
 
Cannon 2006 said:
I'm a bit of a slob so I'm paying a nice woman $40 a week to clean. Best money I ever spent. An organized place is a godsend.
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Ha ya dotn I knwo it - I am the cleaning woman cannon - I am a residential cleaner...I clean everyone elses places all day long!
 
5.5 miles on the Elliptical and damn it felt good - here's to hopin it is finally fixed - I have missed it!!!
 
Cannon 2006 said:
Oh the things you must see. I can only imagine what my cleaning woman thinks about me lol.
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ha ha ha -a somethings definatey bug me and make me shake my head it is also amazing how picky ppl are/get...oh lets not foget to mention the things I have been accussed of!!!
 
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