Ok, call me emo if you want but lately I have been feeling pretty messed up and emotional. I have been listening to the Death Cab For Cutie stuff, The Postal Service etc.
I have alot of things going on right now...being a Senior in High School and all that and all of my friends are getting into relationships with other people (mostly in our circle of friends).
I want a relationship VERY bad with a girl that is currently dating someone else, it was a group effort to get them together because this guy is pretty shy. My best friend has just gotten into a very good relationship and everyone else in the group is in one as well.
To make matters worse, a while ago, when I was interested in somone else, I told this girl about me being into someone else. So, she still thinks I like this other person, which as a friend yes but anything more no.
I REALLY REALLY want to tell this girl that I have feelings for her but I am afraid she'll not want to be my friend anymore because she thinks I am a "player" and she is currently dating someone. This girl is a very good friend of mine in the first place and I don't want to lose a friend at all.
I feel like I am about to explode...this thing and then college and then not seeing my friends anymore when college starts, how I am going to get through college etc.

I have alot of things going on right now...being a Senior in High School and all that and all of my friends are getting into relationships with other people (mostly in our circle of friends).
I want a relationship VERY bad with a girl that is currently dating someone else, it was a group effort to get them together because this guy is pretty shy. My best friend has just gotten into a very good relationship and everyone else in the group is in one as well.
To make matters worse, a while ago, when I was interested in somone else, I told this girl about me being into someone else. So, she still thinks I like this other person, which as a friend yes but anything more no.
I REALLY REALLY want to tell this girl that I have feelings for her but I am afraid she'll not want to be my friend anymore because she thinks I am a "player" and she is currently dating someone. This girl is a very good friend of mine in the first place and I don't want to lose a friend at all.
I feel like I am about to explode...this thing and then college and then not seeing my friends anymore when college starts, how I am going to get through college etc.