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It's about time I start focusing on my health once again. I used to be a health nut! Actually lost 60lbs in one year! But of course it never all stayed off. So here I am starting over. As I've mentioned in my newbie post, I love food. But obviously, who doesn't?! I just love it too much. I raised by my family who loves food and have always been surrounded. Now I've taken the love of food with me to adulthood. I'm currently 23 years old and I weigh around 247. The crazy thing is, just a few weeks ago I was down to 238 but then I went to Florida and Tennessee and where am I now.... back up in the 240s. :cry: My goal is to be around 200lbs come my birthday which is the beginning of May. I don't have any support at home. My boyfriend is a "chubby chaser" and wants me to stay chubby. Luckily for him, I doubt me every being considered skinny. I just want to wear smaller clothes and be healthier. I'm not active. I am in school full time and working a part time job. I spend my free time couponing, watching tv, and playing online. I hope to start being very active in this forum because I think this might help. I need to know that I'm not the only one out there that is in my boat.
 
Hi and welcome to the forum!! This place is great for motivation and ideas!


Maybe have a little talk with your boyfriend and ask him to be a bit more supportive in your goals to be healthy- it absolutely doesn't need to be about being skinny!! Nothing feels better than eating right and being fit, at ANY size!
 
Thanks everyone for the warm welcomes! Finally I place I speak what I always keep locked in my mind. This is will be a great way to voice my opinions and outlook on dieting (which sucks!) It's hard to get motivated but once I am motivated, hopefully I can lose another 60 like I did the first time. I am obsessed with weighing myself often. At least once a day, up to about 5. It seems its the only way I can lose weight if I know what I weigh at all times. Maybe I'm crazy/obsessed but it worked before. The crappy part is grocery shopping for me and my bf. He only eats meat and breads. No veggies or fruit! So I have to sneak some healthier choices in the cart. He knows I like all various types of food which makes it difficult to cook. Since he won't eat anything that has green stuff in it or healthy pieces. Its always meet, pasta, and bread! Which of course I love but I cannot live like this anymore! Grocery shopping is so expensive and sometimes my coupons does not work or benefit the purchase. I would love to get some great recipes that are healthy and cheap for when I am cooking. Maybe things he will eat or something I can eat by myself that could last a few days. I am completely fine with eating leftovers. Another issue I face is my digestive system is way out of whack! I am lactose and tolerant, I have acid reflux, and have IBS. So eating some foods make me feel like crap later. Anyways... if anyone has any recipes or ideas to help me that would be amazing! Btw I did gain a pound since yesterday after spoiling myself for losing a pound. So now I'm at 348.8 (I haven't been this weight since last year!) Help!!!
 
Hi Em, I know it can be really hard cooking for 2 when one person is really fussy- I have one of those at home too lol. I'm wheat and dairy intorerant and have a website with recipes and food ideas, the link is in my signature. I'm adding around 2 recipes a day at the moment- I started it because I was posting recipes on facebook and everyone was asking for more! So thought I'd share with everyone. Most of them are single-size portions too.


Is there really no fruit or veg he likes?? That makes life pretty difficult!! Maybe for meals cook meat for both of you and then make a big salad to spread over 2 nights for yourself. I'm the laziest person EVER when it comes to cooking, if it takes too much time or has too many steps then I don't do it. So I'll buy meat by weight, checking there's enough for 2 nights for the both of us, and do the same with salad/ veg. Also I buy a heap of veg at the beginning of the week, and roast them in the oven or steam them (this week it's pumpkin and broccoli- it's summer here so I'm mostly cutting things up for salads and wraps) Then they're there for me to just heat up and add to meals, or cook in with my eggs in either a frittata or a tart. Can also add them to pre-cooked meat and divide it up into say 4 meals in containers and freeze them to just grab- used to do this all the time! I would suggest taking time out of your day once a week to plan the meals for the week ahead, know what you need to buy, then set yourself up by buying only what you need. Usually I'll do 2 shops for the week- a big one for meat, dry ingredients and veg for a few days, then the second shop will be to top up my fresh fruit n veg. Handy to have frozen too in case you run out or your produce is off! Eating healthy doesn't need to be boring either- variety is the key!! Eat different fruit/ veg/ meat/ grains daily, see what you like and see how you like it cooked. Get creative!


With IBS (which I mostly get from wheat/ dairy/ alcohol) it's good to start taking a probiotic, I take something called dairy free inner health plus. Starts the healing process in your gut and if I slip up at all, usually the result isn't as bad as it used to be.


Do you do much exercise at all? If you find it daunting just walking or swimming most days is a great place to start. It'll improve your sense of wellbeing if nothing else!
 
I'm so checking out your website for those recipes! It's hard when we are on a short budget for food to buy things that will be tasty and healthy. Hopefully I can figure something out and just won't tell him my healthy secrets!
 
Good morning! Ah! Way toooo early. I didn't go to bed till almost 2am and now I'm trying to wake up. So what I have heard all my life is that breakfast is the most important meal of the day. So I eat it. But when I lost my 60lbs the first time I did not always eat breakfast and lost weight quicker. So it confuses me why I lost weight if it is suppose to be the most important meal of the day. Either way I'm going to eat cereal or something tasty for breakfast. I weighed myself this morning and I'm at 248.6 which is a .2 weight loss. I know I wasn't the best eater yesterday and I ate dinner pretty late due to work. So today I'm going to try to eat less and earlier! My plan for the day is:

B cereal

L frozen pizza

S fruit

D tuna fish

I'm the type of dieter who eats what they want just in less proportions (or I try to anyways) The sad part is I ran out of bottled water yesterday and I refuse to drink sink water. I don't get paid until Monday so I'm stuck with drinking sweet tea or beer.

I think I'm ready to go back to bed now. :sleeping:
 
So last night I caved, again. I ate food really late and it was a frozen pizza. So my weight stands still the same. Gah! I need to just sleep half the day lol. But this weekend I plan on getting back on track better. Won't really have a chance to update or post much. But I promise to eat better than I have been!
 
So I had a fun weekend!! But I didn't eat the exact best due to all the activities. But Monday starts a new week and I'm so ready to lose those extra pounds I gained a few weeks ago on vacay. I can't keep getting behind.
 
Hey Em!! Sounds like you had a slip after a lack of sleep, usually that's the reason I trip up. If I have less sleep than usual I usually go nuts late in the afternoon!!! My body just wants ENERGY and since I am physically incapable of napping, it just screams FOOD! Makes life easier being in a good sleeping schedule.


Haha I love breakfast, I usually make it the tastiest/ most decadent meal of the day. Love eating things that taste like dessert first thing in the morning, really not sure why. Just makes me happy!


I'm glad you had a good weekend, straight back into it hey!? I'm aiming for a perfect week this week after having a bit of a fail last night. We can do this!
 
AGood luck with the upcoming week. :iagree: luzdafuzz on sleep and preparation being very important. Putting meals together the night before and getting plenty of rest makes it a lot easier to get ready in the morning and results in less chance to make poor choices.
 
Thanks for the support! I am always preparing meals in my head for the next day, however it does not always happen out that way. But today is a new day! I think I have limited myself to better choices and less eating. I'm trying my best to stick to eating less and less each day but making sure I get enough calories so I don't starve. I just ran out of my supply of fruit today. :cry: I won't be able to buy anymore until we get some extra money for groceries. Personal and life got to us this past month and we are now suffering the lack of money to even pay our bills let alone buy groceries. So it will be whatever we have in the house is what I"m going to eat. No worries, I'll figure something out! So far its been a good day. I'm trying to train myself to not eat when I'm bored. Luckily I'm in school still and when I have free time I do my homework. And from being back from vacation, my DVR is pretty full so that keeps me busy. I've been thinking to try to exercise to my shows while I watch them. Just so I"m not sitting there not doing anything productive. I am glad when I do watch my DVR shows so I can just fast forward through the commercials. All they do is make me hungry because most of them are based on food. I swear that should be illegal! Or at least a limited amount in the obese areas of the U.S. Anywho, my day has consisted so far of watching tv, errands, tanning, and homework. Still have about half the day togo and thank goodness my tummy is not hungry! I wish I could control my brain from thinking about food.


Weight: 248.4 :-[


Fruit

Cereal

Beer

Chinese



Not the best combo but i make it work!
 
Great news! I am at 246.2 today =] that just makes me more motivated to keep going!!! I was joking with my bf this morning asking him his weight. He is usually right under 200 and now he is over it. I have set a mind challenge to get to his weight before he drops back down under 200. I think I can do it if I just keep staying focus and don't think of food. I wish I had the extra money to start scrapbooking again. I could go hours on into it and never think to eat. I need some expensive hobbies like that! I love me some Pinterest to get those ideas! I hope everyone is having a good time losing weight. I'm sooooo excited I didn't gain. :rotflmao:
 
Very excited to say I am 246.4lbs today. I was worried I had gain some or even not lost anything! I'm getting closer to being back down where I was a month ago (235) still cannot believe I am that much heavier. Recently got my costume for Halloween and I am going to be the Queen of Hearts. Every year I try to wear a smaller size than the previous year. Between this year and last year it was about the same. I still have my old costumes to reuse for work. I haven't ate too awful today. Just a bowl of cereal (kinda big bowl) and a bag of popcorn. Again, not the healthiest but when you are on a budget, desperate times calls for desperate measures. We are going to have a easy night for dinner - frozen pizza. I cannot wait until we have some money to go grocery shopping! I can already feel my energy decreasing from the lack of healthy foods. Another goal of mine is to be in a 12 soon. I wear size 14 at Old Navy but what sucks is when I go to another store and I have to get a 17. All stores are weird but Old Navy is my fav so I usually do most of my shopping there. One more week to go to see what progress I've made this month!
 
So I didn't think I ate that much yesterday but I apparently did to gain weight, again. I'm at 247.2 today and not pleased to hear the news at all. This is ridiculous! I did not except to lose that weight I put on so quick to take so long to get off. I will be doing some extra calorie burning tonight, however, so perhaps I'll weigh less tomorrow. It took me a year to get over the 240s plateau and once I did it only took a week to get right back into it. It makes me sick to get on the scale and see that I'm over 245. I need to get back into my obsessive stage so I can drop those pounds! I'm actually considering doing a detox to cleanse my system. Does anyone have any suggestions for one?
 
I'm starting to get very depressed about not losing weight. I keep gaining lbs everyday and I'm so sick of it! I have got to stop eating pretty much just to be what I was last week in weight. I don't even want to post my weight because its so terrible. Its way way way over what it should be. I cannot believe how easy it is to lose the progress I've made. I'm so disgusted with myself. I wish food didn't taste so good! I love to eat. Even when I'm not hungry I want food. It's all I think about. I don't have money to buy healthy food or to get involved with my favorite hobbies. I'm stuck at home or work and all I think about is food. I am losing energy quickly. My skin is not as healthy as it usually is either. All I want to do is lay around and be a couch potato. I want to be motivated in losing this weight but I can't seem to find a way to. I talked to a girl at work yesterday and told her I need a buddy to help so maybe she will stick with it and help me out too. I need help, badly!
 
It's totally normal for your weight to fluctuate up and down daily, I only weigh myself once a week at the same time so I don't go crazy seeing the change every day.
 
Originally Posted by luzdafuzz


It's totally normal for your weight to fluctuate up and down daily, I only weigh myself once a week at the same time so I don't go crazy seeing the change every day.
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I have tried to limit myself to doing once a week. But I notice if I'm more "obsessed" about weighing myself many times throughout the day I lose my weight quicker. I really should start limiting myself to once a week so i can't stop stressing out and going crazy!


I do have better news today tho. I weigh 247.4lbs. This is alot better than the over 250 I was getting here lately. I have started my week off fresh and I'm going to commit myself 100% to making better choices! The important day is tomorrow so wish me luck!
 
found an amazing quote today



"Perfection is the exclusive province of heaven and cannot be found on earth."
 
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