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Alright so I'm a newbie to this diary thing and this forum, but I say hey! Why not!
SO really, this is me. Plain and simple.
I am from south Louisiana and here we celebrate Fat Tuesday (mardi gras) and for me that also means Fat monday wednesday thursday and friday. Yea, I've never been obese, or morbidly overweight. I've teetered the lines between average and chubby.
Of course it hadn't always been that way, I was once a healthy "cute" 120lbs. I was happy with that, I was about 17 years old and meeting new people left and right and my family always called me the "pretty one"...AND while I could get into detail about the psychological damage my family has instilled upon me, i'm not going to get into it.
Why?
Because this time, my weight loss is for me and only me.
(but lets just say I'm hispanic so i naturally have big hips, and i've inherited my dads side of the families width ><)
I weigh about 143.8 lbs in the morning and 145 lbs at night. So I'm going to stick with 145.
I am 5'4" and 21 years old. I really want to lose 30 lbs, but in retrospect that would be off. I've never been one to fret over the numbers, it's always "can I wear the belly shirt?"
The answer to that one is "NO!"....I'm a jiggly catepillar and my self-esteem is very low. My boyfriend is supportive he always tells me that i'm gorgeous and that he doesn't want me to lose weight because he loves me the way I am.
Heres the thing though, I don't love me the way I am.
So recently it was brought to my attention that this game/anime convention in vegas is looking for gamer girl models. It's been my DREAM to be a model, but i'm too short and too jiggly. BUT they said height doesn't matter you need to know about anime and games, which are two of my favorite things and consequently two things that led me to being overweight (sitting around all day on the computer or watcing anime isn't very good for excercise)
Anyway that is my goal. To audition with my new body and make it. While I know I may not make it for causes like not being pretty enough. I want to show everyone that I can be a booth babe, I can be one of those girls that can show off the merch. I can be an e3 girl even! Really, no one believes i have the nerve to wear a belly shirt. BUT if I work hard then there will be nothing to be ashamed of!
SO my plan?
Get in shape by February perhaps get into a size 4 (i'm a sz 8)
Start eating healthier
Go to my running classes (3x a week= about 4 miles of running)
Go to my personal trainer
And get the support I need.
Today I have a running class...im still sore from tuesday ><
oi and I added some pictures of me...so yall can get an idea of what I look like
SO really, this is me. Plain and simple.
I am from south Louisiana and here we celebrate Fat Tuesday (mardi gras) and for me that also means Fat monday wednesday thursday and friday. Yea, I've never been obese, or morbidly overweight. I've teetered the lines between average and chubby.
Of course it hadn't always been that way, I was once a healthy "cute" 120lbs. I was happy with that, I was about 17 years old and meeting new people left and right and my family always called me the "pretty one"...AND while I could get into detail about the psychological damage my family has instilled upon me, i'm not going to get into it.
Why?
Because this time, my weight loss is for me and only me.
(but lets just say I'm hispanic so i naturally have big hips, and i've inherited my dads side of the families width ><)
I weigh about 143.8 lbs in the morning and 145 lbs at night. So I'm going to stick with 145.
I am 5'4" and 21 years old. I really want to lose 30 lbs, but in retrospect that would be off. I've never been one to fret over the numbers, it's always "can I wear the belly shirt?"
The answer to that one is "NO!"....I'm a jiggly catepillar and my self-esteem is very low. My boyfriend is supportive he always tells me that i'm gorgeous and that he doesn't want me to lose weight because he loves me the way I am.
Heres the thing though, I don't love me the way I am.
So recently it was brought to my attention that this game/anime convention in vegas is looking for gamer girl models. It's been my DREAM to be a model, but i'm too short and too jiggly. BUT they said height doesn't matter you need to know about anime and games, which are two of my favorite things and consequently two things that led me to being overweight (sitting around all day on the computer or watcing anime isn't very good for excercise)
Anyway that is my goal. To audition with my new body and make it. While I know I may not make it for causes like not being pretty enough. I want to show everyone that I can be a booth babe, I can be one of those girls that can show off the merch. I can be an e3 girl even! Really, no one believes i have the nerve to wear a belly shirt. BUT if I work hard then there will be nothing to be ashamed of!
SO my plan?
Get in shape by February perhaps get into a size 4 (i'm a sz 8)
Start eating healthier
Go to my running classes (3x a week= about 4 miles of running)
Go to my personal trainer
And get the support I need.
Today I have a running class...im still sore from tuesday ><
oi and I added some pictures of me...so yall can get an idea of what I look like
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