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Hi there,

I'm Anna, I'm a 22 year old Maths student. I'm 177cm tall, and currently weigh a delightful 89kg. It's probably the heaviest I've ever been, and utterly depressing. In my teens I was always around 73kg, then during my gap year I exercised and ate healthy and dropped down to 63kg, I managed a complete lifestyle overhaul, I was massively proud of myself.


Sadly, when I started Uni, I stopped eating healthily although I was so stressed I managed to lose another 5kg without even trying. When life got a bit more settled down, I'd lost all my good eating and exercising habits and weight started to pile on. I'd reached my original weight when my doctor diagnosed me with depression, a year later I'm coming off anti-depressants and am feeling so much better than I was. Unfortunately, anti-depressants make you HUNGRY, I spent the last year permanently famished leading to ridiculous weight gain. I'm finding it really hard to get the motivation to get back on the horse and try and get back into it, I've had a few false starts over the last few months but I always find myself getting distracted and falling out of the habit again.

So, to sum up, I'm here hoping that maybe trying it again without going completely solo might help and I may actually manage to slowly work my way back down to a healthy weight and a fitter lifestyle (panting as you go up the stairs anyone?)


x Anna
 
Welcome! If you ever need to go back on anti depressents ask your doctor for one that dosent cause weight gain! They are some out there! I also had been on anti depressents and had to voice my concerns to my Doc. if you did it once, you can do it again! I hope you enjoy the forum, theres a great bunch of suportive motivational people on here.
 
Hi dlove88, thanks for your message :) I did talk to my doctor but he was fairly useless, when I told him how much weight I'd put on, he pulled out a set of scales, and confirmed that I actually had done (Well yes, I did just tell you this, well done.) and left it at that.

In the mean time, while I was hoping trying to start a diary would be the push to force myself back into calorie counting, that didn't go quite so well. Easter, in combination with some extremely grumpy old people, was both motivation to eat a load of chocolate and to drink lots of wine.

I've been trying to get back into the habit of logging what I eat (think this was the most effective thing I did last time) although I haven't really started cutting down yet, trying to reduce rather than just starve myself straight off. My major plan for the time being is to get out of the habit of alcohol drinking and, once term goes back next week get back to the gym. My boyfriend, the half-marathon runner, has offered to take me running with him, but the last time I tried this I ended up rather red and having a little bit of a tantrum, so thinking this might not be the best of plans.


People who are 6 foot 4, think a casual 10km run isn't even worth getting out of breath for and have been known to eat 5 plates of dinner in one sitting do just make me sick.


Weight: 89.9kg (bad Easter bunny...)
Exercise today: 1 hour walk, involving one steep hill which I gasped my way up while the dog sat at the top watching me smugly..
 
Good job so far! You dont need to starve yourself, just choose fruit and veggies over other things, little changes like as far as chocolate goes, im s chocoholic! omg...love it. but instead of depriving myself and not eating chocolate ill eat a peice of a nice dark chocolate. and chips, i loooove chips, i cut a tortilla, bake it till crispy and eat it with salsa......there is lots of good recipes with lower calories and ways to choose better for you foods, you just have to ease into it and not change everything at once. orking out is the same, you cant wake up one morning and go for a 10km run. you start with 1 km, then work your way to 10, or a walk/jog/walk/jog. anyways keep up the good work!
 
You need to be more blunt with your doctor, tell him flat out to change your meds to something that wont make you gain (i relly dislike cocky docs!) and the alcohol. i use to LOVE fruity wine and coolers, iv switched to spiced rum and diet pepsi, the alcohol slowers your metabolism BUT with a hard liquer and a diet pop you dont get the extra calories.
 
Well given that I'm coming off them now, only taking one every other day and coming down to one every third day soon. So it doesn't seem worth the fuss of trying to change them now. But definitely don't want to be on this kind again!

The wine issue is a sad one, thanks for the diet pepsi & spirits tip, will try to stick with this. Although I do love wine :(


Went for a bike ride today, I swear my legs are actually made of jelly!

Food: Crackers for breakfast, cup-soup, an apple and a spoon of peanut butter for lunch (peanut butter and apple is possibly the best combination ever) and ravioli for dinner.
 
AWhat is it with evenings? I was so good during the day, healthy choices all round ate around 900 calories before dinner (aiming for 1200-1500 per day, depending on exercise), then come the evening I just want to eat EVERYTHING, home made curry for dinner but had far too much naan, then biscuits and then my sister breaks out the chocolate :(
 
Eat a peice of chocolate, or 2! then quit at 2, savour the chocolate! love it feel it! lol, but seriously. are you getting enough fiber to fill you up? I also have a hard time with evening, maybe have a cheat day and look forward to your junk on that day?
 
Much better today. 1680 calories eaten today, still a little bit higher than I'd like but way better than yesterday's 2300!

Breakfast - bowl of strawberries, glass of milk and two digestive biscuits
Lunch - Chicken Jalfrezi with walnut bread + a handful of grapes
Dinner - Duck pancakes with cucumber and spring onions (this was at a pub, so quite proud of myself for avoiding the massive plate of scampi and chips I could have had!)

Evening snack - two chocolate chip cookies and some milk (not ideal, but hopefully getting there)


I think a cheat day would just encourage me to fall out of the habit of healthy eating, I've always found that one day off exercising is enough to make it easy to quit altogether and I think I'm a little like that with food also.

No exercise today, but it's pouring down with rain and arctic, so I couldn't really face it. I did however buy three new pairs of exercise shorts so I now no longer have the "I only have one pair of lycra shorts and they're in the wash, so I can't go to the gym" excuse.
 
A1315 calories today, currently busy fighting the temptation to snack on biscuits.

Breakfast - dried apricots
Lunch - chicken soup
Snack - 2 plums and walnut bread
Dinner - bacon and asparagus pasta

Exercise - 20 minute brisk walk, it's pouring!

Weight - 89.3kg
 
Back at uni and trying to memorise a massive list of maths formulae for Monday. Got to love exams.. Not.

Didn't get a chance to write yesterday, but weight was 89.1kg (didn't get a chance to weigh myself today).
Breakfast - 2 digestive biscuits

Snack - 3 crackers

Lunch - baked potato with chilli

Dinner - small portion of scampi and chips and a glass of red wine (friend's birthday required a trip to the pub)


Ended up at around 1400 calories.

Today:
Breakfast - small slice of apple birthday cake
Lunch - caesar salad
Snack - japanese rice crackers and white chocolate from my housemate
Dinner - vegetarian curry and rice cooked by my lovely boyfriend


1393 calories altogether
 
A1700 calories. Weight 89.2kg

Breakfast - special k with milk
Lunch - curry with one small naan
Afternoon snack - pistachio nuts and raisins
Dinner - Ceasar salad and cup soup
Evening snack - garlic bread :(
 
Have been really busy for the last week, did manage to get three trips to the gym this week, including one this morning which involved walking there (half hour walk) in the pouring rain because the bus didn't show up -.-.

Have been doing 10km on an exercise bike and 3km on the treadmill so far, which means running 500m then walking 500m three times, then collapsing in a heap.


Doing really well eating during the day but my evenings still tend to be full of bad foods, my skinny housemates don't really help as watching them eat whatever they like makes it so much harder to be careful about what I'm eating.


Weight stoically stuck at 90kg.
 
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