So for the last few weeks I've been looking in the mirror and everyday I hate what I see more and more. I'm getting fat and it's gross. I gave birth 4 months ago to my 3rd child, then 3 months later (6 weeks ago) I quit smoking. I eat all the wrong stuff but it tastes SOOOO good now that I'm smoke-free and I almost can't help myself. I have no cravings for cigarettes so it's not a "craving" thing. Food in general just tastes awesome! And I also find I'm sooo much hungrier than I used to be. I've always had eating problems, I was anorexia for years when I was a teenager and since then I've never had a big appetite. I eat roughly 2 meals a day (Breakfast sometimes, and dinner) - and then I snack all day long on unhealthy stuff (ie. Chips, Cheese, Pudding, Jello, Pizza, Coke, Coffee, Cookies, etc). Like I said, it all just tastes soo good.
Anyways, since I quit smoking I'm not sleeping well either. I get hungry anywhere between 10pm and midnight and I just NEED to eat. Then I'm wired and can't sleep, or when I do sleep it's not a good sleep.
My husband is a big health nut (funny enough) - he exercises everyday, he eats really healthy and he wants me to do the same. I'm game... but then I have no motivation to exercise, and I cant do it with my husband because he exercises at work on his lunch break (with another woman no less!!). I could easily eat better if my husband would stop buying the junk food - but because I ask him to, he does it - so really I just have to stop asking him. Done!
I dont understand a thing about counting carbs, and when it comes to food I'm very picky. I love my fruits and vegetables, but I can't eat anything "whole wheat" or "whole grain" - I kidd you not, it actually makes me sick. I love my meats and because of my hubby I'm slowly beginning to enjoy fish as well. I hate drinking plain old water (unless it's a really hot day). However, I used to drink like 20 cups of tea a day (ya, sickening right?) but I've cut back to 1 tea a day. For about 10 years I didn't drink anything caffeinated, but since getting pregnant with my last son, I've been drinking roughly a bottle of coke in a week (he's only 4 months old).
I live in small town and well .... I don't really know anyone around here who'd be willing to exercise with me. I'm thinking an online partner to share goals with and whatnot ... that might help.
Oh and did I mention that I'm a stay-at-home mom with both my 4 month old and my 2 year old home with me all day long. My oldest son is in school between 8am and 2pm - so I'm not left with very much free time to exercise. My husband suggest I do it in the mornings before he leaves for work (that way if the kids wake up he can take care of them) - but then that requires me getting up at 4:30am every morning (I can't do that! Hell I have trouble getting ujp at 6:30am as it is!). And doing it at night is out of the question because I'm so exhausted by 8pm - my boys take a lot of energy out of me. There is the afternoon when my 2 year old takes his nap, but lately when my 2 year old is napping, my 4 month old is up and raring to go! Ugh!! I don't know what to do! I need "me" time in order to get a good, decent workout everyday and I NEVER have that "me" time.
Anyways, so here I am... feeling fat, and gross, and totally sorry for myself. My husband says I make too many excuses and that there really is nothing stopping me. Maybe he's right. But how do I get motivated? How do I stay motivated? How do I work around my kids schedules? And how do I stop eating these foods that are sooo yummy now? These food "cravings" that gnaw at me until I satisfy them. It's horrible!!
I think what scares me most is that my mother was uber thin when she was young. After she had her kids (myself and my older brother) she ballooned to over 200 lbs and struggled with that until the day she died. I don't want to be like that - and I always said I would never ever be that big or be like her (in that respect) .... but the rate I'm going... I'm on that path.
I need help... I need motivation... and I need a plan.
Anyways, since I quit smoking I'm not sleeping well either. I get hungry anywhere between 10pm and midnight and I just NEED to eat. Then I'm wired and can't sleep, or when I do sleep it's not a good sleep.
My husband is a big health nut (funny enough) - he exercises everyday, he eats really healthy and he wants me to do the same. I'm game... but then I have no motivation to exercise, and I cant do it with my husband because he exercises at work on his lunch break (with another woman no less!!). I could easily eat better if my husband would stop buying the junk food - but because I ask him to, he does it - so really I just have to stop asking him. Done!
I dont understand a thing about counting carbs, and when it comes to food I'm very picky. I love my fruits and vegetables, but I can't eat anything "whole wheat" or "whole grain" - I kidd you not, it actually makes me sick. I love my meats and because of my hubby I'm slowly beginning to enjoy fish as well. I hate drinking plain old water (unless it's a really hot day). However, I used to drink like 20 cups of tea a day (ya, sickening right?) but I've cut back to 1 tea a day. For about 10 years I didn't drink anything caffeinated, but since getting pregnant with my last son, I've been drinking roughly a bottle of coke in a week (he's only 4 months old).
I live in small town and well .... I don't really know anyone around here who'd be willing to exercise with me. I'm thinking an online partner to share goals with and whatnot ... that might help.
Oh and did I mention that I'm a stay-at-home mom with both my 4 month old and my 2 year old home with me all day long. My oldest son is in school between 8am and 2pm - so I'm not left with very much free time to exercise. My husband suggest I do it in the mornings before he leaves for work (that way if the kids wake up he can take care of them) - but then that requires me getting up at 4:30am every morning (I can't do that! Hell I have trouble getting ujp at 6:30am as it is!). And doing it at night is out of the question because I'm so exhausted by 8pm - my boys take a lot of energy out of me. There is the afternoon when my 2 year old takes his nap, but lately when my 2 year old is napping, my 4 month old is up and raring to go! Ugh!! I don't know what to do! I need "me" time in order to get a good, decent workout everyday and I NEVER have that "me" time.
Anyways, so here I am... feeling fat, and gross, and totally sorry for myself. My husband says I make too many excuses and that there really is nothing stopping me. Maybe he's right. But how do I get motivated? How do I stay motivated? How do I work around my kids schedules? And how do I stop eating these foods that are sooo yummy now? These food "cravings" that gnaw at me until I satisfy them. It's horrible!!
I think what scares me most is that my mother was uber thin when she was young. After she had her kids (myself and my older brother) she ballooned to over 200 lbs and struggled with that until the day she died. I don't want to be like that - and I always said I would never ever be that big or be like her (in that respect) .... but the rate I'm going... I'm on that path.
I need help... I need motivation... and I need a plan.