Diary of MNexercisegirl

[mnexercisegirl]

So hang on there and do what it takes. There'll be this gal struggling along with ya! Oh i heard about spinning classes burning calories like crazy. Boy was I amazed but I never had the courage to step into one. hahah. To do one such class at 7am deserves respect. I think I'll be sleeping on the bus to work at that time.

I love my spinning class because it IS a STRUGGLE and a a CHALLANGE! without it, I'm a wimp when it comes to pushing myself. I'm still getting into the groove of getting up early enough to make a 6am class. So far so go. I'm hoping I don't jynx myself!

So get your fighting spirit up and do better what you've done before! Did I tell you your av remind me of Michelle Yeoh the actress before? Yes u r beautiful in that pic so stop being Michelle Yo-yo!

Trust me, I do not look like Michelle Yeoh at all! but thank you so much for the kind words, you're so awesome!

Today
I got in another am spinning class and couldn't get my HR up for the life of me. I think it got to 153 max, but I sure was breathing hard. I didn't sweat as much, but I think it's because the fan was at my back.

I brought my own lunch today and I'm really trying to get better at losing these last 20 or so pounds. I know that I can do it, I just have to keep doing it. I am also realizing that it's my eating habits that need a lot of work. I can exercise and pick up running whenever I want, but eating healthy and really changing my thinking needs a lot more work. I don't want to be the person that is "dieting" or "watching what they eat". Seems like that person never has any fun and kinda makes others uncomfortable. I want to be able to watch what I eat without people noticing because I hate bringing attention to myself, especially with something like that.

I love this forum for the support and stories that I've read. Seeing the struggles helps keep things real and seeing the successes gives me so much hope that I can get there also.

 

[mnexercisegirl]

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So much better. For the past week, I've been trying to clean up my diet and staying consistent with my workouts and I feel great . I feel lighter and not so bloated . My eating isn't totally clean, but it's way better than it was about 2 weeks ago. Funny. I know what it takes to get here but I start to sabotage everything when it gets great.

So many things to change...

 

[mnexercisegirl]

Long time no update

So now that volleyball season is over, I'm ready to tackle these 20 or so pounds, again. I haven't gained or lost. It's been a rollercoaster with 3-4 pounds, but it's fine. I'm seeing the variations because I'm not being consistent with eating and working out.

Since the last time I wrote, I've been trying to get in my spinning classes in the mornings and I've been good with about 3-4 times a week. The past 2 weeks since the July 4th holiday, I'm finding myself eating horrible. I've got vacation in about a day, and then Lasik surgery in a couple of weeks. Work has been crazy which makes my day go by faster but my eating habits even worse. More reason for me to take control now.

I've been reading cym's entries and I'm jealous of the fact that she has so much control. I want to be where she is, mentally. I know she struggles just as I do, but it's that change in mindset that I wish I had - right now, this instant. But that would be unfair if I wished something like that. I have to work as hard, and trudge through my own journey to find my way.

My struggle with food. Why couldn't it be a struggle with exercise and me having my nutrition in check?

 

[cym]

I've been reading cym's entries and I'm jealous of the fact that she has so much control. I want to be where she is, mentally. I know she struggles just as I do, but it's that change in mindset that I wish I had - right now, this instant. But that would be unfair if I wished something like that. I have to work as hard, and trudge through my own journey to find my way.

My struggle with food. Why couldn't it be a struggle with exercise and me having my nutrition in check?

Believe it or not I was just wondering how you were doing!!!! If it's any consolation, I have struggled every bit as much as you with getting my food on point. Like you, it's not been the exercise, 'cause we both love what we do and somehow it's easy to do it when you enjoy it...but the food, oh gosh the food!

But, unlike you I'm single, childless, have super flexible work hours and therefore have had what I know is the luxury to make getting my nutrition straightened out a priority....I literally sat myself down in 2006 and decided that my fitness/nutrition was going to be a number one priority until I was where I thought I needed to be. You have a husband and kids.....I have a fat, lazy cat and a bf who travels 2-3 weeks out of the month. And, even with that, it has been a long, hard, hit-my-head-against-the-wall battle more days than not.

My food journal only reflects the last 5 1/2 months or so of a very long, uphill climb....you are already light years ahead of where I was in the early days.

 

[mnexercisegirl]

it has been a long, hard, hit-my-head-against-the-wall battle more days than not.

Thanks cym! those words are the exact words that describe my struggle. Even with all your encouragement, I still wish I was where you're at and I know eventually I will - most likely when the rugrats turn 18 or learn how to cook themselves.

Today I'm in Houston visiting the inlaws until Saturday. This past Satruday I got in some weights after about a month and my mucles are sore. Talk about DOMS! Today I was hoping that it would rain alittle in the morning so I could get a run in outside. The weather here is so incredibly humid that stepping my foot outside for just even a second makes me want to go back inside and drink a gallon of water.

My food yesterday was very bad. I had a pound of shrimp for lunch and total crap for most of the day . When I estimated what I ate in Fitday, it came to about 2500 or so. Houston food is crazy good but so have to try and get some veggies in today.