Sellyra
New member
A LITTLE BIT OF HISTORY: I'm 20 years old and have always been a little thicker than girls my age. It was never really that bad until recently. My stress levels at home (my mother has borderline personality disorder and I was getting ready to leave for college, was being presented with the "popular" girls at a debutant ball, as well as dealing with my first real boyfriend) had increased to the point that my hair was falling out, I was having panic attacks and I couldn't eat food because my body wasn't getting rid of it! Despite not being able to keep anything down, I was gaining weight quickly. After a trip to the doctor and an over the counter medication, I was able to fix the latter problem. I went to college and gained the freshman 15. It wasn't until I got out from under my mother's thumb in February of 2007 that I got my energy back and began losing weight! I was eating healthier, loving it. Then it set in that I had never had a job, had no income, no family and would be homeless at semester's end. I began cutting classes, looking for work and eating much more unhealthy. I gained back the 20lbs I'd lost in February and fell into a depression. I managed to pull myself out of it, and found a home with my estranged father and his girlfriend. Unfortunately his girlfriend suffered from manic depression and had a daughter that was seriously ill and used to getting all of my dad's attention. I began working out and eating healthier with encouragement from my dad. I'd just begun to make progress when his girlfriend got upset with me for working night shifts and sleeping during the day and kicked me out of her home while my dad was away on business. I stayed for 2 weeks in the hotel that I worked at before relocating to my dad's work apartment 200 miles from my home town. He attempted to get me to move back in with his girlfriend and I declined, moving in with my friend's family instead. The only food they kept in the house was frozen and microwavable, and the only other option I had was to eat out. I managed to maintain my weight by waitressing and having that constant excersize. Now I've moved 30 miles north of my home town in an apartment by myself (my roomate is in iraq) and I eat almost constantly. U used to be a waitress and it was easy to maintain my weight, but nowI'm no longer on my feet all day and it's starting to take it's toll! I've gained 25lbs in a month! I'm having issues with my body getting rid of waste again, but my apetite hasn't decreased like last time.
NEW PLAN: I've discovered that I need to have something to keep my hands and mouth busy and to have flavor in my mouth! I found something at quitsmoking.com that is like a cigarette, but instead of tobacco and nicotine, there's a flavor filled cartridge that keeps you occupied! I'm also about to order the Colonix detox system and Hip-Hop Abs (I just love to dance) as well as cleaning out my refrigerator and investing in salmon, milk and salad! I'll keep the weight watcher ice cream bars as a treat. I live near a lake and I just got a bike, so that will be a great asset as well! So, I'm reducing idle intake, cleaning out my system, infusing vitimins into my diet, and getting great excersize!
NEW PLAN: I've discovered that I need to have something to keep my hands and mouth busy and to have flavor in my mouth! I found something at quitsmoking.com that is like a cigarette, but instead of tobacco and nicotine, there's a flavor filled cartridge that keeps you occupied! I'm also about to order the Colonix detox system and Hip-Hop Abs (I just love to dance) as well as cleaning out my refrigerator and investing in salmon, milk and salad! I'll keep the weight watcher ice cream bars as a treat. I live near a lake and I just got a bike, so that will be a great asset as well! So, I'm reducing idle intake, cleaning out my system, infusing vitimins into my diet, and getting great excersize!