Diaries of the hottest fat chick in the world!!

sublime71137

sublime71137

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Where to start? I'm on the right track, but how did I get this way? Well, theres tons of excuses, but only one real reason. I ate too much. I let myself go. Blah blah blah!!! I'll start 5 yrs ago. I met my husband. I already had 2 kids. I was 26, almost 27, he was 20. I had a hot body, not perfect mind you, but nice. I was confident, had a good job, didn't make excuses for anything in life. Very neat and clean, took good care of myself. Between then and now I became a person I didn't like. We decided when I got pregnant I would stay at home. I got really fat when I was pregnant. I stopped keeping house well. I lost my confidence. Things kept coming up in life that I thought at the time were good reasons to overlook what I needed to do for myself. At the time of each event I felt I was too stressed to worry about weight loss or health. Oh boy what a mistake. For a long time I tried to convince myself I was supposed to be fat. I was just born to be so why fight it? Plenty of other fat people seemed ok with their lives. It just wasn't me. I could never get to that point where I just didn't care anymore. So slowly things started changing. I've realized I'm not such a great housewife. I need a little more. Selfish, maybe, but true. I tried tons of different diets but nothing seemed to fit. I lost weight but was miserable with the "rules" and gave up. Finally I combined everything I learned into how I eat now. And it doesn't feel like a diet. I'm eating whats good for me and I like it. Plus, I'd like to keep that hot young husband of mine around a while. I know he appreciates my efforts also. He has not complained ONCE in 5 years about my fat ass, my sloppy housework, etc... This change in me is long overdue for him also, I'm sure. So, here we go!!
 
Welcome!

I find that if I break my "big goal" into smaller pieces and then focus on the smaller ones, I don't get overwhelmed and lose motivation. I celebrate each small one! Best wishes for meeting all of yours!
 
Thanks for visiting me everybody!! Things are still going great. I've lost 2 more lbs, and I have some awsome news on the new career front. A couple days I e-mailed a man who is one of 4 partners in one of the top real estate agencies in this area. He knows my in-laws from church and remembers me. I asked for a meeting so he give me some advice on how to make it in the real estate market, and what I can do in the mean time to prepare. I really didn't know if he would even e-mail me back, but he did yesterday and set up a meeting for Friday!! He also mentioned the possibility of an assistant job while I'm in school, then becoming an agent for his agency!!! So totally unexpected and I'm so excited. Being at home and out of the work force for 5 years really made me wonder if I could do it again, like maybe I lost my touch or something. Well, maybe I haven't!!:jump: Be back soon, later babes!!
 
Glad to hear things are going well.

I really liked your intro post up there! :)

It's easy to get caught up in a downward spiral. I have a lot of respect for someone who can pull themselves out of it. Sometimes it takes some tough realizations, but well worth the effort and change.

I have no doubt you will do well on this journey.
 
Well thanks Steve, I really appreciate that!! You know whats sad? Most of my friends I haven't known a long time. I started a Moms group recently and it really took off, but I find I have less and less in common with them. I'm taking my weight loss seriously and I don't think they really appreciate the fact that I'm doing well. In fact I think it really kind of irks them. Then theres the school and going back to work. Most of their husbands make lots of money, so they don't have to really worry about it. And it seems being a housewife is enough for them, which is great, but they kind of dismiss it when I talk about my plans for work. Like its not worth talking about and they really don't care. Maybe even to the point where they don't think I'll be as good at it as I KNOW I will. I just know shortly they won't be in my life much anymore, which makes me sad in a way. I guess if they were really friends they wouldn't be acting that way in the first place though. Whatever dude.:confused:
 
I'm a bit frustrated today. Not so much with myself, other people. I'm also frustrated because money is SO tight right now. I know things will change by the end of the year, but that doesn't always help my attitude right now. My energy level has been down the last day or so, but I've still been doing everything I'm supposed to do as far as staying healthy and losing weight. But I refuse to by junk for my family, so not even halfway through the week pickings get slim for everybody. Thursday is the worst. Anyway, enough crap. I'm doing fine, nobodys starving, whatever. Maybe a short nap and a shower will pick me up. I can't really talk to my "friends" about this stuff. They just aren't in the same place as me. Or I'm not in the same place as them. Something. Am I doing the right thing?
 
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