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Bad day for eating. Ate mindlessly, on the run, standing up, without tasting, in a daze ... definite binge type behavior. Feeling mentally very unstable, lots of self doubt, lots of anger and frustration, lots of anxiety. Exercised about 20 minutes this morning - pretty poor for someone who used to do an hour a day, 6 days a week. I'm just so sick of it. I've been exercising one way or another for twenty years. The only thing I really enjoy is walking, but it isn't really going to help me lose weight if I don't put in a good hour and a half and who has that kind of time???? I keep thinking about joining a gym so I could get a harder workout than I get at home, but I don't want to take time out of the middle of the day. With the kids, it works best for me to get it done before I have to start getting them up and out to school. I'm also really frustrated about how little I can eat just to keep from going up any more. I know that's partly age, but I think a lot has to do with my stupid medications slowing down my metabolism. I want to scream every time I see a food pyramid. If I ate all those servings, I would look like a beached whale.

Overall summary of the day - not in a good frame of mind!
 
Sounds like you had a sucky day....sorry about that! But don't give up, it'll work out somehow---and hey...30 minutes a day is a heck of a lot better for you than none right? So take what you can get now and maybe soon you'll be able to get things back to the way you want them. :)
 
Hey, I replied to you in the 20lbs. or under thread. Sorry you're having a bad day. You say you are in a bad frame of mind... is this something that you believe will change overnight, such as a bad mood or is it something more? Either way you've come to the right place. In my experience the people on here supporting you, me for example, will help you love yourself before you lose the weight and then you will feel good enough to really set aside the binge eating and everything and meet your goal. It will really help us cheer you on if we know things such as your starting and goal weight and what you are trying to do to lose weight. Of course if you don't want to let us know that is perfectly understandable. As for the exercise, perhaps if you joined a gym with free child care?
 
No breakfast - went back to bed instead. Slept badly & just don't feel like dealing with life

Turkey, gravy, fake potatoes, squash, couple bites of ice cream - had lunch with the twins at school for parent/student lunch day. Disgusting food and didn't want it, but had to eat to appear normal

Homemade trail mix - nibbling mindlessly & without tasting

Supper - omelette & broccolini

Overall, eating when not even hungry, not tasting food, zoning out when I eat, not sitting down & focusing on eating. Typical binge behaviors, although quantity wasn't probably that bad.

Also just ate 10 licorice rabbits.

Gained a pound from yesterday, so now I need to lose 6 pounds.

I stumbled onto a nutritionist/lifestyle coach who happens to live about 2 miles from me in my town. I met her working at Whole Foods when I was seeking advice about some supplements. I really want to set up an appointment, but it's very expensive. The initial consultation is free, so I think I'll go to that and just try to have faith that if it's the right thing to do, it will work out somehow.
 
Ok big *****KICK IN THE BUTT************ you have to pull yourself out of this depression first of all and get moving and get your mind set on this! You can and will do this! You have to want it bad enough and nothing will stand in your way! I know you have it in you and I know its hard BUT little steps will lead you there! You chose your first step becoming a part of this family! So get out of the bed in the morn! I will be in to check on you!
 
Ok gilr lets do it because its a new day and you CAN!!!! We need a plan for you and to get you going! Put down goals you want and what excercise is available to you and how you want to change your eating and habits!
 
Come on girl lets do this please come back in here and let us help!
 
We all have bad days now and then!!! So it is with changing our eating habits.
You at least recognize the binge eating, and eating when you aren't even hungry. Give yourself credit for that!!! We've all been through frustrating times doing this, you can do this!!!
 
C'mon, you sound like you have the drive, I mean, exercising and all, I don't even do that!!! I wish you were happy though, you have at least 5 people here that are chearing you on and care enough to comment, pull yourself out of this slump and make us proud. I am eagerly awaiting GREAT news!!!
 
hi there, nice to meet you! I was just wondering: what kind of meds are you on, if it's not too personal? Reason I ask is b/c I used to be on anti-depressants, but they made me gain so much weight (50+ lbs) that it totally defeated the purpose cos then I got really depressed over gaining tons of weight. Perhaps you could try asking your Doc if you can switch meds?

x
Monica
 
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