Dear Diary...I am scared

Florence

Florence

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So I am new to this. Not new to wanting to lose weight...we are old friends, but new to owning up to it.

I have realised that I am very very scared about losing weight. It is my protection, my way of being ignored, my way of blending in. The problem is what used to be a useful tool (being over weight) is now a sting, a hindrance in my life. I have back away from life too much.

I was wrong. I don't get ignored, I just get a different look, I don't blend it, I stand out even more quite literally and what I thought was protection has brought more pain than when I was slim.

so, now I have to reteach myself how to get used to being slim again.

The only reason why I have decided to own up to this journey is because I read some good advice last night. If I am afraid of being slim and exposed to the outside world just dress in baggy clothes until I begin to feel comfortable again. This is something I can do and achieve very easily.

So...my name is Florence and I am overweight. I weigh 108.8kg and my goal is 58kg.
Here's to taking life by the hands even if I feel terrified to do so.
 
Hello Florence. Don't be terrified. I have been in the same place as you. I used to think that my size made me safe from being noticed. I totally understand what you are saying. I'm glad you have made the decision to take life in your hands. I was once 111kg. It still shocks me that I was once that size. I no longer hide behind it & am much more confident than I have ever been in my life. You can do it honey. You will get support here in the forum. We are a non-judgemental, safe place. Welcome to the forum! Cheers, Cate.
 
Thank you for the encouragement Cate. The feelings are pretty tough aren't they. Now I just feel angry. I have a feeling it will be a big roller coaster for a while. :)
 
Hi Florence and welcome to the forum! I´ve been stuck (after losing 10 kg) for quite a while now and I now full well it´s because I told myself I´d have to start dating again if I reached my next goal... Talk about self-sabotage! So yeah, I get where you´re coming from. We can do this, though :grouphug:
 
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