DeadRat
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I've never joined a forum before and don't really know what to expect will come from this but i'll try to be optimistic. To start I am 5'8 and weigh 208 pounds I'm also 21 years old. I'm a lot like a cave troll I spend an unhealthy amount of time in my room and don't ever really leave it except for work or going out with my friends which I'll skip out on a lot. Aside from being a hermit I have a really healthy social life but a lot of demons that stem from being self conscious about my weight although i'm very good at hiding it. I haven't ever really worked out before and I hardly do anything that makes me psychically tired so as you can imagine I look like a blob.
So what's changing? Why am I on this forum? Honestly I've been spoiled for most of my life. A big problem with my weight is my mother and I love her but she feeds my horrible habits and just wants me to be happy. I have a horrible habit of drinking soda like it's water I go through about 10-11 cans a day. And I eat sweets/fatty foods like it's nothing. I've been to the hospital for kidney stones and have been put on morphine twice for the pain but still to this day drink a ton of soda and of course my mother will TELL me to stop drinking it but still buy 5 packs and not drink them. Even though I can reflect on this and acknowledge it's bad for me I still drink/eat myself into a hole and have only myself to blame. Another factor could be lack of support I have never spoken to someone about my weight and no one has ever stepped up and offered to help me lose weight or even tell me to lose weight. I have 4 best friends that are my ride or die boys and we hangout a ton even though we're really close I feel uncomfortable talking about my weight issues with them even though I know they'd probably care. It just seems out of place to me. That's why I've come to this forum because I believe most of the people here understand how I feel. ALSO the big change is that i'm moving out from my home and away from temptation. This is my first time being independent and I think buying my own groceries and being by myself it'll be a lot easier to change my diet and commit to working out.
What's my goal? What am I planning to do? I'm moving out in about a week so I'm planning on starting a diet I'm not exactly sure what diet yet. It'll have to be geared towards building muscle since I'm not trying to become thin I am more so trying to lose weight & gain muscle. My dream goal is to end up big like Conan the Barbarian but that's a pretty big feat I know. Realistically I just want to lose 10-20 pounds in two months and get into a routine and see how I feel about it and go from there.
I'm not sure what else to write about still new to this whole thing. I'll be attaching some pictures of what my body looks like not sure if I'm allowed to or not VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED!
So what's changing? Why am I on this forum? Honestly I've been spoiled for most of my life. A big problem with my weight is my mother and I love her but she feeds my horrible habits and just wants me to be happy. I have a horrible habit of drinking soda like it's water I go through about 10-11 cans a day. And I eat sweets/fatty foods like it's nothing. I've been to the hospital for kidney stones and have been put on morphine twice for the pain but still to this day drink a ton of soda and of course my mother will TELL me to stop drinking it but still buy 5 packs and not drink them. Even though I can reflect on this and acknowledge it's bad for me I still drink/eat myself into a hole and have only myself to blame. Another factor could be lack of support I have never spoken to someone about my weight and no one has ever stepped up and offered to help me lose weight or even tell me to lose weight. I have 4 best friends that are my ride or die boys and we hangout a ton even though we're really close I feel uncomfortable talking about my weight issues with them even though I know they'd probably care. It just seems out of place to me. That's why I've come to this forum because I believe most of the people here understand how I feel. ALSO the big change is that i'm moving out from my home and away from temptation. This is my first time being independent and I think buying my own groceries and being by myself it'll be a lot easier to change my diet and commit to working out.
What's my goal? What am I planning to do? I'm moving out in about a week so I'm planning on starting a diet I'm not exactly sure what diet yet. It'll have to be geared towards building muscle since I'm not trying to become thin I am more so trying to lose weight & gain muscle. My dream goal is to end up big like Conan the Barbarian but that's a pretty big feat I know. Realistically I just want to lose 10-20 pounds in two months and get into a routine and see how I feel about it and go from there.
I'm not sure what else to write about still new to this whole thing. I'll be attaching some pictures of what my body looks like not sure if I'm allowed to or not VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED!
