Darcie's diary to happiness

maleficent said:
you've lost the pounds before -you'll doo it again... don't get down on yourself...

Do ask yourself what caused the pounds to come back- was your initial plan too restrictive and too tough to keep to?

remember to go one step at atime.. one day at a time and you will get there...
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Oh I know what brought the pounds back. It was the lovely Thanksgiving dinner my mom cooked. It was the home baked cookies my neighbors brought me. It is all the home baked stuff me and the kids are making right now to give to all the neighbors. It is the comfort food I have been cooking to go with the cold weather. It is the lack of motivation to get off my butt and exercise instead of curling up with the warm blanket and book.

I know where it came from and I kow it is my fault it came back but knowing this doesn't make it any easier.

I guess I just need the motivation to get up and move and eat right again.
 
Tomorrow begins a new year and a new outlook for me on my weight. Last year at my work we did a "biggest loser" challenge and I loved having the support. Thankfully we have decided to do it again this year. I am actually looking forward to the challenges and the meetings and having coworkers nudging me to exercise. I have been put in charge of coming up with some team callenges so I hope I can find some good ideas online.

I got my new burpees gardening catalog in the mail this weekend and it kinda depressed me after I had spent an hour shoveling to see all the beautiful flowers and veggies. I can't wait to garden! Maybe I will start me some new herbs in my kitchen window to help ease my cravings! That and make the food taste better!

I am really looking forward to the new year but I am not making any resolutions since i never seem to keep them past the first week anyways!
 
So I totally feel like my weight is spinning out of control. It seems like no matter what I eat or don't eat I am still gaining weight back. I have the will power to lose the weight is just is getting the better of me right now.

Yes is makes me depressed. I can't fit into any of the clothes I bought when I finally hit 200. I am back up 2 sizes and I hate the way I feel in my own skin.

I am determined to win this battle against myself! Think positive I tell myself everyday
 
So my motivation went down hill fast and I really could have cared less about my weight other than the fact that none of my clothes fit and I hated the fact that I had to take a box of "fat" clothes and hang them up in my closet again..............then I woke up last week and asked myself......

Self what the heck are you doing????? Get over it!! Get out of bed!! Get that pedometer back on your pants!! Drink that water!! Stay away from that ice cream!! Get it under control woman and now!!

Now as you can imagine I was thinking that myself had some good ideas and I would be foolish not to take her up on them!!

So anyways 8 days later I am down 5 pounds and have let myself take over this motivation thing and I will do it this time!! Guaranteed because I don't like the why myself yells at me!!! :)
 
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