bluewonder
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Ok, so I am 39 and at my highest weight ever, about 150 (I'm 5'4"). I had two kids, but they are now 2 & 3 years of age, so no more excuses/blaming the baby weight. I have been feeling so drained, tired, burnt out, unhealthy, etc, from never putting myself first, but it's not helping me or anyone. I have decided that by the time I am 40 (a little less than a year) I will no longer be in this boat!
The painful things about being at this weight: seeing myself in the mirror and thinking I look like my Mom (my Mom is beautiful, don't get me wrong, but I don't want to have a matronly body!), only owning 2 pairs of pants that are both tight, but not wanting to buy more until I am smaller (and therefore being uncomfortable every day), avoiding sex. Those would be the most painful aspects.
The exciting aspects of getting back down to a weight I'm happy at: putting on my currently-tight pants and having them be too big. I have experienced this in the past with past fitness efforts and it is so amazing - I can't wait to feel that again!! Also: not having to position my underwear 'just so' to minimize my muffin top, not having muffin top at all, feeling rejuvenated, maybe even having ABS, wearing a bikini on the beach with my kids and not feeling like I look bad- but rather, feeling like I look amazing! YEAH, let's do this!!!!!!!
Biggest challenges for me: lack of time. My job is very demanding at the moment and so are kids. But when you get to this point, you just find the time! So I've decided that in order to maximize my success I am going to focus on eating CLEAN as much as possible, eliminating almost all sugar (except natural sugar), eliminating alcohol temporarily (and dealing with my stress by having herbal tea - ugh, I know, but I'm gonna try), getting as much sleep as I can, and when I CAN work out, focusing mostly on weights. My cardio fitness is quite good, considering I haven't worked out much lately. I have maintained my ability to run and not feel killed after, but my body is pure mush, so I am going to focus on weights, yoga, and stretching, because the main thing I find with my body is it hurts and it isn't as flexible as it used to be.
The next thing I am going to do is put my weight chart. I am not going to weigh myself until Monday. I will put new entries in this diary and I welcome your responses, but my actual weight progress will be kept in this one. I will also put 'notes' pertaining to other forms of success, i.e. how I FEEL and how my clothes fit, since we all know it is not just about the number on the scale. I will weigh-in every Monday, which will pressure me not to go too nuts on the weekend.
I will finish by saying my goal is 125 pounds. My pre-pregnancy weight with my second child was 128, so this is totally reasonable, but if I build lots of muscle, maybe I'll weigh more and that's fine.
MONDAY, NOVEMBER 10:
The painful things about being at this weight: seeing myself in the mirror and thinking I look like my Mom (my Mom is beautiful, don't get me wrong, but I don't want to have a matronly body!), only owning 2 pairs of pants that are both tight, but not wanting to buy more until I am smaller (and therefore being uncomfortable every day), avoiding sex. Those would be the most painful aspects.
The exciting aspects of getting back down to a weight I'm happy at: putting on my currently-tight pants and having them be too big. I have experienced this in the past with past fitness efforts and it is so amazing - I can't wait to feel that again!! Also: not having to position my underwear 'just so' to minimize my muffin top, not having muffin top at all, feeling rejuvenated, maybe even having ABS, wearing a bikini on the beach with my kids and not feeling like I look bad- but rather, feeling like I look amazing! YEAH, let's do this!!!!!!!
Biggest challenges for me: lack of time. My job is very demanding at the moment and so are kids. But when you get to this point, you just find the time! So I've decided that in order to maximize my success I am going to focus on eating CLEAN as much as possible, eliminating almost all sugar (except natural sugar), eliminating alcohol temporarily (and dealing with my stress by having herbal tea - ugh, I know, but I'm gonna try), getting as much sleep as I can, and when I CAN work out, focusing mostly on weights. My cardio fitness is quite good, considering I haven't worked out much lately. I have maintained my ability to run and not feel killed after, but my body is pure mush, so I am going to focus on weights, yoga, and stretching, because the main thing I find with my body is it hurts and it isn't as flexible as it used to be.
The next thing I am going to do is put my weight chart. I am not going to weigh myself until Monday. I will put new entries in this diary and I welcome your responses, but my actual weight progress will be kept in this one. I will also put 'notes' pertaining to other forms of success, i.e. how I FEEL and how my clothes fit, since we all know it is not just about the number on the scale. I will weigh-in every Monday, which will pressure me not to go too nuts on the weekend.
I will finish by saying my goal is 125 pounds. My pre-pregnancy weight with my second child was 128, so this is totally reasonable, but if I build lots of muscle, maybe I'll weigh more and that's fine.
MONDAY, NOVEMBER 10:
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