Chinaski
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Entry #1. (Sorry it's a bit long.)
Hello, everyone. My name (at this forum) is Chinaski and as well as this being my first diary entry this is also my first post in this community/forum. So I thought I'd give you all some background information about myself. I'm an almost 26 years old Scandinavian graduate student who loves science, psychology, books, words, TV-series, my friends and family, and pondering things. I'm an introvert, a thinker, a skeptic, an aspiring scientist, an avid reader, a daughter, a sister, a woman, etc. I am also overweight.
I've had a very weird and unhealthy relationship with food since the beginning of high school or so but I didn't start putting on weight until I was 19 (before then my weight was average/normal). Back then I started eating a lot of sweets and crisps to deal with my depression and anxiety and then it sort of spiraled out of control. For the past few years my BMI has been in the obese category. I've tried losing weight for years but it's been really difficult due to some kind of sugar addiction, I guess. I've felt (and still feel) extremely bad about myself because of my weight. It's been so bad that I've refused to wear summer clothes during the summer because I'm too scared of showing people my body and I get really anxious every time I leave the apartment because I think people think bad things about me because of my weight. I need to lose weight to feel better both mentally and physically.
Like I said, I've tried to lose weight on multiple occasions but it's never worked. Until now. I don't know what's different now but I'm just more motivated for some reason. About a month ago my BMI was 33.5 and I needed to lose about 25.5 kg (about 56 lbs) to reach my target weight. Now my BMI is 30.9 and I need to lose 19 kg (about 41 lbs) to reach my target weight, so I've lost quite a lot of weight this month, which I feel very happy about. Lost all that weight by quitting sugar, cutting down on carbs, eating smaller portions, and eating at the same time every day.
Current stats:
- Weight: 76.2 kg (about 168 lbs)
- Height: 157 cm (5'2")
- BMI: 30.9
Goals:
- Weight: 57 kg (about 125.5 lbs)
- BMI: 23.1
I'm currently trying (just started) to go to the gym once a week (to lift weights etc.) but I find that very difficult due to social anxiety. Anyway, I also plan on starting to walk home from university every day when the semester starts. A walk home takes about 35-40 minutes.
Well, I've got a long way to go to reach a healthy weight but I'm going to do it this time! It has already started. I decided to join this community because I feel like I need support though. I've also got some questions I hope it's OK I ask (should I ask them here in this diary?) but I'll start like this. This post is already long enough.
If you've managed to read this far: thank you.
Hello, everyone. My name (at this forum) is Chinaski and as well as this being my first diary entry this is also my first post in this community/forum. So I thought I'd give you all some background information about myself. I'm an almost 26 years old Scandinavian graduate student who loves science, psychology, books, words, TV-series, my friends and family, and pondering things. I'm an introvert, a thinker, a skeptic, an aspiring scientist, an avid reader, a daughter, a sister, a woman, etc. I am also overweight.
I've had a very weird and unhealthy relationship with food since the beginning of high school or so but I didn't start putting on weight until I was 19 (before then my weight was average/normal). Back then I started eating a lot of sweets and crisps to deal with my depression and anxiety and then it sort of spiraled out of control. For the past few years my BMI has been in the obese category. I've tried losing weight for years but it's been really difficult due to some kind of sugar addiction, I guess. I've felt (and still feel) extremely bad about myself because of my weight. It's been so bad that I've refused to wear summer clothes during the summer because I'm too scared of showing people my body and I get really anxious every time I leave the apartment because I think people think bad things about me because of my weight. I need to lose weight to feel better both mentally and physically.
Like I said, I've tried to lose weight on multiple occasions but it's never worked. Until now. I don't know what's different now but I'm just more motivated for some reason. About a month ago my BMI was 33.5 and I needed to lose about 25.5 kg (about 56 lbs) to reach my target weight. Now my BMI is 30.9 and I need to lose 19 kg (about 41 lbs) to reach my target weight, so I've lost quite a lot of weight this month, which I feel very happy about. Lost all that weight by quitting sugar, cutting down on carbs, eating smaller portions, and eating at the same time every day.
Current stats:
- Weight: 76.2 kg (about 168 lbs)
- Height: 157 cm (5'2")
- BMI: 30.9
Goals:
- Weight: 57 kg (about 125.5 lbs)
- BMI: 23.1
I'm currently trying (just started) to go to the gym once a week (to lift weights etc.) but I find that very difficult due to social anxiety. Anyway, I also plan on starting to walk home from university every day when the semester starts. A walk home takes about 35-40 minutes.
Well, I've got a long way to go to reach a healthy weight but I'm going to do it this time! It has already started. I decided to join this community because I feel like I need support though. I've also got some questions I hope it's OK I ask (should I ask them here in this diary?) but I'll start like this. This post is already long enough.
If you've managed to read this far: thank you.
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