Bring out the hot mama - Chicky's daily diary.

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I posted my story in the newcomers thread today and wanted to start a diary because I need all the support I can get. I want to start this diary and be able to look back in a year and say boy I have came along ways.

I am on my way and really have a lot to learn. But as I said below in my introduction that baby steps will get me there!! :)

Thanks!!



Here is my post I did for my introduction:

Hi everyone. I just found the site yesterday after doing a google search and joined. This will be my first post I wanted to share my story on what has brought me to here. Not looking for a pity party, just wanted to share my past in hopes it inspires someone else out there!

Anyways here is a bit about me - I am a mom and am 33 years of age. Luckily I had already had my kids because last year at the ripe ol' age of 32 I had to have an emergency hystertecomy to have everything in there removed due to a cancerious tumor. That of course put me straight into surgical menopause and the past 9 months have been a world wind for me. I am FINALLY getting everything under control health wise. They were able to get all the cancer but I did have a few chemo treatments to make sure.

Now I get mammograms and pap smears every 3 months to check everything out and to make sure no cancer has returned. I once thought once you got a hystertecomy that cancer could not get in there but sadly that is not the case. Anyways, I know I need to get HEALTHY to stay around as long as I possible can for my kids. Plus my doctor is screaming at me that if I do not start exercising, I will lose most of my bone within the next 5 years due to the removal of natural hormones and that really scares me!! I have to beat this weightloss and I WILL become a success story!!!

I am currently 165 pounds and my goal weight is 118. I am four feet 11 inches tall so that 165 pounds really shows on me. I have three chins, some back boobies, and lots of tummy weight. Most of my weight is in my upper body. My legs are actually quite small compared to my upper half.

Anyways, I AM completely new to this. I have no idea what to do but I will get there. I plan on doing LOTS of reading and learning. My goal is to work out 6 days this week and to eat as clean as I can. I know about the eating but it is the working out I need to learn. But as they say baby steps right?

Anyways I look forward to hearing from everyone and making a presence on the boards. The new me starts now so wish me luck!!

Thanks!
Chicky
 
I meant to add I will be posting my fat picture later :( as motivation for me and all my measurements. I will update measurements and weight on Wednesdays. :)
 
Rock on.............

ROCK ON! I am here to talk if you would like.....
I was 312 now 225

Kick It Girl And Kick It Good!

Do you have a gym membership or do you workout at home.....

Hawgdaddy 2009
Kickin It Up In 09
 
Hi Hawg - I actually joined a gym because I knew working out at home was NOT for me!! We actually have a brand new gym that just opened last month next to our home so i got a pretty sweet deal on a membership. WTG on your weightloss!!
 
I thought I would write some thoughts here before I head off to bed. I have to admit I am a bit nervious about my journey but then again I guess that is normal right?

My significant other sat here tonight and asked me why I was doing this. I guess I should take that as a compliment that he loves me as I am. However, I do not love me as I am and I had to explain that to him. I need to be the one that is happy with me FIRST. And he is sooo supportive that he has said he would start this journey with me...:party: He only has about 10 pounds to lose but hey if he wants to sexy up for me - then woohooo!!!

Oh well I am off to taking a sleeping pill. I have the worst insomnia and the only thing to actually help me with more than 2 hours of sleep a night is a sleeping pill that my sleep specialist has prescribed. Got to love the side effects of menopause! And to think I am on 33 ... yet I feel like I am 55 today..:banghead: Ahhh what us women go through.

Ok night all!
 
Well this is another day for me. Unfortunately I can not make it to the gym today due to a sick one so I plan on running up and down my stairs at home. Even if it is 15 minutes it is exercise right?

I also found out we have a biggest loser contest starting This Friday at the office and runs til sometime in June so I am signing up. With the motivation of the contest to earn some extra dough and the help of this site I just might slim down a good bit by the time I go on vacation in July.

When I got up this morning I was a bit bummed I could not make the gym. However, I decided to have a plan B for times just like this. I know life is not always perfect and I can not always make everyday go as planned so I set a plan b for those "just in case" moments like today.

My other plan this week is to find a place online where I can input my calories and graph my exercises etc. That is the one thing about this site that I do not like. I would love to have a place here to log stuff and it figure out my net calories after exercise ect... Oh well... If anyone knows of a good site (paid or free) please let me know. I will check it out.

My third plan this week is to also focus on me and why I am doing this. You see in life I am an analyst (and a mom too!) but the analyst is my day job. So I tend to analyze everything and am a bit of an overthinker. I am not trying to analyze this too much but you have to admit right now I really do not know jack squat about this stuff so some analyzing is needed. I really need to write WHY I am doing this, WHY I want to change, and WHY I will succeed. I feel like for me this is a must so for those days I am down and out and want to quit, I can look back and read those statements. I am sure that day will come but I am hoping later rather than sooner. Seeing as how I have never exercised really or ate healthy before, I really want to dig into my brain to make sure I stay on path for those I want to give up moments.

One thing I did notice in all my reading on this site yesterday was a common fact. Many people have came on here posted a few post and then disappeared. Did they fall by the wasteside? Did they find another site but kept it up? No one I guess really knows but I am betting on the first one. Why is it so hard to get healthy and lead a healthy lifestyle for life? Why is it so hard for folks to want to stay fat rather than get healthy for THEMSELVES. I read a lot of execuses on some old threads yesterday. Some where actually quite comical. Some where saying they wanted to know if these "magic" pills worked only to never be heard from agian. Some said they thought xyz diet was the best thing since sliced bread but then again a few days later, never to post again. Some just whined that this was just too hard.

I admit this is hard. To change your mindset and your way of thinking is hard. But I feel like I have hte will to succeed and the drive. Plus what kind of parent am I if I can not set a good example for my kids? Do I want them to grow up like this? HELL NO!!!

So that is my thoughts for this morning. Just wanted to chime in a bit. I still have to post measurements and pics and that will be tonight. ALTHOUGH I am sooooo dreading that!!!


Chicky:seeya:
 
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So as I promised I took my measurements today. Well tonight really. Oh my are they depressing BUT at the same time they are a motivation to get my tail in gear. I will NEVER be this big again. I can promise you that.

So here they are. I am not sure where to measure so I measured EVERYWHERE - cant hurt I guess...

They are:

Weight today: 163 (down 2 pounds from start - from 2 days ago)
Neck - 15 inches
Right Arm - 13 inches
Left Arm - 12.5 inches
Chest - 43 inches
Under chest - 39.5 inches
Waist - 43.5 inches
Hips - 41 inches
Right Thigh - 23.5 inches
Left Thigh - 23 inches
Right Calf - 13.5 inches
Left Calf - 13 inches



WOW Now it is real. It is out there for the world to see. I am so not proud of whom I am become but I can not go back to change the past. I can only change the future.

Today I tried to explain to a really good friend and coworker why I am doing this. The reason we were talking about it is because they saw my healthy food and felt they needed to comment on how they have tried so hard to lose weight but just could not lose 1 pound or one inch. Well I do not agree that they "tried". So we had a discussion about it in my office and I asked them how hard they really tried. Oh they did some walking around their apartment but didnt change eating habits. That got discouraged so they gave up. Then tried to do the adkins diet but ate way to much meat and no energy to exercise so they gave up after 3 days. Did not cut out the soda, fast food, ice cream etc when they were trying to change. But they expected to change in just one day of whatever it was they were trying at the time. They also said they tried these "magic" pills from time to time and that worked ok but they just couldnt stick with it.

I asked them if they really thought they had gave it their all and their answer was yes. Then I explained my why to them. You see sitting in a doctor's office and a doctor saying either you change or you will be in a wheel chair in 5 years was a bit to much to take when you are only 33 years old!!! Top that with the fact I just finished fighting cancer not to long ago and the doctor has warned that if I keep it up, I could help in the destruction of my health in the future scared the shit out of me. Plus I had been looking at myself in the mirror and HATED what I saw. But I had been making excuses in the past on why I was fat.

Finally when I walked out of the doctor's office a little over a week ago I was mad. How could a mother let herself go and not care enough to try to be there for her kids? How could I continue on and not do the BEST I could to be as healthy as I could be for as long as I can for MYSELF and MY Family! I told my coworker today that if it killed me I would give this my 100% and I mean it.

Sometimes people just finally wake up and have that drive to change. I have that drive. I do not want to see my kids have to live without their mom. I do not want to have to sit behind as they run to play and I miss things in my life that I use to do in the past including tennis. That is one of my goals by this fall is to be back playing tennis :)

So my coworker again said I was crazy and that I would be back to my old self in a couple of weeks. BOY am I going to show her a thing or two! :) hehehehe... I am going to be a success story. I am going to have my before and afters and I am going to be smoking!! I want those ripped arms and a nice cut back that I see on women. And I will get it.

Sorry to be a debbie downer in this post. Just had this thought in my head from my conversation today and wanted to post. Ok I am off to plan my meals for tomorrow. Chow for now!!

~Chicky~:seeya:
 
So last night was a not so good night for me. I started getting sick around 10pm and was hanging my head over the toilet until around 3am. :toetap05: I finally went to sleep and was back up at 630 this monring and was back in the bathroom throwing up agian. It seems that I have the tummy bug my kids had last week.

I am in the office trying to drink some sprite, gatorade, and water. However, the water is NOT sticking with me so I am going to stick to gatorade and sprite for a little bit until I stop throwing up.

I did step on the scale this morning .... it showed 158.4 (from 163) but of course that is because I threw up every ounce of anything in me so we will see what it says the end of this week!

Oh well...will do the best I can today. Right now I just want to crawl into bed and nottttttttttttttt move! ugh!!!
 
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