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bikinibound

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Well here's my story. Last December, about a week before Christmas, I weighed myself and nearly had a heart attack when I saw 277.5 staring back at me. Couldn't believe I was 22.5 pounds away from being 300 pounds. I decided that enough was enough. I was tired of being fat, and scared to death of being in my mid-30s and going downhill fast. I decided to turn my life around and haven't looked back.

I've lost 36.5 pounds so far and am determined to lose the 73 left. For the first time in my life, I am enjoying exercising--never ever thought I'd do that. I love it. I feel great when I do it, and it boosts my self-confidence. Even the dieting aspect has been much easier than it ever was.

I have battled with my weight for years, but this is first time that I'm sticking to it. I have an iron will, intense focus, and determination that amazes me. I think it's just that I've had enough. I see how my obese parents' quality of life is fastly diminishing, and I don't want that for myself. I want to feel good about how I look, and I want to be healthy. I don't want to be unable to do things because I'm too fat.

This is a huge year of changes for me--not just in losing weight. I feel like I'm finally getting my life together after having spent a pretty miserable last six years. I am very hopeful for the future, and finally feel like I'm on the right track.

So if you need any inspiration or encouragement, I'm here for you. You just have to make up your mind to do it--no excuses.


First entry, and I'm already ranting...lol

My friend sent me a photo taken Memorial day weekend when I was 13 pounds heavier than I am now. I was mortified at how I looked. So last night I had another friend take some photos, thinking I would look at least a little better. I think I look worse!! Ugh. Not good. It appears that I am losing weight from the waist down. My face is still as fat as ever. I wish I was once of those fat people who still have a skinny-ish face. But mine seems to be the first place I gain weight, and the last place to lose it. Anyone else out there with a similar problem?

So I've decided to increase my exercising in hopes of speeding up my weight loss. Instead of doing 4hrs per week, I'm going to do 8-10. So today I did 40min of circuit training this afternoon, and after dinner tonight I'm going for a 60min, 4 mile walk. Of course I know I need to increase my calories if I'm going to increase my exercise. Ben and Jerry's here I come! J/K!!
 
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Hey Bikini Bound -- try taking your measurements. Sometimes you see the inches go down in your measurements before you notice any changes in your body.

I have a fat face too. I had to lose 30 pounds before I noticed a difference anywhere on my body...and the only place I really see a difference is in my face -- although I've seen a big change in measurements!

Don't wear yourself out--the more you overdo, the harder it will be to keep it up. Be healthy as you lose weight, and keep going -- you'll be in that bikini yet!
 
Yesterday I had a bowl of blueberries and cottage cheese for breakfast, a six-inch Subway sub (ham, turkey--yes with mayo) and for dinner vegetarian veggie soup, a meditteranean veggie sandwich (I swear Panara puts cocaine in them b/c they are so dang addictive--my girlfriend feels the same way) and an apple (passed on the bread and chips for the first time.) Hot green tea and water to drink all day. I've limited myself to one can of diet soda per day. But yesterday I didn't drink any.

Today was 2scrambled eggs, wheat toast for breakfast. Chicken breast and salad for lunch. Roast beef, baked potato and more salad for dinner. I'll probably have some more blueberries and cottage cheese later on.
 
Glad to know I'm not alone!! I do take measurements--at my gym every month. I know I've lost inches b/c my clothes are really loose. In fact, I'm going to have to stop wearing some b/c they are too loose. Also, I can now wear several clothes that I haven't been able to get into for a couple of years. That is an awesome feeling, is it not? I've dropped about 2 dress sizes. I've got about 4 more dress sizes to go.

Thanks for the encouragement!
 
Living with Temptation--or not

Yesterday I was really good with the eating and exercise. I spent 1hr 40m working out, hoping to drop below that 240 mark for the first time in years. Didn't happen..lol So I'm a bit frustrated about that, but I'll get over it. Sometimes it takes a couple of days to show up on the scale.

Today I haven't been so good about the eating, but I figure as I'm stepping up my exercise, I can afford to eat a little more than normal--in fact it's probably a good thing to mix it up a bit.

Went to a therapist for the first time this morning and spilled my guts about my shaky marriage, weight loss program, etc. She was very impressed with my weight loss and determination to improve my life.

I currently live with my parents, both of whom are very overweight--especially my mother. She has tons of health problems due to her weight, and is now in a wheel chair and walker b/c she's never fully recovered from breaking her femur three years ago. I see their poor quality of life, and don't want that for myself.

The thing that bothers me the most is that while they are quick to congratulate me on my weight loss, they don't do a thing to help. The freezer is always full of ice cream (gallon and a half in there now), and cookies, chips, etc are always in the house. So every pound I've lost has been done with constant temptation in my face. However, these days I don't even think of it as tempting because I see the two of them pigging out constantly, see how it affects their lifestyle, and it makes me even more focused and determined. It's like watching two drunks drink themselves to death. Very sad.
 
First off, congratulations to you for losing almost 37 pounds while living with constant temptations! Great job!!!

Two, I completely, COMPLETELY, understand your desire to improve your life in all areas. I'm going through a similar phenomenon--I have a strong desire to take control of the direction of my life and stop just letting things happen to me. Instead, I want to take charge -- with my career, in my marriage, my finances, my weight...whatever it is, I'm tired of being a victim of my circumstances. I can take each situation and make it work, find a solution. And I don't have to just wait for each bad thing to happen; I can be proactive.

The same is true for you! You can -- and are -- refusing to live your parents' lifestyle, or relive their bad life eating choices. You are overcoming your circumstances -- that is really great!

And I loved the comment about the cocaine and the veggie sandwhich -- that was very funny!
 
Thanks Taking Control. It's good to know you're out there too--even if you are a hated Buckeye..lol Michigan WILL win THE game this November--they're getting their #$%& together like you and I are..lol

Well, I did 30min at the gym and 30min walking 2 miles yesterday. No change on the scale this morning, but it will come.

Went to the zoo with my cousin and 5 kids this am. I had so much energy. I was able to run and keep up with the kids. My cuz is heavier than me, and so whenever they wanted to run off somewhere, I went with them. It made me feel really good that I had so much energy. Six months ago I couldn't have done it. And, my cuz hadn't seen me in almost three months and said I looked fantastic. Also got nice comments from my hubby whom I haven't seen in six weeks. Even though I think I look God-awful in the photos I sent him, he thinks I'm pretty--bless his heart. There's a reason not to divorce him..lol
 
Oh, and Taking Control--that is awesome what you are doing--58lbs is incredible. Doesn't it feel good to take control and decide that you are going to make your life a happy one? I'm so sick of being miserable and stuck in a rut. Things are getting better. Now if I could just decide whether or not my hubby will continue to drag me down, or if he'll get his #%&$ together as well. I guess I'll have to wait and see--but I won't wait too long!!
 
Howdy Bikini,
Your off to a gr8 start!!Wow 36.5 lbs already.
Your menue looks good I had trouble losing the mayo but I eventually
started liking mustard it took some time but I actually love it.
GL and have a nice day Tammy
 
Thanks for the kind words, Niapage. Actually, I've been working at it for over 6mos now. The first 15 came off fairly easily. Then I hit a plateau for a few weeks before losing another 10, then another plateau..lol etc I think I'm beginning another, so I'm really trying to mix it up to keep from plateauing again. I hate them! Very frustrating.
 
My exercise this week:
7/23--40min circuit training
7/24--40min circuit training, 4mile walk in 60min
7/25--30min circuit training, 2mile walk in 30min
7/26--30min circuit training, running around zoo

Food? don't ask...lol Actually, it hasn't been that bad.
 
My exercise this week:
7/23--40min circuit training
7/24--40min circuit training, 4mile walk in 60min
7/25--30min circuit training, 2mile walk in 30min
7/26--30min circuit training, running around zoo
7/27--3mile walk in 48 humid as heck minutes

Thanks Paul for checking out my diary. I need all the encouragment I can get. And btw, I should've put this in your diary, but don't feel bad about not losing this week. I haven't lost any either, even though I've been exercising like a fiend and being fairly good on the eating. It's happened before and will happen again. You just have to stick with it. The pounds will come off. Also, you might have lost inches. Have you taken your measurements? That's always good to do b/c sometimes the scale doesn't show progress, but the tape measure does.

Thanks Mal, for the cudos on my walking. I started out at 18-min miles and am now down to 15-16--sometimes doing 1/2 to mile long 13min mile spurts. I am very proud of my pace for my weight. Patting myself on the back..lol

Today was something else. My 83-yr-old grandma called me at 10:30am to tell me she was having pains and was calling the ambulance. She had a massive heart attack three years ago, so we don't take this lightly. I spent the day at the hospital with her while they ran tests and did a heart cathaterization. Everything is fine, thankfully, but they are keeping her overnight for observation. I had to eat at the hospital cafeteria, and resisted the deep fried crap which was very tempting in my emotional state. But I had a grilled chicken salad instead.

As I was driving home, it began pouring out, so I thought I wouldn't be able to get my walk in, and I was tired and not all that motivated to do it. But the rain stopped, so I took it as a sign that I was meant to get my walk in and did so. Glad I did--even though it was as humid as a jungle out. I always feel better after a good walk--and a shower...lol
 
Hi Bikini,
I am so sorry to hear about your grandma,I am glad she is doing better the overnight for observation is usually a good sighn.CONGRATS on resisting fried foods at the hospital it's hard to believe they even serve fried foods or I should say I find it weird I know after I had my lil ones I wanted something fried and evil but I got trays of healthy looking foods lol!!
Anyway congrats on your hard work,have a gr8 weekend,Tammy
 
Thanks Tammy! Have a great weekend yourself! I know--why do they serve all that crap at the hospital? And another thing I find interesting is that at least half of the doctors and nurses are overweight. I live in the Mid-west. So when they tell their patients they should be living healthier lifestyles, it's kind of like, do as I say, not as I do. So I think that makes the patients think, "Why should I bother? He/she's a doctor/nurse, and they are not fit, so who are they to tell me I should be." Hope I didn't offend any of you doctors or nurses who might be reading this. I know it's not easy--but people in the health professions know better than anyone what an unhealthy weight can do to your overall health and quality of life. I think they set the example--even if it's not fair--it's the truth. So cudos to any health professionals on this website who are trying to get in shape. I know it isn't any easier for you than it is for the rest of us.
 
Yeah, my doctor tells me all the time I am "morbidly obese." Whereas she is about 5'10 and weighs over 300 pounds...

Also, most nurses smoke...while telling all the patients they need to quit.

You gotta kind of laugh at it!
 
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Also, most nurses smoke...while telling all the patients they need to quit.

You gotta kind of laugh at it!
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I know. Yesterday as I was walking back to my car I saw a bunch of nurses outside smoking. They should at least do it where the public can't see them..lol
 
Thanks for the encouragement too! I am pretty sure I have lost some inches around my stomach. I can look down and see a difference ! *L* But the numbers are bugging me just the same.

Glad your Grandma is ok and good for you for resisting that cafeteria food!
Let's keep on keeping on !
 
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