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[Jenabee]

Hi. I'm new here and am having another go at weight loss. I grew up being the skinny kid, the girl that everyone loves to hate. I was over 5'9" and weighed about 130 lbs for most of high school. Lucky me, since I never had to work at being thin back then. I had no idea how much of my identity was caught up in being 'the skinny girl'.

Not so lucky anymore. My weight has fluctuated over the past 15 years between 127 (due to an eating disorder: anorexia) and 185 (binge eating disorder). I would not call myself 'fat', as I have learned that that word is not a productive one to use. However, my BMI is above what it should be; technically, I am overweight; and I suffer from a family history of heart disease.

I do exercise. I cycle to and from work each day and have recently returned to the gym. My problem is food: I love it. I love lots of it. I love it a lot. NO amount of exercise helps me keep the weight off when I binge. Cooking seems to have replaced being thin as part of my identity.

Anyway, I'm here for support through this. I binge eat quite often and am hoping that this forum will be a comforting place to visit when I feel like I want to eat anything and everything in the house. Alternately, I'd like to be here to support others if they're finding themselves in a similar situation.

Am I in the right place? I thought about joining an eating disorder forum, but I've lurked in a dew of them and found them to be more depressing than helpful and I prefer to maintain a positive attitude about things.

Hopefully I can find and offer some support here

 

[Libby2999]

Hay, I binge everyday now, I need to stop too. I don't have much advise for to other than I wish I was that tall! I need to learn how to control myself from peanutbutter mostly and all the snacky bad for you things my dad buys. I need to eat healthy for swimming, an although I just touched the over weight bar but I have been climbing veary fast and not slowing down! And I need to stop! I'm trying for a high protien and high fiber 1,500 diet. 1,500 to go down a bit and loose the extra fat, protien for my muscles, and fiber for my tummy issues.

Keep strong, tell yourself be like a graceful horse. They graze and eat many small meals a day. Try eating one peice of fruit when you wake up, then 2-3 hours later eat a yogurt or something small like that, 2-3 hours later eat small again, repeat throughout the day. It helps keep you full, I'm going to try to do that again tomorrow sence today I already had way to much to eat, over 3,000 calories! Just don't give up and don't be angree if you go over a bit, anger only will make you want to eat more, stay strong Hun and you'll get to your goal before you know it. Also have fun with exercise. Make a game out of it!

 

[Jenabee]

Thanks Libby,

You're not the first person to tell me that they love to binge on Peanut Butter. I love spaghetti, spaghetti, and more spaghetti. It seems harder to break the binge cycle when one NOT eating things like chips and cookies. Because of the perceived health value of staple foods, we binge and tell ourselves that it's somehow okay?

Do you find this, too?

From today on, when I am tempted to binge, I am going to think of my emotions and ask myself why I am feeling a binge coming on and how I can deal with that emotion in a different way.