Barbi's Blog: Cutting the Crap

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CherithRaven

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Day 20
Today's weight: 168 pounds
Weight lost: 8 pounds

I guess I've been watching my weight for about a month now. When I got married 8 1/2 years ago, I weighed 129 pounds and wore a size 6. A month ago I weighed about 176 pounds and wore a size 12. I know there is a skinny woman in there - I've seen her before.

I was putting together a photo album for my stepdaughters 21st birthday. There were some photos of when we first met. I wonder if I realised at the time how gorgeous I was? What the heck happened? Where did I go?

There was that. And another stepdaughter bought a pair of designer jeans. As she tried them on in all their size 7 gloriousness, her sisters told her they couldn't believe she could fit anything so small. All I could think was "Nine years ago I could have worn them!!!!"

And so it started.

I've told myself over the past few years that the reason I was so thin before was because I didn't eat right. And that part is true. I was a single mom, working fulltime; eating was something of a luxury.

But I have a theory. I don't think eating was ever meant to be complicated. My body wants nutrition. I can cut the calories all I want, but I don't take in the necessary nutrition, my body is going to fight me every step of the way. So I am concentrating on what I call 'nutritional density'. How many nutrients are packed into whatever it is I'm about to eat? I'm experimenting with a number of vitamins. I'm eating a lot of fruit and veggies. I've cut back on 'white' food - white rice, potatoes. I've replaced white bread with wheat, when I eat bread at all. Okay, yeah, and I've been excercising every day (or almost).

Interesting things happening. Most notably my energy levels are WAY up, and I have NO cravings for junk food - not even with PMS. I went into my period without a single craving for chocolate - how weird is that?
 
Day 23
Today's weight: 165
Weight lost: 11 pounds


It's not that I'm tired of dieting. I like the food I'm eating, and I don't miss anything. I'm used to the exercise routine, and find that while I still break a sweat, I'm not getting as winded. But can someone please shut up that little kid voice in the back of my head that keeps saying 'Are we there yet? Are we there yet?'

I know it's going to take five or six months to get to the weight I want to be. I don't care if it takes longer; I'm committed to getting there. And I'm starting to see the benefits. My jeans today were a bit loose today. I can see tiny indentations under my ribcage where my abs are taking shape with all those crunches - once I lose the layer of tummy fat, my abs are going to look AWESOME! But it's like my mind is so focused on getting thin, that it wants to be there NOW, and I keep trying to tell it that we've barely left the driveway yet.
 
Day 29
Today's weight: 165 lbs
Weight lost: 11 lbs

Ugggghhhh! So much for my theory about not fighting my body. The scale got stuck on 170 two weeks ago, just before I started this thread. I lost five pounds and thought I was on my way again. Now I'm stuck on 165. Grrrrrrrr!

Maybe I should just put my scales away for awhile.
 
CherithRaven said:
can someone please shut up that little kid voice in the back of my head that keeps saying 'Are we there yet? Are we there yet?'
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If you figure that out, let me know! That little voice is annoying.

As far as your weight getting stuck, are you tracking calories at all? It sounds like you are making some really great food choices, but you can still have too much, or too little, of a good thing. Maybe track for a few days at least and make sure you aren't eating too many or too few. Either way can halt weight loss.

You've made some great progress so far, though! Don't let the little bumps get you down.
 
Day 33
Today's weight: 165 pounds
Weight lost: 11 pounds

Thanks Mizzie! I needed some encouragement today. Scales are still stuck. I'm not counting every calorie, but I'm aware of them. If anything I may be straying toward too few, but I try not to let myself get hungry. I'm trying to mix up my exercise routine a bit, which I'm hoping will help. I'm building up some great muscle tone though! Back when I was skinny, I used to wish I had those well defined abs you see in swimsuit models - it's funny to see the ab definition coming into place even though the fat still there.

I keep telling myself that with the diet and exercise changes I've made, I HAVE to lose weight eventually. I am, fortunately, more stubborn than my fat.
 
Day 36
Today's weight: 163 pounds
Weight lost: 13 pounds

I just completed the hardest workout I have ever done. Jillian Michaels just tried to KILL me!!!!! OK, I did have to pause a few times in order to keep my heart from exploding out of my chest and running screaming down the street.

BUT - the scale has moved! Not a lot, but I'll take what I can get. I would do a happy dance, but I think my muscles are still in a puddle on the floor.
 
I have heard that when you get closer to ur "correct" bmi weigth the loss slows down.... maybe thats whats happening if u feel that u r loosing less then u should be, and also remember muschels weigh more then fat ;)
 
I totally get what your saying

I totally understand what you mean, and I find walking helps too
 
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