At Wits End!

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issakova

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Hello everyone! This is my first time in a weight loss forum, but by no means my first time dieting. I've lost count....


I'm 38, and I started my yo-yo weight gain/weight loss when I was 15. Although, thinking back, I was sooo stupid to go on a diet at 15, I weighed 56/57 kilos for 1m64. If I had known then what I know now....That this was the start of a very long, never ending, depressing struggle with an ever increasing weight....


I guess my story is familiar to a lot of people, and until quite recently, my life was a roller coaster of "letting myself go - gaining weight - dieting - losing weight - letting myself go" etc.....


Except something changed and I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know when exactly,but I've stopped losing weight. I'm actually working hard at losing, and the weight is creeping ON, not off!!


Some people said it was age, that I'm getting older, but I feel that something is off.


I NEVER exercised. My family always made fun of me for being the couch potato. I hate exercising. But for 4 months now I've been walking/jogging 3 to 5 times a week, between 45mn to an hour. So to me, that is an ENORMOUS change. I've also stopped eating late (I use to have dinner at 9 or even 10 - now I don't eat anything after 5:30). And for a while (in August) it was working, and I could feel myself lose some weight. So I kept going, but in september I put on 2 kilos, then in october I put on 1 kilo, and I haven't dared weigh myself this month. And no it's not muscles, because I've been taking measurements and they've gone up as well.


The only cause I can think of, is this: in July and August I took anti-depressants. I stopped them mid-september when I realized I was gaining weight and after reading a lot of testimonials from people gaining weight on anti-depressants. I read that it would take time for my body to get rid of the drug from my system, but by now, I don't think I have anything left in my system! And still gaining weight...


I am not really dieting, as in I eat what I want, including sugar, but I know my body, and normally, cutting dinner out and exercising would've made me drop the weight for sure, not put it on. I know I should probably go on a stricter diet, cut out the culprits, but the mere idea of restricting myself at the moment is more than I can bear. I know, it's a sorry excuse, I'm trying to get over it....


I'm sooooo disheartened, I don't know what to do. So I joined this forum...I don't know if it will help, but It can't hurt right? :)


Thank you for listening (If you've stuck with me so far...)
 
Welcome to the forum. Believe me when I tell you that you are not alone. I actually am where you are in a way. I was losing weight then I became unemployeed. Over the last year, my mood and my focus to lose weight got worse mainly because I, like most here, are emotional eaters. So the idea of cutting out that which 'made me feel good' sucked to be honest. You have to get yourself to a focus point of realizing that if you don't make some changes, things will just get worse. I've just reached that point again and have refocused on losing the weight.


It can be done and it doesn't have to be the things you were suggesting. Don't cut dinner out and you don't have to cut sugars..it's moderation. Make small changes that will add up overall. Don't jump straight into cutting hard, just trim off bit by bit for a while. It makes it easier to get back into the game!
 
Hello

I'm new to this forum so I'm not sure what I can or can not say because I don't want to sound like a promoting something. But I have been following a nutritional program for the last year or so and that has helped me tremendously. I don't know, it's working for me and I feel great.. And it is not a diet.

I enjoy cooking a lot so ever since I got laid off (last year also), I have time to cook my own meals and I think this has helped a lot. But I also do work out. Have you tried something like Zumba? It's fun because you are dancing so it's not "painful" like some other types of exercises, and you might enjoy it.


It is true that it's all about moderation and watching what we are eating to make that we are getting the right type of nutrition, instead of dieting and starving ourselves.
 
Hi Jericho,


Thanks for your welcome and the support. I got myself back into focus, I have reached a point where I can't let myself go anymore, so I've put myself back on the diet has worked for me previously. I will take it one day at a time and see how it goes. I'm not very good at moderation unfortunately, I find if I cut something out, it's much easier for me to stick to not having it.


Anyway, good luck to us all, and thanks again for your message!
 
Howdy! I joined this forum once I was at my wit's end, too. You can find my detailed accounts in the newcomers' forum ("Newcomer Jody...") and in the section for weight loss with medical conditions (PCOS/POS).


Our situations are quite different, yet the outcomes seem to have felt the same. (This is my first time really needing to lose weight. I workout VERY hard, EVERY day, and SLASHED my calories, but STILL gained weight!!! Only once I discovered a link between a long-ago-diagnosed medical condition and insulin resistance did I find a simple little addition that changed everything. Unless you have a similar condition, though, that "solution" is probably irrelevant to you.)


In short, I don't know HOW I was able to keep going for over 2 months, killing myself, yet always heavier than my starting weight. For whatever reason, I had this internal resolve that I WOULD find a combination of factors that would work for me. And it was only because I knew I was exercising hard and eating very little, and the scale not reflecting that, which compelled me forward in finding out what was really going on. I can't say I really got any helpful advice or significant support, other than from my husband. Now that I've (seemingly) solved my problem, I feel vindicated.........and I'm lighter every day. :)


So, I REALLY feel for you. And even though I don't know what the right combination of factors will be for you, I can encourage you to stick with your efforts, until you find what works for (YOU....not anyone else).


Best of luck!


Jody
 
Thanks Jody! It must feel so great to have finally cracked it! You know at one point I thought maybe I had a medical condition. I read about PCOS and hypothyroid disease. I don't have any of the PCOS symptoms, but most of the hypothyroid ones and my mom has hyperthyroid, so I thought it is a genetic disease I should get myself checked out. But before I do that, I want to be honest with myself, I've started a controlled diet, something that has worked for me before and I'm following it to the letter, if in 2 weeks time I don't lose any weight, then I'll get myself checked out. I don't want to be in denial about the causes of my weight gain...


thanks again for the support, I'm going to read your thread now! :)
 
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