melischick
New member
Well, yesterday was better. Currently Im getting ready for work (and I am actually runny pretty late). I just wanted to check in to get some inspiration for the day...
I have realized that one of the hardest things for me is the realization that this really is a problem. My whole life I have walked around chirping about need to lose weight when really I was fine. And now, since gaining 40lbs, it is an actual problem. More than anything I am searching for someone to tell me that I look great or that I havent actually gained that much weight. But the reality of the situation is that I have done this to my body and now I have to be the one to fix it. It's time to start actually dealing with the problem....
which brings me to my next battle. The scale. I have actually weighed myself for a few months. In fact, I went for a physical and refused to look when the nurse was weighing me in. But I can't be realistic about the problem until I know my actual weight. So, my pledge it to write tomorrow with my actual, honest, weight.....
boy am I nervous for that.
I have realized that one of the hardest things for me is the realization that this really is a problem. My whole life I have walked around chirping about need to lose weight when really I was fine. And now, since gaining 40lbs, it is an actual problem. More than anything I am searching for someone to tell me that I look great or that I havent actually gained that much weight. But the reality of the situation is that I have done this to my body and now I have to be the one to fix it. It's time to start actually dealing with the problem....
which brings me to my next battle. The scale. I have actually weighed myself for a few months. In fact, I went for a physical and refused to look when the nurse was weighing me in. But I can't be realistic about the problem until I know my actual weight. So, my pledge it to write tomorrow with my actual, honest, weight.....
boy am I nervous for that.
