Andy's diary

[BBF]

Right, hello folks. This is going to be my diary, tomorrow I am starting my journey from being a fat fat fatty to a 'normal' looking guy.

A little about me? I'm Andy, I live in London I'm 6ft3 and I weigh 18 stone (255lbs). I'm looking to get down to 12.8 stone (180lbs) which would put me in about the middle of my ideal weight range.

I've always been big from a toddler up til now and its never really affected me. I was never bullied or called names, but perhaps that happening would've put me in a different place now. I've always been the gentle giant that everyone loves but recently something changed. I've noticed that it hurts to go upstairs at work and i recently ruptured my MCL. Although I did this playing football and it wasn't directly because of my weight, it certainly didn't help having to support my frame.

I also recently met someone. We instantly got on, and have seen each other practically every day for the past month. Its advanced so quickly but I still feel (and maybe this is just my own fears) that she's not as physically attracted to me as she could be. She certainly doesn't say anything and we're spend our fair share of time 'with each other' but there is something there.

What finally spurred me to take this seriously was a drunken conversation with her the other day. We spoke about the future and how she could see herself marrying me and having kids. That scared me, not because of the commitment (because i can see us doing the same things and I like that) but because I don't want to be known as the fat guy who goes out with the smoking hot girl, or the fat dad in the playground picking up his kids. It scares the hell out of me to think of that.

So tomorrow, I am signing up to the gym, I'm investing in some new work out gear and I'm eating healthily. Someone recommended I sign up here too to see if it helps and I'm going to try and update this every day with what I've eaten, what I've done and how its all going. It might not be very interesting and maybe no one will read it but I'm really hoping it will help.

Hopefully as we begin 2011 I can have one of those awesome before and after photos, then think properly about building a future for myself.

Thanks for reading, I'll check back in tomorrow and let you know how signing up was!

 

[slimpip]

Hey Andy,

You're entry really struck a chord with me. I'm exactly the same weight as you and have exactly the same goal! Weird, makes me feel really crap as I'm only 5ft10 (tall for a girl mind) hehe. Anyway, it's not the starting weight that matters, it's the end result so I might be a total heffer now (actually I'm quite lucky that I'm proportioned well, thank god) but when I'm done, I'll be smokin' hehehehe.

Also, I totally know how you feel with your lady friend. I'm gonna sound super bigheaded here but I really don't mean to. I have always had attention from men, I've always had curves and boobs and an arse which men like. However, there is always something missing, something not quite right. For me, and it may totally be paranoia, I feel like behind closed doors they accept me 100% but in public they wish they had a slimmer girl on their arm.

I'm ready to rid myself of that paranoia now, I wanna be with a person and feel totally accepted and comfortable and an equal. I hope you check out my diary too, be interesting seeing as we have identical weights and goals. What's your plan? x

P.S. My name is pip, another brit, yey!

 

[JanaNanner]

What finally spurred me to take this seriously was a drunken conversation with her the other day. We spoke about the future and how she could see herself marrying me and having kids. That scared me, not because of the commitment (because i can see us doing the same things and I like that) but because I don't want to be known as the fat guy who goes out with the smoking hot girl, or the fat dad in the playground picking up his kids. It scares the hell out of me to think of that.

It's really a great thing that you want to lose weight and I encourage you for the sake of your health. But I'm curious about one thing: have you talked to her about your desire to lose the weight? It might be good to find out how she feels about it, if you haven't. It's really tricky in relationships when it comes to losing weight because sometimes a partner actually prefers you to stay the way you are. I'm not saying that if she disagrees that you should not lose weight, but it just might be a good idea to communicate with her about this if you haven't yet.

Anyway, it's great that you're here. The encouragement and support and motivation I've found here at this forum have had such a tremendous positive impact on me and I hope that it will be the same way for you.

 

[BBF]

Hey Andy,

You're entry really struck a chord with me. I'm exactly the same weight as you and have exactly the same goal! Weird, makes me feel really crap as I'm only 5ft10 (tall for a girl mind) hehe. Anyway, it's not the starting weight that matters, it's the end result so I might be a total heffer now (actually I'm quite lucky that I'm proportioned well, thank god) but when I'm done, I'll be smokin' hehehehe.

Also, I totally know how you feel with your lady friend. I'm gonna sound super bigheaded here but I really don't mean to. I have always had attention from men, I've always had curves and boobs and an arse which men like. However, there is always something missing, something not quite right. For me, and it may totally be paranoia, I feel like behind closed doors they accept me 100% but in public they wish they had a slimmer girl on their arm.

I'm ready to rid myself of that paranoia now, I wanna be with a person and feel totally accepted and comfortable and an equal. I hope you check out my diary too, be interesting seeing as we have identical weights and goals. What's your plan? x

P.S. My name is pip, another brit, yey!

Excellent. It might even be a good thing if we're trying to achieve the same thing. we can spur each other on a little bit

Well today is signing up day. Its all done online and then tomorrow after work I will be going to the gym for the first time. Its on the way to/from work so the plan is to go twice a week after work and once a week before work. Once I know that I can actually do this I plan on stepping it up a bit and hopefully I will be going 5 times a week soon enough.

As I say my eating habits aren't terrible but I need to start eating breakfast to give my metabolism a kick start. It normally makes me feel ill eating that early. I don't really snack during the day at work and just have a sandwich or some sushi for lunch. Dinner is always cooked at home and its usually pretty healthy. Its more portion size I need to cut down. I also find that when I'm bored I'll go and have a look in the fridge and see whats there. So hopefully gym and reading and the new girlfriend can occupy my time a bit more.

I don't know how well that reads to be honest but I hope it makes sense!

 

[BBF]

It's really a great thing that you want to lose weight and I encourage you for the sake of your health. But I'm curious about one thing: have you talked to her about your desire to lose the weight? It might be good to find out how she feels about it, if you haven't. It's really tricky in relationships when it comes to losing weight because sometimes a partner actually prefers you to stay the way you are. I'm not saying that if she disagrees that you should not lose weight, but it just might be a good idea to communicate with her about this if you haven't yet.

Anyway, it's great that you're here. The encouragement and support and motivation I've found here at this forum have had such a tremendous positive impact on me and I hope that it will be the same way for you.

I haven't really spoken to her about it but she knows I'm going to the gym so she must know on some level that I'm a bit selfconcious about my weight. To be fair to her she hasn't mentioned it and is just as affectionate in public as she is when its just us so I think most of the fears are in my head.

But the way I see it if I lose weight (for the sake of my health) and she loses interest then she probably isn't the right person for me anyway.

 

[slimpip]

Yeah, I'd be well up for that Andy!! Let's go for it!

I really think we are very alike, my diet is not unhealthy but my portions are massive and I tend to snack when I'm bored. Plus, I always need to have something sweet after dinner and normally, fruit doesn't cut it lol. I've discovered skinny cow ice creams, brilliant as they are 87 calories or something and they are the size of a magnum. Yummy!

Anywhoooo, good luck at the gym, I've been today so feeling good so far today. Let us know how it goes x

 

[Cantona]

Good luck matey!