I know I'm new but.. reading all of these diaries/journals made me want to try this out. 
I hope to get something out of this. It's nice seeing that other people are having the same problem as I do and that I'm not alone.
I figure I'll start this out with a little history.
When I was 15-16, I was around 160lbs. Back then, I thought I was fat. Wow, looking back now, I wish I took better care of myself. Around that time, my parents were moving constantly back and forth from NC and GA, and I had to start over with new friends, and I was kind of tired of it. Instead, I turned to food, and by the time I was 20-21, I was around 200-210.
I'm now 26, at 240 lbs.
Around August 2007 - October 2007, I lost 30 lbs. I was able to do it by not eating as much rice (I curse myself for being asian! lol) and lessening my food intake. I didn't consume as much sugar either. I ate fruits and gave myself treats every now and then.
I was so proud of myself. But then I moved to California.. and gained it allllllll back... Again, mainly it was because of stress.. and homesickness.
I met a guy through the internet, let's call him.. Edward. Edward and I have known each other for a long time, almost 8 months, and have decided to meet. I'm so nervous -- he has seen my pics (body pics as well), but he doesn't know I've gained 30 lbs.. or maybe he does, not sure (i've mentioned it more than a few times that I've gained weight).. He tells me he loves me for who I am, and he doesn't want me to change.. but really.. I'm afraid when we do meet this month, he's going to reject me. He is of "normal" size....
I'm not really doing this for him. Maybe a part of me wants to, but really.. I'm doing this for me. I want to feel sexy inside and out. I feel sexy inside.. but outside.. I really don't like what I see.
SO! I hope to get motivation out of writing what I'm doing/eating/etc... to keep going towards my goal! I'll post all the things I eat/do towards my goal.. and thoughts.. etc. :X
I figure to answer some questions!
Current weight/height : 240 lbs / 5'2"
Ideal weight : 150lbs, so .. 90 lbs.. sigh >_<!
What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? 1-2 years
How do you want to accomplish your goal? I need to eat right, I need to stop skipping breakfast and lunch. Eat little rice! And low sugar. Try to at least walk/jog for 30 mins a day. I need to get off my fat butt and do it!
Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? My parents.. they're always very supportive of what I do.
How realistic is your goal? Right now.. I don't feel too hopeful.. I've given up, but I'll try my best.
When will you start? TODAY!!!
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? Hopefully... 215-220
Anyway.. thanks for reading
! Wish me luck!
I hope to get something out of this. It's nice seeing that other people are having the same problem as I do and that I'm not alone.I figure I'll start this out with a little history.
When I was 15-16, I was around 160lbs. Back then, I thought I was fat. Wow, looking back now, I wish I took better care of myself. Around that time, my parents were moving constantly back and forth from NC and GA, and I had to start over with new friends, and I was kind of tired of it. Instead, I turned to food, and by the time I was 20-21, I was around 200-210.
I'm now 26, at 240 lbs.
Around August 2007 - October 2007, I lost 30 lbs. I was able to do it by not eating as much rice (I curse myself for being asian! lol) and lessening my food intake. I didn't consume as much sugar either. I ate fruits and gave myself treats every now and then.
I was so proud of myself. But then I moved to California.. and gained it allllllll back... Again, mainly it was because of stress.. and homesickness.
I met a guy through the internet, let's call him.. Edward. Edward and I have known each other for a long time, almost 8 months, and have decided to meet. I'm so nervous -- he has seen my pics (body pics as well), but he doesn't know I've gained 30 lbs.. or maybe he does, not sure (i've mentioned it more than a few times that I've gained weight).. He tells me he loves me for who I am, and he doesn't want me to change.. but really.. I'm afraid when we do meet this month, he's going to reject me. He is of "normal" size....
I'm not really doing this for him. Maybe a part of me wants to, but really.. I'm doing this for me. I want to feel sexy inside and out. I feel sexy inside.. but outside.. I really don't like what I see.
SO! I hope to get motivation out of writing what I'm doing/eating/etc... to keep going towards my goal! I'll post all the things I eat/do towards my goal.. and thoughts.. etc. :X
I figure to answer some questions!
Current weight/height : 240 lbs / 5'2"
Ideal weight : 150lbs, so .. 90 lbs.. sigh >_<!
What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight? 1-2 years
How do you want to accomplish your goal? I need to eat right, I need to stop skipping breakfast and lunch. Eat little rice! And low sugar. Try to at least walk/jog for 30 mins a day. I need to get off my fat butt and do it!
Who or what can support you in reaching your goal? My parents.. they're always very supportive of what I do.
How realistic is your goal? Right now.. I don't feel too hopeful.. I've given up, but I'll try my best.
When will you start? TODAY!!!
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? Hopefully... 215-220
Anyway.. thanks for reading
! Wish me luck!
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