Agness
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Once upon a time I was a beautiful girl. Happy girl. I loved my job, I had wonderful friends, big dreams - I enjoyed my life. Now my existence is divided by BEFORE 135lb. and AFTER . I will not be able to explain to you how did I allow my weight to get so much out of control. I do not know. Somehow I gained 100 lb.
I used to work in the fashion industry where any extra lb. you gain is noted and judged. At first my assignments were slowly transferred to the thin and beautiful employees. Then I found myself stuffed behind the desk doing paper work. I was no longer expected and invited to attend numerous functions although prior to my weight gain, I was in charge of all major events.Finally, I lost my job.I was let go and it absolutely crushed me. With in the few weeks my phone stopped ringing - my friends forgot about me.
I locked myself in the house. For the past 7 month I have been out of the house just to put garbage out. I spent my days alone trying to analyze what went wrong. Well, I am not entirely alone - I have my wonderful dog Newfoundland named Little Mo keeping me company. Other than Little Mo my circle of communication includes my mail lady named Barbara and groceries delivery guy named Sam. I don't have any family .I don't have sisters or brothers, I lost my parents long time ago.
I am 33 and it feels like my life is over or, at the very list, interrupted. The realization that I have nothing but long row of lonely days to look forward to scares me. I came here to loose wait and get back what I worked so hard for. I will be posting my progress here just to keep track...
Today I decided to face my fears and go to the local gym to get my membership. I will be out of the house first time for the past 7 month.
I used to work in the fashion industry where any extra lb. you gain is noted and judged. At first my assignments were slowly transferred to the thin and beautiful employees. Then I found myself stuffed behind the desk doing paper work. I was no longer expected and invited to attend numerous functions although prior to my weight gain, I was in charge of all major events.Finally, I lost my job.I was let go and it absolutely crushed me. With in the few weeks my phone stopped ringing - my friends forgot about me.
I locked myself in the house. For the past 7 month I have been out of the house just to put garbage out. I spent my days alone trying to analyze what went wrong. Well, I am not entirely alone - I have my wonderful dog Newfoundland named Little Mo keeping me company. Other than Little Mo my circle of communication includes my mail lady named Barbara and groceries delivery guy named Sam. I don't have any family .I don't have sisters or brothers, I lost my parents long time ago.
I am 33 and it feels like my life is over or, at the very list, interrupted. The realization that I have nothing but long row of lonely days to look forward to scares me. I came here to loose wait and get back what I worked so hard for. I will be posting my progress here just to keep track...
Today I decided to face my fears and go to the local gym to get my membership. I will be out of the house first time for the past 7 month.