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It has been a long time since I joined this site and I havent been around for a long while. I still struggle with my weight and over indulge. Tonight I want to see if my motivation can be renewed by starting a new food/mood diary here and see what happens.

Tonight I am sitting here eating chocolate and cheese with crackers and although I am enjoying them, I do not feel hungry in fact I am full but still desire to eat more of the same. Why do I do this? I would love to know.

My mood is quite relaxed and I am enjoying an evening after hard days work. I am aware that PMT may be surfacing. I know I get water retention every month and a huge appetite that is linked to hormones. I get an incredible desire for salty foods and notice that I put a lot of low salt on my foods. Seems I cant get enough salt. Also big cravings for chocolate.

I am fairly calm mood but underlying unhappiness about various demands in my life and those sort things etc.

Wonder often about how I am going to be able to remain on a diet as I always lose interest after a few days. Weekends interrupt and celebrations and social gatherings always involve food.

I am not happy to be overweight, but I get a lot of pleasure from food. Seems it is one of the greatest pleasures. Another is dancing. But I can only do that occasionally as my job tires me out so much.

As I continue typing I am starting to feel sad. I wish I could have more time to dance as I know this loses a great deal of weight. It is expensive to attend and so I am limited. That makes me sad too.

No exercise at home can substitute the effortless vigour of dancing as I so enjoy it, it is unlike exercise, just pure fun.

So I substitute those pleasures that are out of reach with the pleasure of food.

I worry about losing weight and looking all baggy and wrinkled as I am now 42. Although my skin has always been great and everyone always says I look young for my age.

My ideal would be to get to 160lb, but now I write it thats 33lbs to lose. OMG that is collosall. How can I do this and am I really carrying that amount of extra weight? that is over 2 stones.

How do I feel, what I am I going to do? I feel excited that I might actually go for it. I feel afraid that people will comment when I lose weight. I feel happy when I see myself in jeans and jumper looking the right weight and not looking hefty and awful.

How am I going to tackle my extra weight this time? I will join group who lose weight together. I will keep on adding my weight weekly. I will wrte in my diary as much as I can. I will write my moods to discover my consumption. I will make a chart to show mood/ food. I will go and do that now.

Hello to all who read this x:eek::)
 
33 lbs is do-able -just take it one lb at a time - one day at a time - one meal at a time if you must...

any goal is achievable if you want it.. .and are willing to work for it...

You might want to lose the "diet" mentality and focus on a "lifestyle" mentality instead where you plan out your meals and there's nothing you can't have.. in moderation... no reason why you can't enjoy what you love...
 
Well its day 2, quite frustrated trying to find my thread, obviously forgotton hw to use the forum.
Went all day very good herbal teas and light lunch, Got home and had cheese and crackers, a little indulgent - this always happens in the evening.
Surprised I had lost 2lb (191lbs) this morning.

Feel highly irritable and short tempered. Tired but wanting to stay up and enjoy a jodie foster film. My life seems consumed by work.

Hope I can try harder tomorrow to cut down on salt and fat.

:) hope everyone reading is well x
 
Feel very tired today, worked til I dropped. I had a simple ham sandwich for lunch then a large slice of chocolate cake mid PM and then 3 slices of pizza and a packet of walkers for supper.

Not been particularly desperate for any snacks tonight, just had a tea with no sugar. Want to go dancing next week s I HAVE to lose at LEAST 5lbs.
Mood is just exhaustion and feeling brain dead after massive work load. Hope I can get a good nights sleep tonight as another busy day tomorrow.

Hi to any readers:)
 
Hi there,

I know how frustrating the whole thing can get. I was just thinking if you enjoy dancing but dont get the chance to go much could you buy some dance DVDs to do at home? Or even just turn the music up and have a boogie?!

Good luck with your goals.
 
Thank you for your replies. I have managed to lose 5 lbs and feel I have some support here. I would love to lose another 5lb soon. Being on here makes me conscious during the day, of my need and desire to lose weight. There is always that dichotomy between the pleasure of eating and the pleasure of feeling slimmer and fitting into my clothes. Fattening food is available anytime and supplies instant pleasure but then long term discomfort and embarrassment. Whereas weight loss is slow and painstaking with lasting pleasure and comfort at the end. So it really is the barrier of a slow and painstaking journey that I'm either too lazy to take or the thought of losing the pleasure I gain from being able to eat whatever I want whenever I want that stands in my way. There is also ONE more thing. I am in my 40's and look younger for my age. I lost weight about 2 years ago and noticed my neck became a bit crepey. That did freak me out and I have not been able to lose weight since then (sorry this is all my ramblings here) So I think that plays a BIG part in me being unable to move forward in my weightloss.
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just set up October challenge and hoping for the best. I have such a tummy on me, it has to go. I need to slim down my stomach, waist and arms. I am so conscious of them and cant bear it when they wobble so much...yuk!:(
 
Thanks for the encouragement! Today has been better I feel I might just stick to my plan this time. The chllenge is inspiring and helping me.:jump:
 
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