53.8 to lose! The Long and Winding Road

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elleelise

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This is going to take some time. I'm finally willing to admit that. I am not a celebrity, and so losing 20lbs in a month ISN'T REALISTIC for me and I'm setting myself up for disaster if I continue thinking that way. I will probably be out of the 200s in two+ more months if I work very, very hard and lose 2lbs per week on average. This is going to take work. HARD work, and isn't a temporary fix. I do not want to be 200+ my whole life and so I won't. No more crash diets, no more one-month fixes. This is going to be a long, process and I'm okay with that. I'm also tired of being defined by a number, and so I'm changing my focus on "how much I weigh" to "how much I've lost."

The STATS:
Pounds to lose: 53.8
Pounds lost: -1.4
Starting weight: 225.2
Current weight: 223.8
Goal weight: 170lbs
Height: 5'9"
Dress size: 16
Goal dress size: 10
BMI: 32
Goal BMI: 25.1

I'm aiming to lose 1-2lbs per week (2 is on the larger side), which sounds so dreadfully slow, but the slower the better.

The Long-term Plan is simply to eat under 1500 calories/ day and work out about 3-4 times per week. I want to eat as much as possible within that budget, so I will choose the healthiest options possible most of the time, in order to not go hungry.

First mini-goal is going to be 119lbs, at which point I'm going to take myself shopping for some $50 worth of accessories and jewelry.

I'm off to my workout, which I don't want to go do, but I know once I'm there I'll be in the zone. Getting out of the house is the hardest part.

Then I'm going to come home, get gorgeous, and go out with the boyfriend.
 
Welcome Elleelise! Good luck with your first goal, and accessorizing. Have fun tonight going out with the boyfriend!
 
Positive-affirmation

I just realized what a corny title I gave this journal. The long and winding road??? Man oh man. But I thought it was appropriate considering the amount of time this is going to take-- not only battling the bulge but battling the poor body image. The past two weeks have been less than motivated or. I've sort of been eating whatever I want without thinking about it, which ends up making me feel pretty horrible.

Before concentrating on the woman that I am NOT though, I want to focus on the woman I want to be. I want to be:

A woman who finds time to meditate every single day. A woman who volunteers and thinks more about others than her figure. A woman who stands tall and proud, even though she sometimes feels awkward about her height. A woman who is interested in making her body healthier, not just prettier. A woman who values her beauty and who doesn't insult mother nature by dwelling on her "imperfections." A woman with tons of energy who is never held back by her size or weight. A woman who accepts that she is a bigger gal with a bigger frame, and who will accept and treasure that. A woman who doesn't constantly compare herself to others. A woman with a good body image. A woman who feels good after every meal, not nauseated.

With these things in mind, my revised goal is not to "weigh 219lbs" but to

1) Get myself to the gym tonight, even though it sounds like the most unappealing idea in the history of ideas. Work out for 20 min. Find some joy in it and feel accomplished after.
2) Meditate after I return to the gym and take a shower. In complete silence, repeat a positive, self-affirming mantra.
3) Time 9 hours of sleep so I don't sleep too much and feel groggy all day as I have been.
4) Eat a light dinner of lentil soup and salad.

Positivity is key. I need to silence every critic and voice in my head that is telling me that I am a failure because I weigh 220+lbs.

See you in the morning,

-D
 
That sounds so great! I'm here to tell you that your goals sound very realistic and I am standing by you in support. If I can do it, so can you! Now go get em'! :D
 
Great goal-setting, Elle!

True, it's best to be the tortoise, who finishes, than become the audacious hare who quits the race halfway through.

I used to be the hare and I regret to have been so uncommitted to my goals. I just realized that the reason for the lack of genuine focus was that my goals were soooo unrealistic!

Best of luck! I'm on my journey myself and it's so nice to see more of us wanting to get healthier lives.
 
Back to it

Weighed in this morning at 227.8. First goal weight is 219 by 12/20 at 2lbs per week. I'm weighing myself each morning, tracking calories and updating in here every day. Let's get into the 21Xs!
 
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