1st day and I failed! Crap!

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bigteacher

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I read through some of the posts and found so many being so 'strong', makes me feel even smaller. I told myself okay, okay, let's do it and by 5pm of eating tasteless health food, I just couldnt take it anymore! Gosh I really have this urge to vomit all the food out now. I have stopped doing that for years, being a bullimic and all, this is so hard! I have this voice inside of me, this really disturbing thought that well maybe wait til after Christmas and New Year, make new resolutions but I have been giving myself excuses/exit plans for years! I never achieved my new year's resolutions and certainly
2007's wont be special. I need to start and I need to start now, why cant I just do it? I feel so ashamed!
 
Wow! What eating plan are you on? I have eaten yummy stuff all day long. I have just started this plan again and truly expect to lose weight doing it (as I have before).

:) It is so worth making the change to healthier eating - totally worth as many tries as it takes - and this is a great place to get a helping hand. :)

Hope to see you here again soon.:) :)
 
Eating healthy food isn't all tofu, celery and water. What are you eating? You should let yourself eat almost anything, with an eye to portion and calorie control rather than total denial. If you could perhaps post a list of what you ate today here, we could make some suggestions.

Beating yourself up over this doesn't help, even the most successful people here have had their trials. There's no shame in having to start over. I'm doing pretty well, but this is the fourth time in my life I have worked on losing weight, which means I've failed more than I've succeeded.

Wishing you strength and success!
 
Seriously - the only eating plan that works long term is one that you will stick with... I absolutely do not eat bland food (I'd rather cut my tongue out first) it's possible to eat good tasting food (as long as it's not overly processed or fried) and still lose weight.

A bunch of people, myself included, add their daily menus int heir diaries - check out some of those for ideas of what you can do.
 
And you can't compare yourself to other people. . yeah, some of them are really staying strong but they have had their share of 'poor eating days' and most likely they will have a few to come.

Tomorrow is a new day. . forget yesterday. . .

And definitely listen to the previous posters. It's hard to eat all healthy food all day . .I can't imagine doing it for the rest of my life. You can eat pretty much anything just watch the portion sizes.

For instance, I used to eat 3 or 4 pieces of pizza. Now, I eat 1 slice. I'm still hungry so I will make a nice salad with low fat/fat free dressing.

Tonight, we are having chicken breast in a cream of chicken sauce over noodles. It's extremely tasty but the noodles are starchy and the cream of chicken is high in fat. So I will eat a small portion of that and a large portion of green beans.

You can do this and we are all here to help!!
 
Be positive

I know how you feel and I believe everyone has been where you are! It takes time, patience, and learning self-control. I don't think everyone got it right the first, second, or even third time. :p


I do however, have a major problem with eating sweets. I'll take a pecan pie or chocolate ice cream over steak any day, and I'm struggling with those urges as I type! But during this time, I also found out that I LOVE cereal. Special K with the strawberries and bananas helps me when I want something sweet, and it tastes good. And it's healthy!

I also agree that it's all about portion control. Sometimes, it's not what you eat but HOW much you eat and you DONT burn off that makes people struggle with their weight. I treat myself once in a while, but I don't overdue it.

I also agree that there is a lot of tastey food out there that is healthy. Sometimes we get so use to eating fast food, junk food, and everything that is bad for us. BUT that it's all we know and we have gotten accustomed to certain eating habits, so everything else is foreign to us! Everything else is nasty! But I have came to the conclusion that it's alll in your mind, and as easy as it was to adapt to unhealthy foods, I can adapt to healthy foods. So can you.:)
 
I was on the second day of my plan and I had been so good all day! Then I got home and had a huge sweet tooth attack. I decided if I ate dinner it would fill me up and I could over come the craving. But alas, I ate the rest of my husband's rocky road ice cream haha! However, I didn't let it get me down...and I'm doing better than ever. The first days are hard because you have to make a mental and physical comitment to your new life. Good luck! We're all here to help and support you!
 
same here

i did the exact same thing. I cheated at 11pm on the first day of my diet. It sucks.. but dont worry. start again. i've always made weight loss my new years revolution. it never happened. i need to go all out. but i'm trying to start the diet early, i dont want any excuses to put it off anymore. you can do it. just remember that youre not alone on the diet. all of us are doing it too. we're here to talk to.

good luck. :D
 
I will TRY!

Thanks so much everyone for the encouragement! I sincerely really do appreciate it! Let me formally introduce myself ‘weightically’ =P I am 210 pounds round 95 kgs, I am 5’7 and I just turned 26. Oh also I am girl meaning lower metabolism rate. I gained weight five years ago, I gained about 100 pounds from emotional eating because of depression I guess and food is really comforting. Now I need to pull myself back to the real problem with my weight cos my wake up call came from a friend of mine same age with me and same size as well and she has high blood pressure and diabetes. It literally scared me, might be genetic for her but I don’t buy it because I really think I might have a serious health problem soon if I do not loose the weight. It’s not a question of being fearful of dying, but this is just not the way I want to live my life. I have been hiding for so long, feeling the shame, dodging the glances from my friends who met up with me after years and they just went OMG, some even snickered and others literally showed their disgust. That hurts but not as much as my knees right now, I realized that climbing only a flight of stairs would leave me breathless, squatting down for too long will leave me faintish and the list goes on. I used to walk my dogs a lot but now I can’t keep up with them out of feeling so tired. Everyday I am lethargic and I am just tired all the time, I put everything on hold, I put my life on hold and the years just go by so quickly! Sometimes I feel maybe I am too comfortable with how things are, feeling like I am stuck but yet I don’t want to move, it’s like some sick twisted self punishment intertwined with the value of self-worth and the level of self-esteem. I know it’s really pathetic but sometimes that’s how I feel. Anyhow I just want to loose some weight and be healthier, at least just to be able to physically move faster without gasping for air. Yep on my first day, I failed. I contemplated non stop the whole day like an addict for food, all the oily, salty and the sweet food and I gave in. I had health food for the whole day, all soy based, I stacked up on the healthy food and I could not swallow them and I had to drink a lot of water. I had oatmeal with skim milk today and that’s not bad actually. I guess I have this belief that it’s cosmic karma thing, I ate so much in the past, my body is like a ‘sin well’, all the animals and the fat everything and that’s not including the exploitation of cheap labor from poor nations giving up their food and they have to suffer with all their miseries just because I have to eat a lot! Okay… so instant oatmeal with skim milk and a lot of water is my menu right now. Actually I don’t know how to cook and I always eat out so other than the oatmeal and the soy products (all no hassle and instant), I have nothing else in my fridge.

I am also moving around now, cleaning and doing housework, climbing the stairs, slowly but at least I do move around now and I started to actually walk a bit more by parking further from my destination. I don’t know whether it’s enough but I really am trying little by little. P/S: Another wake up call of mine is when my kids at school drew me as a ‘pink ball’ for their arts n crafts class! Anyhow thanks everyone! Will persevere and update all of you with my progress. I want to give myself two weeks with this new ‘moving around a bit and think positive with oatmeal and soy’ plan =) Thank all of you so much for caring! I hope all of us will succeed in getting healthier and skinnier! Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah everyone! :D
 
Great to see that you are hanging in there!

We weigh a very similar amount to each other - though I am a lot shorter. I totally relate to the knees, stairs and squatting. I am not keen to catch up with old friends who remember me as weighing ~ 80 lbs less either. I like food that is quick to prepare too, though for me that includes things like wholemeal crackers, low fat cheese, raw veges and tomato juice.

Do you feel that you have to eat such a restricted diet to punish yourself for eating badly in the past?
 
Punishing myself hmmm

To Felici,

Probably on the self punishment regime, old habit I think. Jokes aside, I dunno cos lately I've been well 'awaken' or something like that to be more compassionate towards not consuming animal meat, oh no maybe I am a 'vegetarian' in the closet hehe I know the menu is drastic and I am also skeptical whether I could stick to it but I think eating too much meat is really bad especially red meat and most recently I actually saw how people really slaughter animals, nightmare... I went to a farm, when they slaughtered the pig and the chicken, it's really haunting the sound, the cries and I actually looked into the pig's eyes accidentally because I was petrified with the horror. Long story cut short, I was very hungry but I could not eat the food served to me. Buying meat frozen and burgers, junk food all that, you don't see the faces of the animals, it became like just a piece of meat, a merchandise commercialized for the masses but after my experience there, I just thought to myself, gosh! Did some research, actually protein from beans and soy products surpass in their amount of nutrition from consuming meat. I won't swear off meat forever, cos I dunno what will happen in the future, I just want to really cut down on it. To have a strict diet, ya maybe punishing myself but this is a test to me, I want to test my limit. I used to be someone that when I put my mind into doing something, I will do it and achieve it. 'She' seems to have disappeared underneath this shield of fat and I just want to remember how I was like, it sounds funny but it's true, sometimes we just forsake ourself for too long til the last few traces of who we are are 'killed' off by who we have become, in this case, my weight is one of the main factor but I am not blaming it solely on the weight problem, of course there are personal and emotional problems, life, you know all that. So right now, I wanna test how far off have I faltered and to test my so called 'endurance'. The oatmeal and skim milk menu might sound ridiculous to some but it's actually filling and I am taking lots of supplement to help and drinking lots of water too. I do hope I can just train my mind not to crave for food as the replacement of me craving for something deeper in my soul. Cheers!
 
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